happy birthday to me!

yayyyyy its my 23rd birthday!!!

i had such a lovely birthday weekend. Friday night me and the rents went to see my favorite musicians of all time play a show on the same bill! what are the odds?!

Iron & Wine

and

the Swell Season as featured in the movie ONCE (my fav movie of all time of course).

that was quite a night. for all of us music lovers out there, we know that feeling your body gets when your listening to some amazing music. its hard to describe. its like your heart is beating so fast and you start breathing really fast and you feel kinda tingly and happy...so so happy but also like to want to cry...and sometimes you do. you want to close your eyes and fall into the sound but also want to keep them open to see how they are making that beautiful noise. its got to be similar to how a drug makes people feel. thats the best i can describe it. if you've never experienced this either your listening to shitty music or you're never allowed to say "im really into music"...or both options of course.

anyway, then Saturday i slept in real good and played with kelsey and annie and jordan a little and then went down to Micah and Cammies for a joint birthday for me and Julia. Our birthdays are both today! yay! they had a black and white theme party and me and Julia got to wear a dash of color cause its our birthday:) it was SO fun! Tisha and CJ were there...and cammie and micah of course...and new church friends. so nice. except when i drank too much and wasnt a happy camper. hence, why i did NOTHING on Sunday because i was so so so sick. Champange can really do me in apparently. not fun. but im feeling fine today and just went to school. tonight me and the entire family are going out for a nice Italian dinner in Enc! yay! so fun!

heres some really cute pictures from Saturday night, i LOVE them!

something funny

in case you dont know, me and my friend annie both work as the receptionist at an executive suites in the area. actually, the correct term is "office manager" since we do more than just answer phones and mail stuff:) anyway, annie works M-TH and i work Fridays. me and annie write work notes to each other to keep up on things going on in the office. usually they are just normal office things, but sometimes its just really boring here and uneventful so i write funny notes or decorate them or leave her weird things on the computer, etc. this weeks note is just really funny and since she wont see this till at least Monday im posting some excerpts for your viewing pleasure.

reference:
"Brad Pitt" is the beautiful and mysterious boy who sometimes works in the studio. hes so mysterious we dont actually know his name. he only smiles...sometimes...

the final paragraph is clearly a reference to Twilight in case your an idiot and havent read it (seriously, go read it now)

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Hey Annie!
Special Events as of today. PS I like how in the rent folder it says “bills that have special needs” I think it’s funny. Its like one bill is in a wheelchair, another is blind, maybe one has one leg, etc…I laughed out loud thinking you were trying to be funny but then realized maybe you didn’t even realize your genius…although then again, maybe you did and chuckle every time you open the folder…in fact maybe you wrote it on purpose so every time you opened the folder you would laugh instead of hate your job or something. I just don’t know anymore.

I think the office is going to keep being crazy with everything going on with the financial industry and all the offices booked and the studio stuff and the magazine being all crazy too. It’s just a crazy time I think! If it doesn’t slow down again eventually, I’m asking for a raise! Hehe just kidding (or am I?)

I just talked to Brad Pitt. I asked him what he got for lunch when he got back and he said

“just on a roll”

…he said 4 words to me…sigh…

(does “a” count as a word? It does now)

I just wish he wore tighter pants.

I had a delicious veggie burrito from Primos today and a GIANT diet coke. When I asked them for the biggest cup they ever had he jokingly started to walk to the back and said “hold on, lemme just go get a bucket”. I laughed a lot, it was just so clever of him! Little does he know I could clearly down an entire bucket of diet coke and this is no laughing matter.

I keep forgetting to tell you that the exact other side of my neck has exact replicas of my other vampire bite. It’s weird. I think someone beautiful sneaks through my window at night and love bites me and holds me in his freezing stone cold arms. Swoon…

me and annie at the office last winter. clearly Big Gulps of Diet Coke (or Coke for the Ginger) are preferable over coffee ANY day! (its ok to be thinking- "big gulps huh...welp, see ya later!" we said that pretty much every time we had them too...which was pretty much everyday)

beginning of a lovely week

today my math class was cancelled! yay!
so i skipped my early morning class before it and me and alyssa are meeting for lunch at panera instead! she get a snazzy new car so its kinda a celebration of that and class being cancelled and our friend danielle just got back from sicily and may have big news for us as well...so hopefully it will be the beginning of a lovely week.

my dogs love it when im home in bed...they just come in and out and come cuddle with me and then go check on something and then come back...its usually annoying for me, unless i have nothing to do except enjoy what im doing at the moment...like the old chinese proverb says:

"know that whatever you are doing is the most beautiful thing."

(obviously i got that off of my Yogi tea bag.)

last night i watched Zach Galifinakus live DVD again...jeez, its just so funny! i just want to marry him so so much.

anyway, have a lovely week.

what an awesome week!

this week has been so busy, but so wonderful! ive twittered a lot of my excitements, but lets review.

1) 86% on my math test! i suck at math! thats one of the best test grades ive gotten in math, EVER! and it was hard! and we got 3 extra credit points so really its an 89%! i almost had a heart attack when she was handing them back...i cant fail this class and i just barely pass my math classes normally, so i was so nervous!

2) my AD/HD presentation was AMAZING! we kicked ass!!! me and Alyssa are such theatre people and really enjoy being in front of people and teaching, plus our powerpoint was amazing and NOT boring and we dont read off the slides:), and i got to tell lots of good stories about my family and i that everyone really seemed to like. the professor told us later that it was the best presentation shed ever SEEN! love it! oh, and we got a 100% of course.

3) i taught my first lesson to my third graders:) it was about "predicate" and what predicates are and they gave me examples and i put them on a poster. i messed up a little but because i wasnt totally clear on the concept she was trying to convey and i got confused with the different tenses...but i recovered without anything seeming wrong and the kids werent phased by it. my teacher said i did an awesome job and that even though i messed up it wasnt a big deal because i handled it well and the kids went with me wherever i was taking them. she said i was a natural! which is more important because she cant teach me those things! yay!

in other news: today was quite possibly the most stressful day ive ever worked at the office...besides when i worked for dc and wanted to kill myself because i was so stressed out all the time. but the reception is so easy! but today i hardly got any homework done because all these events kept happening at once...phone ringing off the hook...secuirty guy there trying to fix things and teach me to use it and then set off the alarm...tons of mail and packages to sign for...computers internet and phones not working...tons of clients coming in for meetings...it was CRAZY all day! well until about 230p when it calmed down for the most part. i was just overwhelmed all day because its Friday and im just dead by Friday and can only work that job because its not a lot of work on Fridays. today was just ridiculous. now i have 2 papers to write over the weekend and math homework:(

im having birthday issues. i dont know what i want to do because i have run out of ideas and everyones so busy and doesnt have money. i still want to have a big party at my house but i need to get that together if im going to do it and i just dont have the energy or enough friends to fill my house...i think. besides, cassie and olivia arent here and kelsey has traffic school on what looks to be the only day we can get together. i just want someone to plan it for me, afterall its MY birthday. i just want to show up...hehe.

owell, im sure something will be fun.

Finally a Holiday for me!

In honor of national unmarried and singles week i thought id post this beautiful song Pandora just gave me probably to get me to tear up but i just added it to the "possible wedding" song list i keep and then got back to researching the lesson im developing on teaching children about genocide. nothing like preparing a lesson about genocide to keep things in perspective.

all my love.


Beloved One
By Ben Harper

We have both been here before
Knockin upon loves door
Begging for someone to let us in
Knowing this we can agree to keep each other company
Never to go down that road again

My beloved one, my beloved one

Your eyes shine through me
You are so divine to me
Your heart has a home in mine
We wont have to say a word
With a touch all shall be heard
When I search my heart its you I find

My beloved one, my beloved one, my beloved one

You were meant for me, I believe you were sent to me from a dream straight into
To my *arms*
Hold your body* *close to me
You mean the most to me
We will keep each other safe from harm

My beloved one, my beloved one, my beloved one

hello

hooray! my computer should be back in my possession within the next 2 days! hopefully tomorrow, but im not counting on it. theyve had it for like a month, ive been going CRAZY! i have a project i want to work on it and some pictures and music i need to use it for so ive been going a little nuts.

my birthday is so soon! i believe October 4th Micahs house downtown is hosting a big joint party for a few birthdays. its a black and white theme and its going to be pretty amazing. everyones invited so if u want to come down with me please do! il only know like a handful of people there so itd be nice to have some more friendly faces.

but im hoping the weekend afterwards me and the girls can do something fun. but it will sadly be without cassie. sad face.

schools going ok, tomorrow i have to be there super early for a special meeting thing i have to observe for my class. afterwards ill probably go back to bed, maybe get my conmputer, and then get working on all the papers and homework i have to do. i realized that technically im enrolled in like 23 units this semester. i have 15 units of classes and 8 hrs per week of practicum and large assignments due in everything, including the practicum of course. im so glad im not working! makes me so much less stressed and i actually have time to do things! yay!

i got my hair cut today...im going to color it soon too. it looks lovely, and i think it will actually be stylable now! i was really frustrated before because i couldnt get it to do anything.

i had a big realization recently. im in love with people who dont exist. besides the obvious like Edward Cullen, Jim Halpert, Mr. Darcy, Russell from Almost Famous, Harry Potter, etc. i also tend to fall "in love" with real people i know who arent really the person ive made them up to be at all. somehow i imagined this entirely different person without even realizing it. its really hard to connect the two and say good bye to my fictional people. its similar to the feeling of when you read a book and you love it so much and are so engrossed in it that toward the end you get a little sad and heart broken because your going to miss all your new friends, places, memories...and such. such as Harry Potter series, Twilight series, even Narnia. but it has to happen. i have to say good bye. its a bit freeing also...like, i can begin to like other people without comparing them to all my fictional people ive locked away in my head.

i need to read more. Brideshead revisited is sitting on my night stand untouched. i want to try Wuthering Heights too. and maybe some books about Jesus. its hard to read during the school year because my mind is always so tired from all my lectures and homework...but i love reading. and of course, i need some more fictional characters so fill my empty holes now dont i.

all my love.

PS please someone have a halloween party so i can be Holly Golightly...please?!

because its too early to do homework yet

ive been at work for exactly 40 minutes. its just so early to start homework. im hardly even functioning, let alone could read these boring text books they insist upon giving me. oh green tea "Energy" please provide me with what you boast of.

Good things:
-im totally falling for my 3rd grade class im student teaching in. i wasnt super excited about it, but they're just so cute and fun. and they think i am the COOLEST and give me hugs everyday and the little girls want to hold my hand when we walk places and they're just so cute.

-not working so much has totally decreased my stress level. im eating healthy, making a point to walk more, getting more sleep than usual (for the school year), getting my homework and projects done without being stressed out, and just chillin. however, its still early in the year and we havent had a lot due yet...however, when things do start to get crazy, ill have time to do everything AND still have the weekends free, yay!

-cammie is finally in SD and its been SO wonderful spending time with him. i just have so much fun with him all the time! i forgot how similar we are in a lot of things...so lovely!

-its my birthday soon! October 6th the dreaded 23 year birthday arrives. I feel like 23 is just so dang old. but i do think 23 has the potential to be a great year. school will be winding down for me...i wont be so stressed with trying to work so much all the time...and im trying to plan some adventures for in between. plus, i have this weird feeling that this is going to be the year i meet someone legit to seriously date...its just a feeling i have.

-birthday celebrations this year are going to be crazy! ill have dinner with the family, i want to do cocktails with the girls out somewhere, im throwing myself a big party at our huge house while my parents are out of town (dont worry, they said its ok:), and micahs house and friends are hosting a party for me (kinda) and Julia...their actual room mate. im SO excited to plan everything...i love planning...and i love getting dressed up...i bought a cute little dress already...yay!

-speaking of shopping, yesterday was quite a day. i decided that it was high time to get working on updating my wardrobe bit. i havent bought myself things ive needed for a long time, and now that i have to start getting dressed up for teaching, it was time to get some new things. i LOVE shopping, i had so much fun getting everything! among my favorites are getting $70 shoes for $30 from the Nordstroms sale rack...a black pencil skirt that makes me look like i should carry a whip around with me...and skinny black capris that make me feel like Audrey reincarnated. and those are just the favorites, theres more! so fun!

and now a survey that Olivia did...i miss her. visiting her is one of my adventures I'm scheming.

Does your last ex have a job?
i dont know actually, maybe...i think hes still in school? i try and stay away from my exes...its a good rule.


What were you doing before filling out this survey?
opening the office...woo


Has anyone ever broken your heart?
yeah, but looking back it wasnt that big of a deal...it just seemed like it at the time and i didnt have as much perspective on life as i do now. i have a feeling i either have a huge heartbreak or a huge love in my future...my greatest love adventure has yet to arrive.

How late did you stay up last night?
i had to get up at 6a so i went to bed at 10p...and im STILL tired. im just really not a morning person.

What was the first thing you thought this morning?
this is what i literally think EVERY morning when my alarm goes off..."ARE YOU KIDDING?!" im not even exaggerating. however today i woke up before my alarm went off because i think i graded Fransisco's writing to hard at my 3rd grade yesterday...poor Fransisco.

What are you going to do this weekend?
id like to spend time with Matthew...but we'll see if that works out. i think im going to head downtown again and visit loved down there...plus everything is more fun downtown.

Do you still talk to the first person you kissed?
not really, but sometimes i stalk him online just to see how hes doing...does that count?

Are you Irish in any way?
actually yes, my grandpa immigrated to Canada from Belfast, Ireland. he has an accent and i have family in Ireland and everything!

Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?
it depends who im talking with. if its my girl friends it ok, but for some reason boys really like to bring it up with me and i really dont like talking about it with them. call me crazy.

Have you ever kissed someone you weren't dating?
once. i DONT recommend it.

Ever kissed someone younger than you?
first and longest boyfriend was a whopping 2 years younger than me. that was a lot for high school. i was only 1 grade above him but he was young for his grade and i was old for mine. im a creeper ok?

Older than you?
yep, the other two were a year older and then 3 years older i think. yeah thats right, ive kissed whopping 3 people. mostly because i dont let that creepy guy at the bar who bought you a drink slobber all over my face. ill pass, thanks.

Are you happy right now?
i guess...im just really tired and its cloudy so i wish i was in bed...and i dont want to do my homework...but im looking forward to the weekend! yay!

What color are your eyes?
blue. its sweet, except when every guy that hits on me uses it as a pick up line...heard it thanks.

Who/what do you hate currently?
school...i just want to be done. but i like my friends. and i like the kids. just 2 more years...just 2 more years...just 2 more years...

Do you get the recommended eight hours of sleep a night?
i try to get more, my body really likes 9 hours...but i usually get at least 7...then im cranky most of the next day.


When is your birthday?
October 6th...YAY!

Are you multitasking right now?
kinda...im checking out these hot guys waiting in the reception area...trying to look cute and Pam-like while they're here...and doing this blog all at once...hehe

Could you handle being in the military?
gosh no, i HATE authority...im secretly really rebellious when it comes to authority. its my big issue with democrats actually...i love your ideas of loving the poor...but i really dont want anyone i dont even know in charge of me. sorry.


Do you believe in karma?
not really. but there is the obvious thing that when you do something mean to someone they probably arent going to be very nice to you back...if not now, then someday...and maybe their friends too.

What are you excited for?
visiting Cammie maybe this weekend! new clothes! my birthday events! and oddly, thanksgiving break because i wont have work or school and i love food and family SO much!

Relationships or one night stands?
Relationships PLEASE

How many piercings do you have?
double pierced ears and my nose of course. BTW im really glad i never got a lip or monroe like i wanted for about a year...so lame now.

Few things you're doing at the moment?
listening to crappy radio, being cold, answering the phone, drinking tea

Who is the last person you talked to on the phone?
Annie the other day i think...i dont really use my minutes, free texting overrides actually talking to people.

Ever kissed in the rain?
of course! its the best!

How's your heart lately?
lonely, but what else is new?

Are you a jealous person?
kinda...depends how my confidence level is at the moment. if im feeling good then i dont care about being jealous...if im feeling bad about myself, then i get fussy

Did you have a good birthday this year?
yeah it was pretty good...goofys kitchen with the girls of course:)

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
no thanks, he was an ass

Are you a heavy sleeper?
not really, i wake up really easily unless im really tired

How many people have you kissed in 2008?
1, it sucked

How did you feel when you woke up today?
so cranky...its still dark out! i just could NOT wake up

Kiss on the first date?
its been known to happen, but ive learned my lesson and i dont recommend it

Who was the last person you took a picture of?
myself. its a long story: i was taking my new clothes and matching them with old clothes i never wear in an attempt to make some new outfits...i was going to take pictures of each one and make an iphoto album of all my outfits so i could remember them and pick them out the night before from my computer (yes, just like Cher from Clueless). but then i remembered my computer is STILL at best buy getting fixed...and that it would take forever...and my camera wasnt charged...so i put it in to charge and then got distracted watching Friends and i got tired. so after one picture i was over it.

How often do you see your ex?
every 4 years or something...not much. we dont really have anything in common anyway, nothing to even talk about.

Would you ever donate blood?
no way. i have really really little veins so when i go to the doctor the nurses have to use a tiny needle to draw blood...going to donate blood, ugh theyd have to dig around my arm to find them with the huge needles and u can imagine how painful that is. plus, i feel guilted into giving blood so therefore i will not.

Have you ever driven without a license?
no i dont think so?

Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
Cammie!

Do you want someone dead?
uh no, thats weird

What does your last text message say?
"how about sun the 12th for a birthday party?" from Micah:)

Do you wish someone was with you right now?
i wish i was with my bests...i can think of so many that i miss right now.

Where did you get the shirt your wearing?
Kohls actually...i actually really like it

Is someone in your mind right now?
Olivia because its her survey and because i miss her a lot

Have you ever been in a hotel room with a friend of the opposite sex?
yes! so fun!

Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
depends who im compared too. me vs. Paris Hilton...nope. me vs. children in India...yep.

What are you listening to?
crappy radio playing Marc Antony. oh office music how i hate thee

When is the last time you cried?
wednesday when i saw a dead coyote on the side of the road. i said "im sorry Coyote that we moved into your home and then killed you". it was actually really really sad.

Who were you with last night?
parents and bella and worms...just chillin

Is there someone you wanna date right now?
sometimes. but i tend to have crushes on boys i dont really know. honostly, i wanna date Edward Cullen but thats a secret i dont like to discuss with normal people.

Cinematic Adventures and such

im SO excited for the following films. Usually I can wait until it comes on video and just netflix it, but these ones i think i need to see in the theatre. the last year of movies were just awful, this year looks SO promising!

Hamlet 2 current
Burn After Reading Sept. 12
Austrailia Nov. 14
Twilight Nov. 21 (OMG)
Revolutionary Road Dec. 26
Harry Potter 6 ??

AND the following shows are all coming in October, im not sure i can contain myself!
Oct. 1 Sigur Ros
Oct. 3 Swell Season and Iron & Wine
Oct. 19 Conor Oberst and the Mystic Valley Band
Oct. 29 Neil Young and Deathcab for Cutie

i need tickets to all these events STAT.

lovelove.

just when i thought i couldnt love Klimt anymore, i find this among the prints i bought from the museum in Vienna. the actual piece is in Munich so i didnt get to see it, but its amazing! most of the gold in the picture is inlayed gold leaflets...LOVE isnt a strong enough word to describe my emotion for this picture.

lately ive been super self conscious. i think ive gained a little weight since ive been home and i feel so weird about it. i dont even think anyone else can really tell, but i feel just awful about myself. my self confidence is currently in the toilet. i started looking up ugly people online to make myself feel better. i think i have a complex. 

im sick. not only do i feel like crap, but im just so lethargic and antisocial because i feel irritable and so so tired all the time. all my family in the area is coming over today! uncle, aunt, and lukey pukey. and my aunt and cousin are here from michigan. and even brother is coming over! we're having rice and beans and drinking and laying in the pool and having fun. im tired (of course) and i dont like this hot weather. it just makes me want to take a nap with my fan.

tomorrow i meet all the third graders im going to work with. its their first day of school! im going to bring in some show and tell items to introduce myself. i had to pick 5:

-a drawing journal to show some drawings and that i like art and to represent books because i like to read also

-the art print i posted above to show i like art and my favorite artist

-my little eiffel tower from France to show i like to travel

-a picture of an ipod to show i like music

-a picture of my family

i thought that was a pretty good representation of me.

ok, back to the festivities. 

Do You Hear the People Sing?

this week was the beginning of the end of my life. school was long and boring and i cant believe i even made it through the days. highlights include:
-literally almost having a panic attack in my math class. simply because its math and i cant do it. thank goodness Alyssa and Danielle snapped me out of it. what would i do without them.
-after sitting down still and quiet for about 4 hours i asked the professor for a break and then slumped down on the table like i was dead...my friends thought it was quite funny, however i was completely serious.
-i have no idea how to do my math homework.

i also went to my practicum school to help my teacher prep her classroom, and i went to lots of grade level meetings about curriculum and discipline and an all staff meeting with updates about the school in general. im not really excited about my practicum. to be honest, im not really excited about anything really. im concerned about myself and my apathetic attitude and lack of motivation toward EVERYTHING im committed too. all i look forward to is what i do outside of school and work. this isnt good. i get graded in my classes on "professionalism" and engaging in groups and discussions...i need an attitude boost. i need endorphins. i need to exercise. i need a math tutor.

now im sick with allergies, oh joy. i feel just awful.
and the large black man from UPS just totally hit on me, that was weird. apparently my hair color brings out my beautiful eyes. oh jeez, come on dude ive heard that one a million times.

last night i went to see Les Miserables in Vista. it was amazing! its my favorite book and i love musicals, so i enjoyed it immensely. plus we had a delicious picnic and drank wine sitting on the lawn...it was so nice. i was so moved by the play, i already have pondered and loved the themes from the book, but seeing it with all my senses was overwhelming and just amazing. the final song had my bawling for the 3rd time and i wanted to share how moving the lyrics were.

CHORUS
Do you hear the people sing
Lost in the valley of the night?
It is the music of a people
Who are climbing to the light.

For the wretched of the earth
There is a flame that never dies.
Even the darkest night will end
And the sun will rise.

They will live again in freedom
In the garden of the Lord.
They will walk behind the plough-share,
They will put away the sword.
The chain will be broken
And all men will have their reward.

Will you join in our crusade?
Who will be strong and stand with me?
Somewhere beyond the barricade
Is there a world you long to see?
Do you hear the people sing?
Say, do you hear the distant drums?
It is the future that they bring
When tomorrow comes!

Will you join in our crusade?
Who will be strong and stand with me?
Somewhere beyond the barricade
Is there a world you long to see?
Do you hear the people sing?
Say, do you hear the distant drums?
It is the future that they bring
When tomorrow comes...
Tomorrow comes!

Sunday

lets see.

today is my last day of freedom. so sad. i hate school. im trying to have a better attitude though so im not depressed all semester. so today im going to dye my hair, buy groceries, maybe a new top, and enjoy my day...because its the last one im going to have for a long time. a day with no homework. a day with no deadlines. a day with a full nights sleep beforehand. a day of infamy. 

BTW Spring Awakening was incredible. please please please go see it, its the best show ive ever seen...and ive seen my share. the music, sets, lighting, acting, blocking, singing, writing...everything is just amazing. i kinda want to go again and sit on the stage...maybe ill wait until im in New York someday. its so weird, it just felt like such a privilege to be watching it...like i was getting to experience something that was so special and so private. but afterwards we were pretty emotionally vaunerable and raw feeling. good shows leave you that way i suppose.

Thursday im going to see les miserables in Vista. its my favorite book but ive never seen the play, im so excited! one thing about summer i do like, all the outdoor plays and events...so nice.

alright, off to the store for hair dye and fun.

Some Things You May Not Have Known About Me:

Note about my last blog which may have seemed depressing and strange. I think I was just fussy because no one could hang out and school starts Monday and I was gearing up for a crazy life again (which im not particularly fond of) and I miss cassie and I miss going to amazing “cultural events” everyday. Im having issues but I didn’t realize it until I just read back my survey. But really, I am happy. It just takes work sometimes to feel that way. But I choose to be happy, so there.

And now for a proper blog after a long hiatus.

Some things you may not have known about me:

-on Tuesday and Thursday mornings this semester, I am doing a practicum in a 3^rd grade class in san marcos. Im excited to work with kids again but since ive already worked with 3^rd grade extensively in previous semesters im a little worried ill be bored with the repetition. But then again, teachers teach the same grade every year and they still like it.

-I had an AMAZING day at Disneyland yesterday with my dear friend Alyssa from school. I couldn’t believe how hot and jostled I was all day but how happy I was anyway. It was SO nice to forget my troubles and just enjoy life. I think Walt had a great vision. And we made SO many friends there! Lots of cute cast member boys, sweet hipsters behind us in line who heard us talking about LOST, etc. SO fun.

-ive been eating a lot of cheese. I used to not eat any dairy but while I was in Europe the cheese was so good and now im just on a cheese kick. I only have it a few times a week on bread or something and it doesn’t make me sick because I don’t have a ton…but I just don’t like milk products in my body so its weird to me.

-I realized yesterday that I flirt a lot. I never noticed because im just an outgoing person, but I definitely seek out cute boys and find reasons (if I don’t already have one) to talk to them. It just comes so naturally, and im sure they don’t mind. Maybe im just making friends. Haha im ridiculous.

-I LOVE reading. I read at least 10 legit books over the summer. Im about to start another and see how far I can get before I run out of time again (when school starts getting crazy again)

-I LOVE walking. I miss it so much, im working on finding a good place to walk…somewhere flat and pretty where I can take my doggies and listen to my podi. Im thinking of taking up hiking. Not the intense kind…really just walking out in nature. So adventurous! Ha

-im going to see Spring Awakening tomorrow with Micah and im SO excited! And then on Thursday im going to see Les Miserables with Alyssa and her friends Emma and Byron. We’re going to sit on the lawn and drink wine and be fun.

-Ive decided i want to move to north park and live in those cute little houses and work in one of the balboa park museums with the childrens programs. i want to ride a pink vespa to work.

-Im sick of summer, I want it to be autumn now and forever.

Because I dont want to get ready for "work"

ive been meaning to update in SO long. im sorry. ive had time and ive had things to write but maybe i just got blogged out from Europe. plus, ive been doing such fun things instead of just school, work, and blogging. so yay! anyway, i thought id try and get back in the groove with kelseys myspace survey (see below).

in other news:
-taking my computer to get fixed AGAIN (3rd times the charm?). try fixing it the first time guys. but it was fun, i think i might get a date out of the cute guy who helped me. sweet.
-i got a job working as a receptionist on Fridays again! yay! im going in today to visit annie and get an update on anything new. it wasny my favorite job ever, i was glad to peace out, but its also a great job so im just going to suck it up. i think its just because i know what i want to do and the steps to get there is just taking so damn long.
-im going to disneyland! new ride!
-im going to see Spring Awakening!
-my friend cammie is moving here SO soon!
-cassie will be home so soon!
-school starts monday:((((((

What was the highlight of your week?
well its only wednesday, all the fun stuff is happening this weekend! but i guess so far, last night with the girls getting starbucks and watching gilmore girls with jordan was pretty fun!

Whose car were you in last?
mine, driving home from the girls house

What color is the shirt your wearing?
white with lots of colors on it. my favorite vintage shirt actually.

How long is your hair?
longest its ever been! love it!

Last movie you watched?
catch and release, last night before bed. i actually kinda liked it? it was a good "whatever" movie i guess.

Who were you with?
myself, *sniff*

Last thing you ate?
late night snack of french bread that had just been made that day, yummy. but probably the worst things to eat at midnight before bed, owell.

Last thing you drank?
water from starbucks that tasted like that sour milk smell. yummy.

Who came over last?
annie, to drop of New Moon and pick up Eclipse. the Twilight saga lives on!

Are you happy right now?
i guess, im just lonely. after being with cassie 24/7 in europe...being alone all the time kinda sucks

What did you say last?
"were you a good girl?" talking to worms who just got back from being outside. yep, me and my dogs have plenty of conversations thanks.

Where is your phone?
on my night stand. dont worry, no one will call:(

What color are your eyes?
bluebird

Are you left-handed?
thank god no, ive seen them take notes in class and its weird. hehe

Spell your name without vowels:
sthr. weird.

Do you have any pets?
to ease my lonliness i have the lovely Bella and Lola aka Worms. but im beginning to notice how much they prefer my mother to me...problem.

Favorite Vacation?
Europe 2008

What do you dislike currently?
annie dogsitting so we can never hang out

What are you listening to?
the computer make noise.

If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
lots of money so i could live in a cute house in north park.

What is your favorite scent?
Lovely

Who makes you happiest?
my doggies. they joy dogs bring into the world is highly underrated.

What were you doing at midnight last night?
watching catch and release by myself. this is my life.

When is your birthday?
soon! October 6th! big party!

Who has the same phone as you?
all the other hipsters in town who havent upgraded to an iphone yet because they are poor too (and because ATT sucks)

Last time you went swimming in a pool?
last week? having a pool takes all the fun out of it.

Do you read your horoscope?
no, its always ridiculous.

How do you feel about your hair right now?
LOVE IT but i need to redye it asap

Do you bite your nails?
always

Do you have any expensive jewelry?
yeah. i have a nice watch and 2 rings that are expensive. of course i didnt buy them myself.

Do you wear rings?
right has the irish clabbah ring and the left has my purity ring

Myspace or facebook?
facebook! myspace needs to get it together asap

What was or is your favorite subject in school?
childrens literature into film. i always love my art and film classes, but my teachers are always crazy.

Do you have Verizon?
sick, no. t-mobile thanks

Do you have a type of boy or girl do you usually fall for?
yes, its almost funny because my friends can pick him out of a room before ive even seen him.

Do you have any hidden talents?
i can sing. pretty good actually. but you didnt hear it from me.

Favorite Song?
currently? it changes so often...but i think a constant favorite is: This is the First Day of my Life- Bright Eyes

Do you like to sing at all?
see above.

Dream Job?
being that lady in the museum thats taking the kids on an art adventure. its going to happen.

Where does most of your family live?
Michigan

Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
yes, but not in comparison to the people around here. but yes in comparison to people in general.

What was the first thing you thought when you woke up?
are you kidding?! (i usually think this every morning...im really not a morning person)

Do you drink?
i think i enjoy it too much. i have to work really hard to not drink everyday. its just so good

Know any other languages?
sometimes spanish...i bet i could take on italian and get it pretty fast too

Ever write a coded message?
probably when i was young and carefree

Have you ever been IN a wedding?
yes, 2. ring girl for my old nannies wedding when i was like 6 or 7 and a lovely lady in the besties wedding last year.

Do you have any children?
someday!

Did you take a nap today?
actually yes, a lovely 3 hour nap to be exact. why? because im awesome!

Who has the same birthday as you?
i actually dont know anyone...hmm

Ever met anyone famous before?
Sawyer from LOST. ok ok i didnt talk to him, but we made eye contact when i walked by him on the plane and i walked behind him for like 20 minutes getting off the plane.

Do you want to be famous one day?
i wouldnt be opposed to it.

Any Pet Peeves?
yes, but i cant think of any! sar

Are you multitasking right now?
NO! yay!

Do you like Britney Spears?
god no

What is your least favorite chore?
doing the dishes. i dont mind it if i dont do it that often....but because i do them SO frequently i hate them

Last place you drove your car?
home from best buy

Ever been out of the country?
lots of times! i love traveling! lets see...canada, mexico, hawaii and puerto rico count?, all over europe twice, india twice, singapore for a day...looooveeee traveling

Where were you born?
Anaheim, CA

What is your average cell phone bill?
$63

Who are you thinking about right now?
kelsey, because she did this survey before and her answers are cute

When was the last time you laughed REALLY hard?
with the girls recently i think...maybe when annie made that "toilet paper" face when we went to sushi. i almost couldnt drink my water...it was amazing.

How many pairs of shoes do you own?
too many

Are your toes always painted?
no, but they are a hot shade of "look at me" red right now

How many piercings do you have?
2 in each ear and one in the nose

What are you doing today?
finishing this, then watching some tv. i love vacation!

Have you ever been gambling?
i think ive done slots before in vegas and pala...its pretty fun if u like wasting money

When is the last time you updated your page?
when i got home from Europe i think

Do you like rollercoasters?
only legit ones at theme parks...not fair rides

Have you ever been to disneyland or world?
LOVE BOTH

Last thing you cooked?
pesto and pasta...again. its a favorite.

How's the weather?
nice! but im ready to wear sweaters and scarves thanks

Do you e-mail?
sometimes...mostly facebook now though

What's the stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone?
cant think of anything actually...

Last time you were sick?
worst flu EVER in Paris...awful

What states have you lived in?
CA, Michigan, and wisconsin for a summer

Do you wish you could move?
YES. ive settled on North Park...ive found houses to live in already on craigslist...im ready to go!

What is your dream car?
mercedes benz. it could be a reality.

Have you ever wanted someone you cant have?
story of my life.

If you could be anywhere right now where would it be?
in Forks, WA with Edward Cullen (i know im obsessed, i know hes not real, leave me alone)

Are you happy with your life?
not really...i hate school...i hate the town i live in...i get bored and stressed and depressed all the time. BUT im working on it.

While in Europe...

While im in Europe, me and cassie will have a joint blog we'll be updating so this one will probably be neglected.

we leave tomorrow (kinda) so check it out soon!

cassieandesther.blogspot.com

see you in a month! (i miss you already Kelsey)

my favorite cultural icon strikes again

For attractive lips, speak words of kindness.
For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.
For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.
For beautiful hair, let a child run his/her fingers through it once a day.
For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone.

People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed; never throw out anyone.
Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you will find one at the end of each of your arms. As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands; one for helping yourself, and the other for helping others.

-Audrey Hepburn


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yet another reason why shes my favorite "cultural icon" (hehe, micah). and thanks uncle for this.

You Old Horny Slut!

"You Old Horny Slut!"- Buster Arrested Development (in reference to his mother)

Thank goodness for cassie! i was so grumpy on monday from losing my job but cassie reminded me of our fun trip as we've been preparing for it, and im SO excited of course!

and its been nice not working this week so i can focus on getting ready, finishing school, getting home from camping, everything! so much to do to get ready to go, but my to do list is so much shorter now. just a few more things to buy, final project for school, and clean my room/laundry/pack. so its still a lot, but its doable:)

im going to have another blog just for our trip, ill post the link when its all ready! yay! we have internet pretty much everywhere we go so it shouldnt be a problem to update it and have pictures up and such. yay!

You cant fire me! im your son! im firing you!

"You cant fire me! Im your son! Im firing you!" -Buster Arrested Development

well its been an interesting last few days. On Friday i got fired or "laid off" from my job, that was an interesting experience. they asked to meet with me right before i was going to leave for the church to finish up work there. they told me they were going to have to let me go effective immediately and i asked if they were joking. they said they were "disappointed" i didnt tell them I was going to Europe over the summer when they hired me and that they were changing the position a bit and hiring the pastors wife. i think it would be important to mention that i worked my ASS off for these people, my days when i worked were SO busy the entire time i was exhausted when i was done. i would have to force myself to take breaks because i was afraid i wouldnt finish everything by the end of the day but i knew i needed a break. meanwhile, i would see other people "working" by just meeting with people, watching movies online, whatever. i know its the nature of the different jobs, but still, i worked so hard and did such a good job. Just this Sunday i was thinking of how excited I was because i was really getting to know the teachers, kids, and parents and families there. I took a pay decrease to work for them. i quit going to my own church because i was working at theirs and trying to build a new community there. so all in all im not very happy with the church or the people in leadership there to choose to fire me and do it in such a hurtful way. no two weeks notice. not at the beginning of the day. i feel like they used me for the last few months to work for them until i was about to leave and then i got screwed over. if it was a problem, they should have mentioned that when i told them i was going to Europe this summer...5 months ago. Not to mention that on Sundays i just loved my job. When I was up in front teaching the kids i just felt so good, it was so natural for me. Afterwards I would reflect, "gosh, this really is what im supposed to be doing!". im going to miss that. And im going to miss the kids.

Although I am sad, frustrated, offended, hurt, disappointed, and angry. There is light at the end of the tunnel. Just a few weeks ago my parents and I discussed me not working while im in school. For the next two years my schoolwork will not only continue to increase in difficulty (and you see how much I complain now!), but ill have at least 8 hours a week of internship until my final semester when I student teach full time and wouldnt be able to work at all! Also, I just took out all these loans and grants...not just for my trip this summer, but in preparation for not being able to work as much during the school year. Secretly, Gods been talking to me about my constant stress level and school frustration for a long time. We've been discussing me not working and were trying to work out other options for during the year. So i feel upset about how the situation came about, and that it was through a church nonetheless. but i feel blessed that God has been preparing my heart and life plans for awhile for this very event.

So im probably going to have to start babysitting and house sitting and picking up jobs...which isnt really my favorite. but im kind of a professional babysitter now, so i think i would enjoy it more. and if working random odd jobs a few times a month, means NOT working a ton during the week and NOT being stressed out and NOT getting bad grades and NOT losing sleep and regaining a social life, faith life, personal interests, etc. then im more than ok with it. but i am still sad how it all came about.

anyway. camping this weekend with the girls was lovely! i think Annies going to post the pictures tomorrow. It was just what I needed after being fired on friday (see! God lined up things so i wouldnt hurt so much!). The campsite was weird...it was basically a strip of dirt along a road. we were like a foot from our neighbors with no trees or anything blocking us...it was strange. and then the hike to the beach was a bitch. it was down this enormous cliff and we almost died trying to come back up after a few hours at the beach. we just relaxed, read books, they did crosswords and suduko, drank a little, ate snacks, got sunburned, made smores, made fun of eachother, snuggled, laughed a lot, napped together, took pictures, lots of fun! we can make anywhere fun:) so that was a sweet time, we were all just so happy to be together we just wanted to sit and be. plus we were all tired because work is just so much...well, work. i dont know what our next trip will be...probably to go visit cassie in Oregon. im still in disbelief shes moving. probably because im thinking of Europe...which is SO stinkin soon!

i still have so much to do until then...i just really want to be done with my summer school class! i have 2 more papers to write! arg! plus trying to get things together for the trip. im glad i did a lot of my shopping a few weeks ago...now its just all the last things which wont be too bad. now that im unemployed i have lots of time!

8 more days! i cant believe it!
oh does this look familiar? maybe you remember it as the house the Von Trapps live in, in The Sound of Music. do you know where it is? Salzburg, Austria along with the rest of the movie sites. guess where im going?! (yeah i know, i cant believe it either)

Obviously the Blue part here is the land

"Obviously the blue part here is the land" -Buster Arrested Development

today was lovely. relaxing, good friends, laughter, good visual entertainments, good purchases, just good. tomorrow i go to the dentist! then im going to get ready for camping, do some homework, and maybe clean my room, probably some Europe stuff too. i think ill fit in a nap somewhere in there too...i havent taken a nap in like 2 weeks! sad! i love days off!

The Woes of Long Hair
-it always gets stuck in your armpits

-gets stuck in your back or armpits or neck while driving and prevents you from being able to look to turn and other important issues while driving so u dont die

-stray hairs get stuck on ur shirt and tickle your arms but you just...cant...quite...reach them

-while you sleep it gets all tangled in your neck and arms so u wear it on top of ur head but then ur head hurts in the morning

-you cant wear it down in the summer so ur hair is the same for like weeks at a time...piled on ur head...until people arent sure if its even real anymore.

-when you put ur bag or purse on your shoulder, it gets stuck everytime and either hurts right away, or you dont realize its caught until you turn your head and get caught...it hurts a lot

Amsterdam. July. be there.

Pop-pop gets a Grisham?

"Pop-pop gets a Grisham"- George Sr. Arrested Development (aka, best show EVER)

Good things:
-today we watched a discussed Harry Potter 3 the movie and book! yay! my favorite!
-i made a new boy friend last class, and today he sat by me and i shared my crackers with him (yeah thats right, bringin back the kindergarten tactics)
-i made a new friend at work, the new high school pastor! yay!
-i visited Annie at work and had a really yummy Rubios burrito with her
-i got Sunday off so i can fully enjoy the weekend camping with the girls! YAY!
-Europe is SO soon! all our preparations are in their final stages! woohoo!
-im going to lunch with Micah tomorrow and next weekend we're having a slumber party!
-my big package of travel stuff came into REI, im going to pick it up tomorrow! yay!

Not so Good things:
-i have a huge final project to do for my class before i leave. it shouldnt be too horrible, but its going to take time i dont want to put into it
-i still have lots of little things to do before i go on my trip, and trying to finish school, and still working 3 days a week...busy busy
-im afraid our trip isnt going to be relaxing and im going to come home more exhausted than when i left. this isnt good. i want to make sure we chill and have fun on our trip, not be stressed and cranky!
-still strikingly single and still somewhat upset about the last brutal failure
-i miss Olivia and i wish she lived around here...someday.

view from our future window in our mountain hostel in Switzerland. yeah i know.

Disneyland with Kelsey #3104455

stupid Facebook isnt letting me upload pictures again so here are some instead! yay!
ill try again for all of them on Facebook again tomorrow. yayyyy disneyland!

currently im doing 2 of my most favorite things in the world: watching ONCE and eating soy cookies and cream ice cream. i love it!

"do you know how much i hate taking pictures of you and the goats?"-Kelsey

where we first saw Merlin!

word.

soooo excited for Fantasmic!

goats have some aggression issues

California Adventure! woot!

Nemo!

traditional tram picture! yay! excited for a fun day!

The Best Purchase I have ever made! (prepare to be jealous!)

an obsession turned into reality. 

as you should know, Audrey Hepburn and Breakfast at Tiffanys are two of my most favorite things in the world. as shown by my purchases today. i love the internet!

one of the best scenes in Breakfast:

and look what i just bought for my trip to Europe (and home use of course)

they just found me! i was just going to get a boring set and suddenly these popped up on google! i love life!

(this is why we have 2 blogs today, utter happiness)

Tattoo

Tattoo:
this is what i think i want as a top sleeve.this is not me, haha. but this is what i could potentially look like...but id want it about half that size if possible. 

or maybe this sweet tree on my back

i finally made up my mind! 

worries:

1) tattoo artist wont be able to make it as amazing as the painting is, the painting is inlayed with real gold flakes and i dont know how bright tattoo ink can get. and the detailing is amazing and i just dont know how it would turn out if someone else was doing it all inky and janky. ill be stuck with it afterwards.

2) when im a teacher ill be bummed i cant wear any tank tops or shorter sleeves. but i want to be an art teacher (tattoos kinda expected). and i want to be a mom (my kids wont care). and i dont flash my arms around a lot anyway in professional settings.

3) ill find a lovely boy whos out on my tattoo...but then again, what a fricken weirdo if hed be over me because of that.

4) ill get sick of it, because thats kinda how i roll. i get bored easily.

i know these are all the reasons why tattoos are kind of a crazy thing to do, and it wouldnt be crazy unless i just did it anyway...but call me crazy for thinking before i dive into something forever. 

good news! (i saw a dog today!-Elf) i found some temporary Klimt (the artist) tattoos! yes! and i have some henna from India...this shall suffice until i make up my mind.

anyway, what do u think my loves?

so I play music thats what I do, and when i sing i lose myself

"So I play music thats what I do, and when I sing I lose myself"- Rosie Thomas These Friends of Mine

Today was a sad day. I had to drop of my macbook to get the fan fixed (at least i think its the fan, it just keeps overheating and i havent heard the fan come on in a long time). they said it would probably take about 2 weeks, which is forever for me without her. but luckily mom has her imac...but its just not the same. and stupid me saved all my photos and important documents on my ipod, BUT i forgot all our Europe documents on there. awesome. and i forgot my fresh to do list on there. so im kinda annoyed and worried if the hard drive should come back wiped ill be screwed. but it probably wont, its just the fan...right?

anyway. dear friends, soon i will be in the process of making playlists for my trip to Europe and i need your input. I trust you and your tastes, and i need some kick ass playlists for all parts of my trip. they can be broken into a number of different ways depending on how you think it would be best. we're gone a month, and we have a ton of long train rides, plane ride, and while im in museums i ditch the audio tours and listen to my own music and thoughts...so needless to say, i need some good playlists.

ideas:

by country: (order of travel, Rome, Florence, Venice, Switzerland mountain village, salzburg, vienna, berlin, amsterdam, and paris) i have a few ideas for some songs that talk about amsterdam and paris but thats all so far in this regard

by event: plane ride, sleeping, train ride, museum, walking, etc. 

by you: just make me a sweet playlist and ill think of you when i listen to it

by artist: such as, Damien Rice was my playlist for my first trip to India...it worked well for loooooonnnnggg drives and needing to chill. 

so respond to this note with a lovely list, add as you like and ill download what i dont have. OR we could just hang out and you can put it on my podi for m

e...thatd probably be the funnest:) 

Please have them ready by July 1st. ill be trying to finish summer school and in the last stages of my trip preparation by then so yay! we leave July 8th. 

thanks guys, i love you forever. pretty much going to be the best trip EVER.

all my love.

another hero.

You Are What You Love, and not what Loves You

"You are what you love, and not what loves you"- Adaptation as well as a Rilo Kiley song for that matter.

so i have a problem.
i keep on having legit crushes on married men.
i mean, its gotten to the point where i get all twitter pated around them.
ive even started avoiding them because i dont want to act like an friggen idiot and expose what a nerd I am. and because i dont want to flirt with them, which is a problem. so i just avoid them instead.

i feel like those kids who have crushes on the teacher...
except, i should be the teacher but im the stupid kid.

and worst of all, they have families and have been married for a number of years. but they arent old, they arent more than 30.

as ive been analyzing it, i think its because im so attracted to their lifestyle and attitude. i think im attracted to the idea of being a cute young couple with little cute kids and we hang out and do fun things.

i make up these stories in my head that they think im cute and pretty and avoid me too because otherwise we'd fall in love and runaway, except i couldnt because i have to much integrity...haha. and i make up stories about how their marriages arent good and they are secretly in love with me.

i should point out that i hardly know these guys. basically i know they're attractive, nice, have cute families, and we may have some things in common. thats about it. and yet im psycho and make up these crazy stories.

it sucks! i need to quit being around married/taken men all the time and find some lovely single ones who want the same things i do...eventually. and we can have fun for now and then ill be more patient to wait for the married/kids life later.

those are my theories.
I may have some serious problems.

one of my heros.

"For relaxing times, make it Suntory time"

"For relaxing times, make it Suntory time" -Lost in Translation

today i worked, took a mini nap, then went to play with the baby and uncle dan and Josi, then family dinner, then a paper, and now im watching Austen Powers 2...so funny...ive seen this movie a million times and its still funny everytime. im SO excited for Love Guru to come out...i love mike myers.

"We havent located us yet"

"we havent located us yet" - The Darjeeling Limited

hello dear friends.
well my grand adventure to Denver is over and im back home until Europe (so soon!). stupid facebook isnt letting me upload any pictures so you get to have them first! yay!

Denver was fun, after the airport blog i met my parents and we got the rental car and drove from the airport (which is in the middle of nowhere!) and went to dinner at a place like chachkees (sp?) from Office Space. then we bought some wine. then went to our hotel and hung out and watched the top 20 of so you think you can dance! so good!. i was real tired having been up since 430am. this morning we got up and went to moms graduation and it was so fun! they had 2 speakers, and one of them just talked about random crap like how going green isnt always true or something...none of knew what he was talking about or what it had to do with the graduation but he sure did talk on and on. then a chinese guy spoke and we couldnt understand him. then mom graduated! yay! the graduation was in an old mansions gym. it was really old, and sooooo awesome. then we went to visit my dads school he does the online program with, but its a legit old school called St. Regis University. it was really pretty. then we went and got long island iced teas at the airport. then i watched the best of will Ferrell. then we came home. i missed my bed buddies bella and worms. they missed me, they gave annie a rough time. such brats.

tomorrow im just chillin and going to my friend from schools 21st birthday party! im so exicted! i miss those girls so so much.

ive been working on a top 10 favorite movies of all time list to share with the world. i was even thinking of getting it laminated and keeping it in my wallet like Ross did with his top women he could do if given the chance. hehe.

ok, heres the promised pictures. yay for leaving boring SD!


430am and ready to go! did i ever tell u the story about how i was so chipper that the gas station guy asked me what i was on? yeah, that happened this day.

Please done leave Mommy, i promise ill be good...

as soon as we got to the hotel mom started putting her things on...her gradutation wasnt until the next day, haha. can you say, excited?

me and dad waiting for the fun speeches to begin

YAY MOM!

cords for Summa Cum Laude (like a 4.0 GPA) and national Nursing Honors Society, and she won the Deans Excellence Award (its a trophy, not pictured), and the little hood thing is her fancy masters degree things! wow!

YAY!


they had a reception after, free snacks! yeah!

mom and dad so excited!

dads super cool old school

waiting for the plane

i just thought this was funny

"I hate so much about the way you choose to be"

"I hate so much about the way you choose to be"- Micheal Scott about Toby The Office

guess where i am?! yep thats right! at the airport! woot! so far ive entertained myself pretty well for the last 2 hours...just one more to go! im currently sitting next to two cute older people who are also on their macs, they have a powerbook and a macbook pro. we've already discussed how cool and cute we are. i want to take a picture, but i decided thats pretty creepy so nevermind.

but i did take these pictures for you!
thats how i look at the airport (tired but still hot, haha)thats what i can see.

there, now you've gotten to experience a little of the Denver airport with me. arent you glad we're friends so i can share things like boring airport waits with you?

dont worry guys, i took like 3 pictures already this morning (on my camera) i can share the entire experience with you, your so excited. my 1 day in Colorado.

currently its cold and cloudy and rainy. i just wanna see the mountains!

i saw the cutest couple EVER with their fresh baby. the are going to be the icons of how i want to be when i grow up. they were so cool, they dressed kinda like cool hipsters but more laid back, they were in their late 20's (except hotter because they were pretty). the dad was pushing the empty stroller and had the backpack on with the baby stuff in it (so cute!) and the mom was holding the little baby which i didnt hear the entire flight! i have this huge fear that when i become a mommy im going to turn into a soccer mom. that me and husband will suddenly be uncool because we'll be so busy being suburbanites and so tired from the kids we'll just be boring and lame. i dont want to be like that. i dont know why i fear that so much, ive seen quite a few small new families that are just as cool as the one i saw today. not to say im not this way awesome person or anything, but i just dont want to lose myself into the mom-Oprah-housewife-sweatpants with stains-wrinkle cream vortex out there.
i want to be exempt. we're going to be beautiful, we're going to make our kids listen to good music while they're in the womb, we're going to dress like we care, we're going to dress our kids like they're the coolest (not expensive, just not like 1985 either), we're going to art museums and picnics in the park and flea markets to furnish our house. yes. me and husband and all our babies. i should probably just marry a rich rock star who doesnt have an alcohol or drug problem and be done with it.



ok, im going to do some reading for school now. something thats actually useful:)

lovelove.

A polar bear on a tropical island! there are so many reasons thats amazing!

"a polar bear on a tropical island! there are so many reasons thats amazing!" -John Stewart Show

well after 2 lovely weeks off of being nearly bored, now this week is crazy!
besides starting summer school and trying to fit in my work hours, im going to Denver for the "weekend"! yay! im leaving Thursday at the crack of dawn and until then i have like no time to actually get ready to go. tomorrow i have to work all day and then I have school for 2 hours, i dont get home till 830 and then i have to pack, clean my room so annie can stay here, and try and get to bed so i can wake up at 5am.

im so excited to go to Denver! ive never been to Colorado! and moms graduating! that will be fun! and im going to be chilling in the airport for 3+ hours waiting for my parents to fly in, so ill have plenty of time to get myself into some shenanigans. (expect a long blog that day, hehe)

im watching my daily john stewart and colbert report, gosh they are extra funny tonight!

lovelove.

this is the stupidest group of people ive over worked with who are not legally retarded

"This is the stupidest group of people I've ever worked with who are not legally retarded"
- Reno 911: Miami

Ive watched that movie 3x and 2 more times just watching my favorite parts, its seriously SO funny...the plot is dumb, but the one liners KILL me. oh man, i love comedy. just tivo it, its on HBO a lot. and of course, the actual shows new season just started on comedy central, yay!

so im currently at school an hour before my first class of the summer. i had to come before the parking office closed and get a permit and now the library is closed so im sitting outside just chillin. i hope my class gets out early today, sometimes the first classes do but usually summer school doesnt.

today i went to lunch with jen my friend from germany who now goes to school all the way in san fran. it was nice to hang out with her for a little bit, shes only in town for a few days. but shes going to meet me and cassie in Berlin! yay!

speaking of my trip, i cant believe how soon it is...hmm i should start breaking in my shoes. i dont really feel prepared. like, our hostels and plane is booked and paid for and ive made a day to day itinerary of what we're going to do each day (on average, of course its flexible). but i have a ton of stuff i need to buy and gather and i feel so overwhelmed with that task. i need to get at least 2 more pairs of pants or capris and thats quite a project since my body is weird and i dont fit into clothes well. theres all these random things i need from REI...packable pillow, locks, carabiners, converters, and some other things. if i had money id also buy myself some new rainbows since im currently using my moms and they arent my favorite and i havent had my own pair since last year in India when they broke because they were already old. i could use a few more shirts too. we need to buy our train ticket.

its just frustrating because im waiting to get my loan from school but apparently its taking forever and i just dont know if it will come in time. i think im just going to have to suck it up and get a private loan. which is fine, its just been such a hassle.

the campus is like dead. i think ive seen maybe 10 people since ive been here, which is weird since summer school started today. nothing is open, people r annoyed. lets see...this is number 20 thats tried to open the library only to find it closed...ooo hes cute...maybe he needs some assistance...

i really want to go to a padres game. my school can get my field level tickets (normally like $45/ea) for only $25/ea! i think itd be really fun...but im pretty sure after like an hour id get bored and wanna leave...unless i have some beer, then maybe itd still be fun. hehe i dunno. ive never been to petco park either, even just going there would be sweet. annie and cassie! lets go!

in other news, Bella and Lola got haircuts and they look bald and worms looks like her eyes r the size of marbles, HUGE. i started calling her "coon", like a racoon. so far ive called my dogs "cracker" because they're white, and now "coon" because of worms eyes (apparently im a closet racist), and bella has always just been called "fatty", "smella", even sometimes outright "fatso". i think my dogs r going to have a complex.

ok, i have to go and venture to the bathroom.

sweet! only 30min till class! yay!

whoa a girl just walked by that looks like Jordan...weird. aww jordan...i wish she were here for good already!

i wanna go on another date. and this time NOT screw it up. hmm, maybe ill go chase after library guy. but im tired of chasing, i just want to be caught.

lovelove.