bittersweet symphony

so i just woke up (which is amazing cause i slept like almost 11 hours which is a miracle since i could hardly sleep all week!)

and im all excited cause i can finally say that "Olivia is getting married tomorrow!" but im suddenly so so so soooo sadddd. i knew this would happen, i knew she would be moving away, but all of a sudden its here and all the prep talks i gave myself so i wouldnt be sad arent working. best friend is moving away again and has an official new best friend. no matter how i look at it, those are the facts.

BUT im going to try and visit her cause i really want to see their cute apartment and play with her being married in her new home. and im pretty sure they will be home for christmas, so it wont be so long until i see her again even if i dont make it out there before then.

no more slumber parties.

ok, i gotta go get my nails done...i cant go all blotchy and teary faced...

byebye best friend.

wedding weeks!

last night the bachelorette party was SO fun! we had a lovely dinner and dessert and fun games and laughter at my house. leah and mom decorated SO good and the margaritas were amazing...and the cake my mom made was so fing good too. i was so tired, but had a goodtime...and most importantly Olivia said it was too perfect and exactly what she wanted too, and thats all that mattered to me. im glad i was able to do it for her, i found i really love party planning...i should do it all the time! but i dont like being the hostess, i cant relax and enjoy the guests so its not so fun...which is why people need party planners!

the picture upload form isnt working and im too tired to be patient.

tomorrow me and annie r getting our nails done and cashing our paycheck (YAY!) and i have some wedding errands to run. THEN we have rehearsal and the rehearsal dinner from 4pm on...im gonna look so fing hot, im so excited.

so what happening with the weather, all of a sudden its fricken HOT again...and it was so nice before too...sad.

worked new job again today. it was ok, im just frustrated that my boss doesnt seemed thrilled about explaining things to me...and i get confused and try and write everything down but he talks so fast. he doesnt like to come into work so hell just come for a few hours a day and its all stressful trying to get him to get everything done and help me with everything within like 3 hours...maybe tuesday will be better when he explains the difference between signiture guarentees and checks and securities files again...for the 50th time cause i cant remember. i try and remember its not my fault, ive just never done it before! arg!

ok, BED has been calling me all week! here i come long lost friend.

first day of new job!

was so fun!
i really liked everything i do...some of it is similar to my receptionist job but lots of it is new with maintaining the advisor's financial accounts and other admin stuff for them...its pretty cool i guess. and me and annie get to IM to each other and have lunch together and laugh at her bathroom problems...haha...

tomorrow night is the big bachelorette party im throwing for Olivia...its been really crazy trying to get everything together but i think its going to be really fun. lots of yummy food, laugh, drinks, sweets..niiiiceeee...

im soooo tired...i havent been sleeping good cause of so much stress, and im sooo tirrrreddd...

ive been on a Degrassi kick all week so far...i saw one ive never seen before! the one where manny gets an abortion, it was really really sad actually..i was frustrated with her for being such a whore and then being all suprised and upset about it...of course, its not real...whatevs.


ok byebye. im so excited for the party tomorrow!!!

something silly

today i had the first day of most of my classes. i forgot how horribly boring school is and i truly dont know what to do because im already bored with doodling...someone give me ideas so i dont daydream and want to kill myself.

my schools really nice! its all really new and fancy and clean and nice.

start my new job tomorrow! woot!

stressed about everything happening this week and my financial issues and planning parties and attending parties and new job and new school and EVERYTHING happening at once...didnt sleep hardly at all last night, have been having intense tummy and heartburn issues cause of stress i think, i keep having to ask God to help me calm down and to trust Him with everything Hes given me...i need to remember He never gives more then i can handle...but i have to call on Him! i need to do that!

ok friends, wish me luck on this crazy week.
if ur lucky, ill post pictures!

lovelove.

PS: GO NOW AND BUY THE ROSIE THOMAS CD'S...ANY WILL DO, JUST GO BUY THEM NOW.



i stole this from micah who NEVER does surveys, i thought it was a momentous occasion

1. Who was your best friend?
cassie, she even gave me hand foot and mouth disease from her house.

2. What sports did you play?
i did marathon training, but only made it up to the half marathon...got last place. i rule.

3. What kind of car did you drive?
same one as now. good old viagra. (acura vigor 94)

4. On a Friday night what were you doing?
having BBQ's, going to see Noise Ratchet or As I Lay Dying shows, watching movies, doing nothing with that stupid boyfriend, watching Degrassi with cassie...so what else is new?

5. Were you a party animal?
no, that happened after high school. and even then, i wasnt so crazy...just happy.

6. Were you considered a flirt?
no, i was busy doing nothing with stupid boyfriend

7. Were you in band, orchestra, or choir?
9th grade i was in handbells. i know ur SO jealous

8. Were you a nerd?
no, i was a cool indie girl with undiagnosed learning disabilities...sweet!

9. Did you get suspended/expelled?
ive never gotten in trouble my entire life...other then for wearing revealing clothing at random church camps, but even then its just cause im too hot for the cranky old counselors...sometimes i cry

10. Can you still sing the fight song?
repeat: i was a cool indie girl. therefore i was way to cool for school organized activities, especially sports.

11. Who was your favorite teacher?
mrs mansberger. i got a 103% in her class and she ran with me in running races for marathon training even when i was last everytime.

12. Where did you sit during lunch?
normally with everyone else in the little shaded bench area...we had a spot. on tuesdays me and stupid boyfriend ate on the hill and sometimes cuddled and sometimes got in fights

13. Name the school full name?
La Costa Canyon High School

14. School mascot?
mavarick i think

15. School Colors?
green and gold maybe?

16. Rival high school?
torrey pines?

17. Did you go to Prom?
junior year, yes. senior year we went to dinner and a play instead cause...well face it, proms kinda lame.

18. If you could go back and do it again, would you?
i would edit out stupid boyfriend, i would have taken more AP classes so i could have NOT gone to community college for 3 years, i would get help for not being smart, i would play more with olivia.

19. What do you remember most about graduation?
i remember my english teacher who i thought hated me all year, and i hated him...came up to me specifically to tell me how awesome i was. (i may have used a "free speech" time in class to talk about Jesus...whatever)

20. Where did you go senior skip day?
i skipped all the time, their was no official day.

21. Favorite memory?
junior year prom i guess...we have an AMAZING picture to prove it and it was a really fun time.

22. Were you in any clubs?
christian club, that marathon club

23. Where did you go most often for lunch?
our nook

24. Have you gained some weight since then?
probably, but not a ton.

25. Who was your Senior prom date?
i didnt have one. finally broke up with stupid boyfriend by then

26. Are you planning on going to your 10-year reunion?
probably not, i dont know anyone except people im still friends with...maybe if my old english teacher is there and hes still single...ummmmm

27. Who was your homeroom teacher?
homeroom is for losers!

29. Who was your high school sweetheart?
jake

30. Do you still talk to people from high school?
my closest friends

31. Did you win prom queen or king?
obviously the angry indie girl won! we didnt have that anyway so ha.

32. Where did you work in high school?
i worked at my church actually and i was a nanny too

33. What were your grades?
B average and worked my ass off for it too!

out of the loop

well, my dear friend kelsey reminded me that i have yet to post an update in quite awhile again. i suck at this, but i do have to say i am better then others who havent updated in like 5 years...so ha.

currently i am awake sitting in bed at 7:41am. why am i up so early on a saturday u ask? yeah, i dunno either but its annoying. it happens a lot actually...ill wake up at like 6 or 7 cause the dogs have to go outside...but then instead of being a normal person and going back to sleep...i lie awake for about 2 hours pondering everything i have to do that day and such...its not so fun. so thats what i was just doing and i decided to go on the computer instead...the effect is working, im getting sleepy again.

so by the way, i got the new job at the office...i was supposed to start this week, but bossy boss was really busy being in a golf tournament and going on vacation on the days i was supposed to work...soo it got pushed to starting on tuesday. im a financial advising groups assistant. the situation between my boss and the girl who worked the job before is really weird, so im kinda sketchy about getting really excited about the job yet...im pessimistic.

olivia gets married a week from today!!! i cant believe it! im so so so soooo excited! this week is going to be really stressful for me tho, and im not looking forward to that...but hopefully the wedding being the light at the end of the tunnel will help...and the million things i have to do are pretty fun i think. im throwing a bachelorette party for miss olivia on wednesday night, its going to be SO fun...which reminds me, i should probably invite the people today...hehe. i start my MW classes next week too...im excited for my teaching foundations classes and pretty non chalant about my grammar and science class...they are just my last lower division classes that miracosta didnt offer...BORING...but after them its clear skies all the way with actual interesting classes...we hope. i had my T/TH class, art for children, and im already SO excited about the class but then miss beth van boxtel was in it too which was soo exciting since i really dont know anyone there so even seeing someone around is fun let alone in your most favorite class ever with u!

next week, i have new classes MW and new work and art T/TH. and then bachelorette party im throwing wednesday, the bridal party is going out thursday, friday is rehearsal dinner, and of course saturday. i think its going to be ok, ive had crazier weeks before in my life...and everything is fun like i said...but ill just be surprised if i make it alive to friday...being past my prime and everything.

i think today im going to see my long awaited Harry Potter. even at the IMAX 3D thing. ive waited all summer and today is the day.

ok, i think its time for a snack and back to sleep. also at my early waking hour i get STARVING, even if manage to get back to sleep my tummy will wake me up...it really is ridiculous but it happens all the time and i dont know why!

ok, night night.

lovelove.

things

well i might be getting a new job at the office, something bigger and better...im trying not to get my hopes up because it might not work out, but it could mean a pay raise, my own office, new duties, ect...so im minorly excited!

my cars in the shop cause its dead from not being used. kinda annoying to be stuck here.

sunday i "start" in the high school group, just checking it out and making sure its something i really do feel called to do. im excited cause its all my friends in leadership and i think it could be really really fun.

pick up my bridesmaid dress on saturday and lay down another 100$ on it. everyones coming into town for the weeks around the wedding and im so so SO excited to see everyone and dance the night away looking like a mamasita in my strapless dress of lushiousness...hehe.

i got the box from apple to send my computer back...arrrrrggggg...my lack of credit got denied from apple to get a new one. we'll see what best buy has to say. im annoyed.

i feel lethargic cause all i wanna do is play with people but everyones out of town or working and i dont have a car...its frustrating. i have tons of things to do around the house, but i just don wanna...

ok, back to figuring out the computer issues.

lovelove.

its been awhile.

well i havent updated in forever.
india doesnt like blogger apparently...nor does life like to give me time.
but here i am now, alive and well and home from far away india.

lets see.
it was a lovely time there. lots of amazing ministry with kids and young people and fellowship with believers across the fricken world. if u wanna see pictures, go to myspace:
www.myspace.com/estherthebesther
and i have an india album up u can see some pictures.

well im home now. i dont start school until august 23rd, and i start work back at the office the same week. until then im running millions of errands, getting ready for the besties wedding, getting unpacked, seeing everyone, soooo busy...

in other news, i lost my job at apple cause they're retarded. im bummed cause i was told long ago i would be working at san marcos, and i was excited for all the opportunities for work stuff...so now i suddenly have to send my computer back and i dont have the money for a new one, and im annoyed and dont know what to do.

sooo my classes for the fall are so much better then they've ever been. i still have two crapp undergraduate classes i have to fulfill, just physical science and some weird grammar class...but then i get to take two education classes and one art for children class! im excited!

currently im watching good ol Degrassi.
i really love this stupid teen show...im so lame.

kelsey, cassie, annnnd annie will all be home this weekend!!! im so excited!

i pick up my bridesmaid dress this weekend.
see harry potter this weekend.
play with my girls this weekend.

its all happening!

lovelove.