i watch too much tv.

all i do is go to work.
go to my classes.
during my breaks i sleep in my car or do homework.
i come home and take bella for a walk and eat something.
then i do more homework.
sleep more.

and watch too much tv.

since when did i get into american idol?
im totally hooked, its ridiculous.
and americas next top model? who am i?!

actually, im not too excited about ANTM, i dont think any of the girls are very pretty and the ones who are pretty have really ugly insides (attitudes)...and the judges get on my nerves, especially tyra. ill try again next week and if i still dont like it ill give up on it. last season was so good. im ridiculous.

american idol?! WHO AM I?! but all the black girls can sing sooo good! its amazing! i want them to do well so they'll make a record and i can buy it...all the white girls need to hurry up and get voted off so the real competition can get started. actually, i guess im not that bad cause i only can stand to watch it on tivo cause ryan and judges and even the contestants annoy me...haha

i even tivoed the Oscars and got all into that too...well, kinda. none of the movies nominated i wanted to see or saw...except Pans Labyrinth and marie anntoinette...the others werent really my kind of movies so i passed on seeing them. EXCEPT i realllly want to see little miss sunshine, i was MIA when it was in theatres and its on my netflix cue so we'll see what happens with that. i also wanna see The Illusionist...looks really good and i heard it was good and edward norton is my lover.

im lonely.
i dont have any friends.
except on weekends.
i just want some nice christian girls (not "christian" girls, like real people who are actively pursuing the Lord) who have some similar interests as me and we all live together and study together and take trips and take care of bella and cook and clean and watch stupid tv together and are fun.

but no.
instead i hang out with my dog all the time and watch too much tv and hate school and work and go shopping instead.

goodtimes.


i just like her. shes cute and pretty and happy. and can sing pretty too.



caridee was the best.

I NEED A LIFE

weekends are the BEST

cause cassie comes home and plays with me!

and its like...

all week being thirsty and just wishing for a drink of water...

and then she comes and its like taking in a big refreshing drink of amazingly thirst quenching water...

and church was so good tonight, God is just so amazing and constantly overwhelming me with everything He has for me.

ive been watching american idol lately, WHO AM I???!!!

currently im watching TiVoed Oscars and thats funny cause i love Ellen, and i love movies, and i love pretty dresses...who am i?! silly

ok i am cracking up cause ellen is so fricken funny...

bleh im tired of school...i don wanna go anymore...

RAINY DAY!

skipped school cause i havent all semester and my classes suck and i wasnt up for a 12hr day there...so im just going tonight to psyc (see how i did on my test!) and stayed up late last night watching LOST with annie and bella and had a few drinks...so fun! and today we got to sleep in and go out to lunch and now we're watching a kinda lame movie, employee of the month.

i love dane cook

and i really love bella...shes snuggly and funny...

i dont wanna go to school anymore...lets boycott...but i do like my psyc class on thursday nights and i should be graduating with my AA sooo soon...*sigh*...bleh school bleh.

shopshopshop

shopped all day.
played with old friends all night.
watched my favorite shows.
laughed and laughed.
ate good food.
feet are killing me.
the santa anas are amazing me.
my dog is being cute.
im really tired.
that boy hasnt called yet.
im starting to get annoyed again.
i think this is his last chance.
for real though.

love love.

marie antoinette

such a fricken good movie.
i saw it opening night, and bought it the day it came out. then downloaded the soundtrack while looking for costumes for future halloween parties. (not gonna happen i dont think, altho i may buy a cheap wig and wear an old prom dress and gaudy jewelry...its quite awhile away so im not to worried;)

not to mention my lover Jason Shwartzman is in the movie. love.



marie antoinette


i was always pretty interested in her. ive read her biography a few times, went to versaille a couple years ago (yes, its as gaudy as the movie portrayed it...actually i remember being there and being annoyed with how out of touch with reality they were cause its SO extravagent...pride screws the whole world up)

i actually have a postcard pack i bought from there with pictures of the different rooms and the hall of mirrors and stuff. i didnt go to her retreat tho, it was quite a walk and supposedly nothing too exciting...but now im so bummed i didnt go. i think we also went to her jail cell where she was kept for a few years...that was crazy. that poor girl, she was like my age...crazy.

anyway.
today i worked a lot. super busy. as soon as i got home at 4pm i had a snack and then went to sleep until 9pm.

guess whos coming into my office next week to meet with one of the tenants in my office?! (the tenant is the ambassador from panama and will actually be running for prez of panama soon...crazy right) DONALD TRUMP. ok so i dont like donald trump, but hes going to be in my lil office...ill get him coffee...crazy right! and apparently hes come in before since the ambassador doesnt meet with anyone but CEO's of companys. and on friday i was helping the guys with copying things and getting them coffee and stuff, and the guy they were meeting was so nice...kept saying thank u over and over and calling me sweetie...apparently he was some prince from africa!!!

this is my life.
i make copies and get coffee for royalty. awesome. and that awful man donald trump.
haha

anyway,
my much awaited long weekend is finally here!!!

hmm...

valentines day

wasnt today, but it was yesterday. i thought i would tell u about mine.

well i made an amazing dinner of pasta and chicken and salad, and those amazing cookies u cut the dough and cook them for dessert. boy cameover and brought me roses! and we ate in the nice dining room with the roses gleaming from the center of the table. then we ate cookies and drank wine and watched Garden State and cuddled on the couch with Bella of course. then he kissed me and told me he loved me and went home a little early cause we both had work this morning. perfect!!!

ok fine, none of that actually happened...BUT i decided that it would have been the perfect valentines day if there was an actual boy who was as lovely as he is expected to be. how low maintenance am i?! i am awesome. and cause then the present from me is dinner and the present from him is roses and we dont have to be poor or disappointed! *sigh* maybe next year.

but actually, i wasnt sad at all and im not now either. i really was fine, and all these cute people had flowers and balloons and i just liked it and thought it was so sweet. i love love. its just a testament to how God has worked in my life to the point that i dont feel like a need any boy...im quite fine with being single for now (most days;) and ive grown sooo much from these few years of just me and God. He's raised the standard tho, so the boy for me has a lot to live up to.

on that note. im about 85% sure that a lovely boy likes me. theirs so much involved tho to why i dont think it will work...but i just really like spending time with him...he makes me feel good about myself (in a healthy way, not in an unhealthy way)...and treats me like a lady...and makes me laugh...and good conversation...and either way, its just nice to have a new guy friend who enjoys to do things my current friends dont...
if nothing else, its another example of attributes i know exist in men in the world. all is not lost!

i think my boss is having an affair with the girl who works for his company and kinda works with me. it makes me nervous and gets on my nerves. basically my nerves are shot. haha, but only when i think about it or when they act weird...otherwise i just enjoy my time at work away from school...and all i have to do is make copies and pay bills for a lovely 12$ an hour.

i got monday off work!!! but NO ONE is home this weekend.

maybe the boy...

ill keep u updated.
cause i know u care if uve read this far;)

lovelove.

long week

sorry i havent posted in awhile. nothing much to report i guess.
just working and schooling.

saturday morning me and melissa took the gigantic CBEST. its a test for future teachers, basic reading writing and math skills. pretty easy, but sooo long (4hrs) and random crap u havent done since early high school or even junior high. california really needs to get their education system for preparing teachers together. its sooo confusing and the weirdest type of testings and types of degrees and its the state with the most requirements to teach and the worst schools. aRRg.

last night me and cassie watched my favorite movie of all time, Almost Famous. ive seriously seen in a million times, and everytime its amazing. i cant even say anymore cause my words arent good enough.

i should get the special edition pack that came out a few years ago.hmm


still nothing about valentines day. to be honost, im going to be working all day and then class and then lots of homework for thursday...soo...
but marie anntoinette comes out tuesday so maybe that will be my gift to myself. good movie too.

it was nice to spend more time with cassie. we're fun.

i went to breakfast today with old friends from santa fe! so fun! i was so exhauted and groggy that im suprised i made it through! it was nice to see them and catch up, and im excited that we might play again next weekend. yay! friends!

church tonight was really good of course. i need to work on my passion. my excuse to God was that im so tired and busy, which is true. but He told me that His love isnt tiring or meant to be more then i can handle, and that being passionatly in love with Him makes everything else in my life easier to handle. so im going to work on that tomorrow. i love Him. and i forget how much He loves me.

i need to be nicer to people in my mind. i dislike a lot of people and keep thinking that if i move out of friggen socal itd be better, but i don kno. i just need to be loving.

so thats all.

and PS: im so tired i dont kno how im functioning right now. im going to bed at 9pm and i dont care what u say behind my back! paying attention in church was rough. im going to read my rolling stone and say good night thank u.

vday survey

2 posts in one day cause i have 1/2 a day off:)

[01] Is there anyone you like at the moment?
yeah, kinda

[02] Have you ever given or been given roses?
yes, years and years ago

[03] What is your all-time favorite romance movie?
gardenstate or the notebook

[04] How many times have you honestly been in love?
1

[05] Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?
kinda. i believe that theirs many people we're perfect for and who are perfect for us, but God knows who the final answer will be.

[06] Do you think that you should put your friends first?
my friends first in what?

[07] Have you ever had your heart broken?
yeah, it sucks

[08] What do you think about long-distance relationships?
good and bad at the same time. u get to know the person really well in some aspects but its super hard to be away from them, and u dont get to know when in other aspects. so it depends on the people of course.

[09] Your thoughts on online relationships?
haha-this is me laughing-haha

[10] Would you rather date someone five years older or five years younger?
five years older always. younger would never work.

[11] Have you ever seen a friend as more than a friend?
yeah, all the time...its confusing and i dont like it

[12] Do you believe the statement, "Once a cheater always a cheater"?
not always. if he is a christian and willing to work out things with God and me, then he gets ONE more chance. otherwise, none.

[13] How many kids do you want to have?
as many as we can afford. i only want to give birth to one or two, but then i want to adopt bunches abd bunches!!! india, thailand, china, africa, south america...i cant wait!!!

[14] Do you usually fall for the right boy/girl?
considering ive been single for like 3 years or so. lets go with no.

[15] What is your favorite color?
pink and black. sometimes green, but not to wear

[16] What are your views on gay marriages?
o gosh. for me this is more difficult to answer then it is for 'normal' people. i love all people, but practicing homosexual activity is a sin just like any other sin. (ex: stealing, cheating on ur spouse, abuse, addictions to things, ect...)i try not to judge homosexual people because of their choices, so when its my choice i dont vote for gay people to have the right to marriage because of my beliefs. BUT i also understand that not everyone shares my beliefs, so i dont expect people to understand or agree with me.

but on a governmental basis, i see that having some states say gay marriage is legal and in others its not, is silly. its either all or nothing. what if they move? what about federal vs. state laws?

with all things considered i dont think gay marriage is a good thing. but i love gay people, i have lots of friends and lots of ex-gay friends (which is a whole nother discussion)

[17] Imagine you're 79 & your spouse just died, would you re-marry? no, id like to think that id be to distraught over losing the love of my life and best friend.

[18] At what age did you start noticing the opposite sex?
6th grade i think...aww memories

[19] What song do you want to hear at your wedding?
whatever "our" song is, but i want it to be kinda ecletic, not a typical corny one. maybe a damien rice one thats not angry or depressed. maybe a coldplay one. oooo iron and wine...aww itll be nice...

[20] Do you think that someone likes you?
sometimes. but sometimes im sure they dont. like right now. arg.

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im not yet excited for vday. no boy. no plans. nada. and its been this way for too long. someone come and sweep me off my feet already.

lovelove.

TONIGHT!!! TONIGHT!!!

NEW LOST TONIGHT TONIGHT!!!

stupid producers think its fun to cut the season in half and make us all wait for the final 9 episodes. good thing i had season 1 to comfort me during this wretched time.

im a dork.
but im excited.
annnnd im excited to see annie after shes been gone for days and days...

im going to get some wine...
ooo and we'll eat pei wei!

just like oldtimes!!!

just a few hours more...

another reason i dislike school

today in my literatue class he read us a poem that ended up being about some guys erected penis. and the one we're studying for homework is about some lesbian questioning her sexuality.

all professors care about is using their podeium to preach to their classes about their political, philosophical, and anything else they can get away with, to influenciable students in their classrooms.

constantly i have to be on guard for what my professors are trying to convince me of whether its about evolution, christians known beliefs in things (like how supposedly all christians hate gay people...well heres the thing professor...), philosophical things, iraq and government issues, pretty much everything.

it sucks. most days i wish i went to a christian school, but this week ive been thinking about how in a christian school they wouldnt even teach questionable material, rather then teaching a christian perspective to questionable material.
if i had to choose, id choose to NOT live in a christian bubble, but it gets exhausting having to either argue in class, or even just keep tabs on my own mind to not believe what they say or then i have to go home and research what i believe in so im not confused.

im also worried about when im a teacher and have to teach in schools to kids. the public school system is horrible with this kind of liberal atheistic crap and im nervous. but i dont have any good experiences with christian private schools either...cause im not super conservative about a lot of stuff either. so maybe teach to a family or in a charter school or something in between public and private. and of course my dream of teaching art to kids in india. and teaching art to american study abroad students in italy. and teaching english abroad too. *sigh* i cant wait to be done with school.

lovelove.

manic monday

today.
pondering and thinking about moving out.

i think i can afford it now, working 30hrs a week and school seems to be balancing well. im worried about the next 2 years in school tho, it'll be my major classes and preparing to graduate, so im worried that ill get to stressed trying to balance school and work. school comes first and i get emotionally sick when i work too much. i also dont want to get distracted, but i need friends. its hard to be alone all the time.

the other issue is my doggie. she would be devastated if i left. and equally upset if i took her away from mom. and i cant leave her. so i dont know how to handle that either. but i cant stay here forever. maybe ill just wait for the opportunity to come up and then see what happens. like, if someone has an open space or something...then ill see what God says about those things. but not go looking for it. even tho im so tempted.

that stupid boy wont call me. and i miss him and hes leaving soon and i just want to hang out and laugh.

im watching MTV "engaged and underage", shes getting her first bikini wax for her honeymoon. awkward. her future mother inlaw and sister in law are doing it for her. haha
the grooms family is really cute and christian and excited. they waited to have sex and its cute.

aww i cant wait to get married. well, i can. but still, when the time comes its going to be so fun! but until then, im fine without a husband. but i really do want some more boys in my life. even just guy friends, all this alone time is getting ridiculous. i need male attention.

at dts i remember learning that women need at least 20 non-sexual attention a day. like, a hug, a pat of the back, an affirmation, attention, ect...
i need that.

i like movies. its weird. i tried to tivo my fav movie breakfast at tiffanys, but the tivo is broken. i really need to get cable and tivo in my room. i offered to pay for it, but its all confusing and needs special attention.

i graduate with my AA this spring!!!

i think i need to apply for that soon...hmm

what i did today

slept.
all day.
im ridiculous.

nothing else sounded appealing.
and my weeks are so stressful, i deserve it.

went to bed at midnight.
woke up at 930.
church from 11-1230ish.
lunch till about 130pm
slept until 6pm.
i am awesome.

tomorrow i start all over again.
i boycotted my homework today, ill just do it tomorrow. or maybe a little right now.

tomorrow i reception all day, ill probably have lots of time to work on my homework there. and then math class. and then homework for tuesday.

so if im not going to visit olivia in oregon. i need to think of another place to go and other people to go with.
im thinking new york. but thatd be more money cause its not just a flight and food then, id also have to pay for the place to stay and all the stuff i wanna do.
i think id have enough money tho.

we'll see what happens.

lovelove.

PS: colts won woo?! dont care

bleh school bleh

long week.

i got paid! yay! but now i think olivia might be coming down here the sametime im planning to go up there? so now i dont know if ill be going to see her during spring break. maybe i can go to san fran then, or even the beloved new york which i have yet to grace my precense with.
either way, i need to buy a ticket soon if im going anywheres.

today is my saturday. a much celebrated event. the only day off ive had in 2 weeks! sundays is like a half day off cause i get to sleep in usually, but then i have homework for hours and hours and then church for awhile and then have to go to bed early. so i dont count it.

im not sick anymore! woot! just a little flemmy.

in about an hour im going to be meeting with the lovely melissa to 'study' for the CBEST im taking next weekend. we're both taking it at the same place and same time! hooray! it shouldnt be too hard since its just very basic reading and writing and math skills, but its looooong and goes ALL day. so next saturday night ill be ready for a drink for sure;)

kelsey and annie are up in san fran for the weekend visiting jordan. im sad, i wish i could have gone. but i cant miss work or school for that long, especially since i just started 2 weeks ago and i work at the receptionist job only 2 days a week and cant miss both of them. it was just to crazy. but i love san fran and it would have been so fun! i know we'll go again soon.

last night me and the german went to chipotle and to see the painted veil. (how long have i been waiting to see that movie?!) i liked it lots. but i thought naomi watts had some really weak scenes where she was supposed to be very strong, and her costumes didnt really go with her character...but it was one of the better movies of last year, so i was really glad to see an actual good movie for once. and it was only rated PG13 so i didnt have to witness any gnarly sex scenes which is always very upsetting.

i wonder what im going to do tonight after i play with melissa. i know who i want to hang out with, but thats a secret. ill tell u in a few weeks.

what am i going to do for valentines day? i havent had a valentine in years...sad face. maybe ill get dressed up and get tanked. haha no. maybe annie will take me on a date;)

they're selling a hot pink camera at wal mart within my price range. im pretty sure i need to tap that.

today i stayed in bed until 3pm. i woke up at like 10am and just read all day, and then took a little nap. now im up and have to go meet melissa soon! i think im going to take my fat dog and my fat self for a walk. fresh air. birds.grass. those things.

i promise im more interesting then this blog may suggest.
take me out for valentines day and ull find out. hehe

lovelove.

rainy tuesday!

i love tuesdays (dont know why tho) and i love the rain! so u would think itd be a great day, right?

but let me tell u a little story of my life.
pretty much everyday i leave the house wearing clothes that arent appropriate for the weather. today would be an example. this morning i left the house and it was so early i couldnt see it was cloudy and rainy looking. i was wearing my typical school outfit-kinda pajamas, kinda not- (thin cotton capri thingys and a tshirt...luckily i had a little hoodie too)
and then it stormed the entire day. imagine me trudging around campus soaking wet and slipping with my crap shoes i cant part with. this is my life.

i just dont like to be uncomfortable, which rules out most clothes.

i miss my friends. the ones who are far away.
ficah. olivia.tisha kitty.cammie.joejoe.annemarie.matty.pretty much all of the ol VPDQ.
sad times.
life is just like that ya know. people always going in and out of ur life. its hard to be alive.

im glad i have Jesus. He promised He wouldnt peace out on me, so ive got that going for me.

me and annie are almost all done with season1 of LOST. we were refreshing before season 3 starts again next wednesday. i think we only have 2 episodes left. sooo good. i wish i had 2nd season, i need to get that. i still love charlie. except in season3 he goes a little crazy...but then again, they all do.

im going to visit olivia during my spring break. im excited! when i get paid friday i think im going to buy my ticket. its f-ing expensive just for a dink 3 hr flight. but i miss her, and cant wait to go. also will be nice to get out of socal for awhile. haha, i dont leave until march 31st and im already excited. my parents will be in europe for 3 weeks right around then. annie shall be my room mate for awhile, yay! we're fun.

well thats all for now.

uninteresting because i cant write about anyone i know for fear they may read it. but still, this is my life all the same.

be well.

lovelove.

currently listening: Damien Rice "9"

SICK

sick sick sick.
im taking airborne and advil cold and halls lemon and honey cough drops and multivitamins and going to bed on time and using antibacterial lotion.

still have a cough
still a sore throat
still feel tired
still feel achey

still have to go to school.
still have to work.

pobre cita.

lovelove.

tipsy

so this blo0g idea blows. i cant write anything legit cause the people will read it. IE: they people i want to wrie about im friend with on myspace and they will read it...so im not sure what to do.

so i drank an engtire bottle of wine. chardonnay!!! so good! yeah...i just spelled a lot of stuff wrong and im ok with ut. it was a long week and i was with beloved friends so it was ok. i know Jesus still loved me and thsats all that matters...He's th best...e loves me even when i suck, which is often.

so daydreams...i have them all the time..and i learned at DTS how destructive they csn be when ur focusing on them and they arnet even real! so i tired to tell my friends that and it came off as just me being prideful and i was bummed...i really just wanted to help them and love them thru my bad experiences with day dreams...i feel bad, but also annoyed cause i was trying so hard to not be prideful and it still sucked. i just suck at life. Lord why am i here? all i do is stupid school (which i suck at) and work too much doing lame work with money. all everyone cares about in this worl is money...well PS: i dont care about money and it can kiss my ass. i care about Jesus and everyone needs to kno how awesome He is and how u dont neeede money to be happy.

i love my friends. but i need new ones...how do people make new friends? they all live to far...

isnt it weird how when uve drunk, u want to call people ur secretly in love with...im not telling.

tomorrow im going to the art store (yay!) for my class with annie too! and to dinner with cass and thne to chuirch and im so excited! i got to play with cass tonight and i love it...i missd er, but not i feel like shes not so MIA...perhaps my blog has reached her. haha, yeah right.

so miday atalantic (the band) im friends with rachel and its funny that we'[re all friends on myspace when i havent actually met u in person. weird huh. i have secret "crushes" on u cause ur pretty.

ok, time for bed...tomorrow im super duper busy...my life is ridiculous.

PS: i apologize for the ridiculousness of this blog in adcvsance...once again, it was a lon week, and Jesus still lvoes me. thates why we're friends. im sleepy. i wanna be an art teacher and adopt kids from all over the world, thats my drema life and i day dream abiout it all the time...but hold on while i give u a lecture about daydreaming, whenreally im jus trying to help with ur life but i suck at it...arrrrg...

this id a picture oif elephants, my fav animal.

life

BIG NEWS! Nicodemus, my 'brother' whos a 'Lost Boy' from Sudan, his beautiful face is on the cover of the San Diego Reader!!! and theirs a huge story about him and the other boys he lives with. his story will change ur life...everyone should meet them, they're the best.

this is from a few weeks ago.

yeah i dont look so hot in this pic, but i wanted u to see him. hes right in the middle. he brought his precious family with him! that baby was sooo cute...


anyway,
this week has been ridiculous. i forgot how working 30 hours and school with 15 credits is...ridiculous.

the good news is that i think im going to like my classes...i was so annoyed in every class cause i didnt want to be in school and just kept thinking "um yeah...i dont care...", but then i decided i just need to change my attitude and buckle down and get into it and ill be fine. my classes arent that bad and my professors seem nice, and none of them are very hard which i looove.
so besides school.

i have this apple socal campus rep meeting to go to tomorrow. im currently waiting to get picked up by the other girls im going with cause we're staying (for free of course!) at the hotel tonight for the conference tomorrow. i was really cranky about going and sooo tired...but i took a rest/nap after work today (the other job) and gave myself the same pep talk i gave to myself about school, and im hoping that'll do the trick. im looking forward to it a little more i guess...but its going to be sooo long and boring, and im kinda over the job so thats never good.

in other news: im getting sick i think. my parents have been sick for like a week, and a bunch of people in my classes were all sick too, so its no suprise. but ive been taking airborne and cough drops and tea and vitamin C...so far my scratchy throat is still scratchy...and i think its getting worse. so that should be fun.

i reallly want to buy my ticket to go visit Olivia for my spring break in oregon (ok from SD to portland, its like 400$!!!) but im having to wait until i get paid...arrrrg i wish i was done with school and had my job already! i just want to teach art to kids! is that so wrong?! i hate working so hard but still having issues with money...im sure issues with money always exists tho.

today at my receptionist job i did so good! i did alllll this bill paying and quickbooks and stuff ive never done before and i did a good job! its a good feeling cause i suck at that stuff, but not anymore!

i brushed bella and shes all fluffy mcflufferson. its AMAZING. she feels and looks like a cloud. i love her.

i want to make new friends. im just so picky and where do people make new friends? is their like a club where people go to make new friends? ive made a few friends at school, but we dont hang out outside of school...o i remember why i dont have that many friends, its cause they all moved away and cause everyone is soooo busy all the time...haha, how could i forget...

i wanna move. to Florence Italy. im thinking after i get my BA and credential, ill get my masters in education through an online program and live in Florence. then when im done with that ill have enough italian under my belt to go to art school there for my master of fine arts...i wish i knew italian and could just go work there...ooooo maybe while im getting my masters i could teach english there! hey! and ill come home with a hot italian man and all my dreams will come true...teehee

well i suppose the girls will be here soon, its about time to leave...woo for work! woo!

paige and andrew are playing at church on sunday night and im soooo excited.

thats all.

lovelove.

(no ones leaving me comments so im assuming no ones reading this? do u have to have a blogger account to leave comments? no entiendo)

bleh school bleh

well ive had my first day of school in all my classes except child psycology which i only have on thursdays.

elementary school math:
i have an eastern european professor (i think russian) who totally talks like Borat. i hate math, but we're doing geomotry and graph and need all these tools and stuff, so i think i might like it more then my other math classes. as long as i get a C im happy.

literature:
i can tell already that the kids in the class are rather arrogant just from how they talked and presented what they wrote...but im trying to be nice and exert happy non-judgemental energy...we'll see. i think i could really like it, but i just hate people telling me how im supposed to interpret something...it gets on my nerves. and professors are always trying to expose their students to things...im tired of being exposed to things from their viewpoint. they're always really liberal and it gets on my nerves. i dont care what u think, k.

design and color:
i think it will be good. i thought i might make friends in the class, but no one seemed to look like someone i would be friends with (i have a good eye for that), in fact the girls sitting next to me i wanted to beat cause they were so obnoxious. i really like ink drawing and collages, and thats mostly what we will be doing! so i will finally learn some actual techniques, besides what ive taught myself. annnd we will paint...i love painting (from what ive done) but i never get to do it cause i dont kno how and its so expensive to get all the materials. so hopefully this will be a good class too.

i also have science online, which i havent even touched...so we'll see how things go with that too.

thats about it. im working too much and im already exhausted and its only tuesday. arrrg

be well.

lovelove.

physics party 2007!!!

sooo my weekend was so lovely.

lets see...

friday night i dont remember what i did, but im sure it was something fun...i think i ate pei wei and watched LOST with annie which is no suprise at all...

saturday me and annie and cassie went to Cozymels in La Jolla and ate so much good food, and got this awesome margarita sampler...the blue one was so incredible.

then at night time, cassie was having a party with her friends from school (PS: cassie is a physics major at UCSD and it consumes her life) so me and annie bought some vodka, beeer, and coffe liquor and headed down to her casa is lajolla.
it was the most ridiculous party ever. but we had so much fun.

EVERYONE was a physics or sciency major, and hi my name is esther and im a friggen ART major and annie isnt even in college. haha...not to mention these people are so socially awkward so the conversation lacked common subject matter as well as good communication skills. and it was kinda like an unfortunate looking people convention. of course the drinks helped us to be able to laugh at the situation and of course annie kissed one of the more unattractive, arrogant, and awkward ones. their was like 3 to 1 amount of boys and not one of them were pretty.

but it was so fun! we just laughed and laughed at the situation and the snippets on conversation we'd catch. it was nice to spend time with cassie in her life there too. i miss her...

yesterday i wasnt feeling good (not a hangover, just not feeling too good in other areas) so slept most of the day and read my new book that finally came in the mail. annie came during her break and took a nap with me then too...then i went to church with cassie and it was sooo wonderful. i loved spending time with her again and church was soooo good! i just love my church, its everything i was looking for and they continue to suprise me with more and more things i didnt even realize i was looking for. and mark is so smart and i just love hearing him, i learn something new every week and feel challenged, which is hard to find in stuffy so cal. calvary chapels kick ass.

me and cassie maybe want to volunteer at their homeless people mission once a month. i got a bag to donate things...i need to donate things, i have more then enough crap.

but homeless people stress me out. im not gifted with them like other people are...im awesome with kids and teens tho...i miss them a lot, but have no time to commit which is why me and cassie liked the once a month deal.

after church annie came and watched the devil wears prada with me. i actually liked it! i really like anne hathaway and meryl streep so that helped. people in fashion annoy me, get over urself. but that was kinda the theme of the movie so i liked it.

ok, thats all.

im at work and should prob work. plus i have to pee.

survey for my fun friday night

my new computers internet wont work.
im annoyed.
annie and cassie came over and we watched "In Her Shoes" and i actually liked it! even tho im not a huge fan of cameron diaz...

and now a survey until cassie wakes up and i go to bed for the night!

lovelove.

1.) Where were you when the ball dropped for 2007?
sleeping on an air mattress in my houses "office" yeah...sucked

2.) How did you get the idea for your myspace name?
i dunno...its who i am...

3.) Do you like anyone?
sometimes

4.) Has the death of a celebrity ever made you cry?
when princess diana died i cried...i was so young then, wow that was a long time ago. no one else tho.

5.) Have you ever been to a zoo?
yeah, but i like the wild animal park better

6.) Do you live in a zoo?
2 dogs, one wears a diaper, 2 fish, and a snake. YES

7.) What did you do this morning?
my alarm didnt go off for work, but luckily i only take 10min to get ready if necessary and my lovely dog bella woke me up just in time! shes the best

8.) Who are more complicated guys or girls?
girls are ridiculous...we're all emotional and confusing and frustrated because we feel emotional and confusing and it just sucks. but we're everything boys arent in a good way too, so ha. God made us both to even things out, ones not better then the other. complicated is just a good word for it

9.) Have you ever done something malicious to someone as a revenge tactic?
hmm...i cant think of anything...prob not, im usually pretty nice

11.) What are the last two digits of your phone number?
58

12.) What was the last concert you attended?
me without u, too long ago

14.) What is the last movie you watched?
we just watched In Her shoes, and now the new willie wonka is on...its at the part where the tv kid is in the tv and the oompa loompas are singing the rock song...i feel like if i was on drugs this movie would kick, but i actually don kno

15.) What/who do you dislike at the moment?
like i would really put that here...theirs some evil boys in me and my friends life who can be on the list. boys, just be honost with us and quit f-ing around.

16.) What food do you crave right now?
i had whole wheat pasta and pesto for dinner so i am quite happy thank u!

17.) Did you dream last night?
yeah, but i never remember them

18.) What was the last TV show you watched?
what not to wear...it was that 5-7 period where nothings on, so yeah

19.) What is your favorite piece of jewelry?
my angel earrings from olivia

20.) Name someone on your Top 8 who is just like you?
id say a mix of my friends olivia and micah.

21.) What's the last thing you ate/drank?
the pasta and water

where did 22 and 23 go?

24.) Are you on any medication?
always

25.) What side of the bed do you sleep on?
whatever side the nightstand is on, bella sleeps on the other side

26.) What color shirt are you wearing?
black sweatshirt cause its so damn cold

27) What color is your razor?
pink obviously.

28.) What is your favorite frozen treat?
im really excited u just used the word treat! besides that, soy cookie ice cream or ben and jerrys oatmeal cookie ice cream. amazing!!!

29.)How many tattoos/piercings do you have?
tattoos come when i get married someday, husband has to look at me all the time so i think he should have a say
5 piercings. guess where.

30.) Whats your favorite store?
target. i suck at life.

31.) Are you thirsty right now?
i could always tap a diet coke

32.) Can you imagine yourself ever getting married?
its going to be so wonderful! when the time is right.

33.) Who's someone you haven't seen in a while and miss?
tooo many people...my india family, my titis, my cousins, olivia, micah, tisha, cammie, joejoe, annemarie...we could be here all night

34.) What did you do last night?
hung out with bella and annie like usual.

35.) Do you care what people think about you?
i try not too, its a daily struggle tho of course

36.) Have you ever done something to instigate trouble?
no, i don like conflict or people mad at me or competition so yeah

37) Do you like your nose?
yep

38.) What color are your bedroom walls?
blood red. haha that sounds more hardcore then it is

39.) Do you like giving or getting massages more?
i looove getting massages and scratchies!

40.) Have you ever snooped around your parents room before?
when i was little i liked to look at my moms jewelry and purfume and makeup and stuff...haha i was silly

42.) Where do you live?
socal, i don fit in

43.) What is your favorite city in the US/world?
Florence, Italy

44.) Who do you have a crush on?
why do surveys put these questions on them?

45.) Do you like the person who posted this last?
yes, i got it from brittany sara, i miss her

46.) Do you know their Birthday?
nope, and i don think shed care

47.) What is your favorite thing to do on a Friday night?
go out to a semi nice dinner kinda dressed up...a good movie...then get a drink...then chill at home and laugh and talk and drink more;)

48.) Do you tend to attract the stalker-type?
i dont attract any type, i suck at life remember?

49.) What do you smell like right now?
prob gross since i didnt have time this morn to shower

50.) What is your favorite color?
black pink green sometimes blue

51.) Do you like mustard?
heck yes

52.) What do you tell yourself when times get hard?
Jesus loves me.

53.) Would you ever sky dive?
maybe

54.) What size bed do you sleep on?
queen

55.) Do old people scare you or creep you out?
i love old people. except when they think u owe them something...

56.) Have you ever bid for something on ebay?
no, it stresses me out sooo much

57.) What do you think of Angelina Jolie being pregnant?
i don care, i don kno her or anything

58.) Do you enjoy giving hugs?
love.

59.) Would you consider yourself to be fashionable?
sometimes...usually just weird...i just wear whats comfy and what i like

60.) Do you have any idea how to say 2006 in Swahili?
this is stupid

61.) Do you own any shows on DVD?
heck yes! LOST -ARRESTED DEVELOPMENT- THE OFFICE-newlyweds, viva la bam too

62.) Who is your favorite Friends character?
Phoebe is so great

63.) Does it annoy you when someone says they'll call but never does?
no, usually im the one who doesnt call cause im forgetful and mean

64.) What books, if any, have made you cry?
chronicles of narnia

65.) Do you ever feel guilty after eating meat?
this is why i only eat chicken and turkey. the other meats make me sad...and they make my tummy sad...so yeah.