Stories from the 5th Grade

Today the kids were being suuuuuper funny. I kept just stopping and laughing at them, they are just so hilarious sometimes!

1) The teacher was reading aloud a story and every once in awhile stopping to make sure they understand words or ideas:
Teacher: so guys, whats a "social life"?
Student: DATING! (laughter ensues)
Teacher: what?! a social life isnt dating!
Student: yes it is!
Teacher: Your in 5th grade! You dont even know what dating is! (giggling...)
Student: yes we do!

2) Just normally transitioning between activities, when there is a calamity in between tables!:
Teacher: whats going on?!
Student: its Charlie!
Teacher: what?
Other Student: its the bug!
Teacher: you guys named the bug?
Another Student: ahhh dont step on Charlie!
Teacher: can someone please just take the bug outside.
All Students: awwwwww

I was on the other part of the room so I didnt exactly know what was going on and had to ask a student:
Me: whats going on?
Student: its just Charlie
Me: what?
Student: charlie the pincher bug. (as if it was SO obvious)

They are super fun and sweet sometimes. But seriously, 5th graders can be quite the little stinkers. Today was the first day I realized I actually really like each of them. Its been almost a month. It took me that long, haha.

Wine date tonight with Number 2? But not before a nap. Those stinkers know how to wear a girl out.

Not Crazy Anymore.

New boys want to date me! hooray!
To begin with:
So whats-his-face never called all weekend. I was somewhat concerned since its very unlike him not to call when he says he will...and lets face it, I was somewhat annoyed. so I texted him to make sure he wasnt dead and sure enough he had to go out of town for work. You couldnt have told me? Very rude. I didnt say that to him of course. But I thought it...lots. But he said hed call me this week, so Im trying to give him the benefit of the doubt. Well, its Wednesday. Which still gives him a few days, but I'm not counting on it. and after a day or two of being bummed and anxious about it, I'm fine now. Just all of a sudden I was fine yesterday and didnt care if he ever called again. So there you go.

And always, just when I think Ive gotten used to things as they are things change again. Yesterday after I was all fine, 3 more boys asked to take me out. Yes, thats right. three. And not just random weird ones, they asked too but I dont count them, actual legit young men.
Well, kinda.
One is 2 years younger then me and just graduated and is unemployed, gross. But after I told him those were my reasons for not going out with him (just a weird thing I have...must not be younger or cant not have a job...so strange isnt it;) he wrote me this long thing where I was convinced that at least we'd have a nice evening together and Id get a free dinner out of it, haha. So yeah. He'll be calling. I promise Ill be nice.

Number 2 gentlemen actually has a real job and from what I know about him, he reminds me of whats-his-name. Same kind of job with investment banking or something and similar life aspirations. He was nice and again, not my type, but not unattractive either so Im going to let him take me out. We have a wine date for tomorrow evening. I still dont have a lot of expectations for it being either good or bad...but it could still be fun. I didnt make it shopping the other day, now I HAVE to go! yay!

Finally numero tres is some beautiful actor man from Glendale who talked to me for like an hour and was SO nice and we had such a lovely conversation! He asked for my number but I doubt anything will happen. He just lives so far away. But it was still fun to have someone interested in me. Thats always nice for us single girls. we need attention too.

So thats my update for the day. Ill keep you all posted on how things go with number 2 and if anything happens with One or Numero Tres. And yes, those shall be there names now. Number 2 keeps reminding me of this guy:
Who isnt even the real Number 2 from AP, but I just keep thinking of him. Remember when he kept dying and it wouldnt work out? ahaha Oh man, mike myers and will ferrell together are like my dream team.

The real Number 2. Hopefully mine wont have an eye patch. Or be a million years old.

TIRED

I'm tired of writing about my boy woes. However, today is the first day where i feel like its not consuming my thoughts entirely. So instead of whining about how boys suck and im going to die alone, Im going to discuss (probably whine) about other things.

But just really quick. We have this awesome conversation on wednesday, right? Then he texts me and we talk throughout the week and I get a...ill call u when the weekend gets closer so we can make plans...and everythings great. UNTIL the weekend comes and nothing. nada. zip. Just as I was beginning to maybe trust this guy a teeny tiny bit, he pulls this crap. And honestly, i dont care THAT much. Im just more annoyed than anything else. And extra frustrated that now I have to deal with THIS. He said that he was a gentleman and always calls even if its to tell a girl he thinks they should just be friends. His record has been perfect so far. SO i can only expect hes going to call and either give me the "lets just be friends" speech OR I have to give him the "your rude and wasted my time this weekend and may not call me again, ass." NEITHER is appealing to me at the moment. plus, seeing your extremely ex boyfriend with his new girlfriend over the weekend while all this crap is going down doesnt exactly boost a girls self esteem. and now I feel bad about myself. awesome. Glad the weekend is over so I can get back to being busy...and awesome.

in other news. in regards to feeling bad about myself, Ive been thinking more about moving to NYC. I have my phone interview for the program THIS WEEK. Ill find out if I made it to the final interview at the end of the month, and final interview is at the end of October. But suddenly I dont feel "cool" enough to move to NY. And how will I make friends if I teach children all day? I dont know any cool restaurants and I dont know if I want to fit into the Brooklyn crowd or the uptown crowd...decisions decisions. Then again, beautiful men wanted to befriend me literally on every corner and its so different there...they just strike up conversation with you and then your going out later for drinks. Its crazy. Not like here. SO different. Its like NY is one big party where everyone you meet was invited so you already have that in common. What if I get depressed from constant dreary rain all the time? What do i do with Worms?
I guess moving is always scary. Moving to NY is always scary. I just want to go. Im going to go. Ill figure it out. Im still going. And if it sucks Ill just fly across the pond to Paris and remember where I can find my soul whenever necessary. Or just fly to visit Cassie and REALLY remember who I am. Oh, I do miss her.

Lets face it. Ill never be as "cool" as her.

THE PLAN:
Im going shopping. Whenever I feel bad about myself I go shopping to remember how awesome I am. I am a very good shopper. And do not deny myself the high one gets from buying something 75% off, I just use it wisely.

Im also going to bake a pie. A vegan peanut butter pie and you cant stop me. Also, to remind myself how awesome I am. Shit, I can shop and bake and care for large groups of children, Im like a professional 1950's housewife over here. Now wheres my vodka and Valium;)

Still a Crazy Person

Oh the boy. Oh me the crazy person. Oh what a long week. Oh my dramatic heart.

SO basically, without getting too much into it (despite what you may think I DO realize this is a public blog;). We went out for drinks on Monday and had a nice time...besides the fact that he smelled, haha, i forgot to tell some of you that, haha. I know he had gone to the gym so maybe he just stunk from that...but it was just sweaty man smell which I dont mind tooooo much. Plus, I smelled like Marc Jacobs Daisy so I made up for both of us. it was funny though. I didnt tell him so, dont worry.

ANYWAY, so we were having a nice time and he invited me over again for our next date on the upcoming weekend...again, I refused. and again he questioned me as to why I refused. After a bit of an awkward debacle about how "Im not that kind of girl", and hes somewhat confused, it was time to go so he walked me to my car and gave me a weird peck of a kiss and that was it. SO I assume thats it. I never expected to hear from him again.

Based on my experiences with men (limited, but still existent) once they realize Im not sleeping with them on the first few dates, they're over it. Mostly because women are whores nowadays and they can just find someone else. Also, its NORMAL for me to think that when hes inviting me over to his house, thats what he means, RIGHT? im not totally insane here. So I was all frustrated with men and women in general and questioning my classy way of doing things (SO YOU MEAN TO TELL ME I EITHER HAVE TO BE A SLUT OR AN OVERLY PRUDE CHRISTIANY WERIDO?! THOSE ARE MY OPTIONS?!?!?!). I was just sad and reminded about being alone, and feeling like a crazy person, etc.

BUT (and its a big but), just as I was over it and wasnt worrying about it anymore by wednesday, HE CALLS.

yeah. seriously.

and acts like nothing is wrong. but im super surprised so he asks me why and we get into it. He explains that when he invites me over, he is really just inviting me over and ISNT insinuating anything and isnt a gross guy who likes slutty girls anyway. He keeps telling me hes a good guy, he doesnt treat girls like that. and I keep telling him that based on my experiences im just trying to be cautious. and that I dont have to trust him yet after 3 dates. so we keep talking and even more surprising the conversation ends nicely. he texts me later that day because hes thinking of me. he likes me. he just may be a real gentleman. I just may have watched too many Lifetime movies or Law and Order SVU and may be a little crazy. we're going out again this weekend.

the end.

lesson learned: dont be a crazy.

PS: Thanks everyone for all your comments. They are always so helpful and sweet. Love you all!

I'm a crazy person.

He said he'd call and he always does so I wasn't worried all day. But
then it got to be evening and I started to panic. Reviewed the entire
date trying to figure out what I could have overlooked as not good,
sat in bed for 20min feeling sorry for myself, planned a clever text
to send him if no call by 9, and then as soon as I had written him off
and regained my self confidence as an amazing woman...he called.

Were going to have drinks tomorrow night. (trying to avoid his house
like the plague.)

I'm a crazy person.

The Dinner Date

Luckily I got rid of the rents so he could pick me up without having to meet them...i mean, I think he would have totally fine and my parents could have probably held it together...but I just didnt feel ready for that. I dont want all my dates to have to meet my parents, I still want it to be a kind of special thing. SO he picked me up in his Mercedes, and I looked pretty stinkin hot (curled hair, fake eyelashes, the whole deal), and he told me I was pretty, and we went to When In Rome.

He ordered us really good wine, at my request of nothing too dry. They made me an AMAZING pasta primavera at my request of nothing with cheese or meat. Our cute old italian waiter tells me, "oh, we'll make something for you, we'll make something for you.". The pasta and sauce were SO fresh Ive never tasted anything so flavorful! Then I broke my no cream rule and had a bite of 3 desserts, all of which were delicious. Besides the yummy food and atmosphere, we had such a nice time together. Had so much to talk about and we both just get along really well. We really like to discuss things about just different random stuff. We are both opinionated and like to talk about stuff, which is so fun to have someone to talk about stuff with. And its never heated, its always just in fun and in the end we just agree to disagree or laugh. So that was great.

Then he invited me to his house. And I knew that wasnt a good idea. So we went to a quiet bar down the street instead. We just talked and enjoyed each others company more there, and I realized half way through the conversation that I hadnt noticed anything else in the entire room...we were just totally in the moment enjoying our time together. It was sweet.

He kissed me.

He complimented me lots.

He also offered to take me to his house 2 more times, which I politely refused and changed the subject. As much as I want to, I mean...I am a real person, Im just trying to be a lady. A nice girl. Being a nice lady is a lot more work though.

He said he would call me today, and we might have plans for tomorrow. He always calls when he says he will and will usually text me or something...but nada today. NOTHING. and its getting late and im anxious. Which is annoying, because after the first date I only kinda cared if he called or not. But now all of a sudden Im all fussy and anxious.

But im just about over it. As in, if he doesnt call he doesnt call.

Im not super duper attached, we just have fun together and its nice to be liked so of course I dont want that to end.

He has a few more hours, we'll see how it goes.

A Lunch Date

WELL
I forgot to tell you all that I had another date with someone else on Monday. We went to Poisidens in Del Mar. It was beautiful, right on the beach, and such a nice day. We had a nice time, lots to talk about getting to know each other and everything. He has a good job, nice things, nice car, sounds like he has a good family, likes to travel, has lots of things to keep him busy with friends and activities during the week, hes a good guy. My only hesitation is that he isnt "my type"? Im just SO attracted to the arty musicy Indie guys who never like me back and are typically pretentious jerks anyway without jobs or proper social skills. He is the polar opposite. Works in intense corporate America and LIKES it, which, you know me, so NOT my thing. This guy is great, we just dont have anything in common really, which also seems to freak me out a little. He does like to travel and do cultural stuff like I do, but more because he was raised to like them and less because hes a freak about them like me. Which is fine, at least we'd have some things to do together.

Anyway, we had a really nice lunch. He knows how to treat a girl, which was really great. Opened doors, paid for everything even my valet, always made sure I had sparkling water, it was a good time.

SO he called the next day (crazy right) and we are going to dinner again on Saturday.
I'm just excited to get to know him more and to have fun.
Dating is fun.
It just requires a lot more thought.

Your all so excited you get to follow along on my dating adventures, hehe.

Currently watching a crazy movie called Rabbit Proof Fence. Its for my Art & World Cultures class and its such a crazy story. I cant believe just 80 years ago this happened. They used to STEAL aboriginal children from their families and send them to live in schools to learn to be servants where they could only speak english and had to follow Catholic traditions. Its really awful to watch. And amazing how the Australians didnt learn from how awful our Native America "re-education" plan went. Its pretty much the exact same thing. so sad.

Ok, back to work.

Hes Just Not That Into Me?

WELL
He texted me this morning to say that he had to go to the ER last night from fainting and got stitches so we had to put our date on hold for now. I asked what happened and he said that he went to the gym yesterday for the first time in more then a year (which I think is cute since its probably because he had a hot date with a certain somebody;) and didnt drink enough water and then had some beer and fainted and cut open his bottom lip. so embarrassing, hehe.

Thats not a brush off right? And he told me today at 11a.

Too be honest, Im pretty ok with things. I mean, I was excited to go out and I actually think it could have been a good date. But for a number of reasons its ok with me (for now its ok...this will change if I actually never hear from him again)
1) My face is all broken out from eating too many nuts. I know, right.
2) Friends are having a fun pre labor day party today and I was going to miss most of it, so Im glad I get to go now. Im also making delicious food for the party and really wanted to get to do that.
3) I need to re-dye my hair but didnt feel like doing it. Now I can do it tomorrow and he'll never know.
4) I have such skepticism about boys already, that I had very little hopes up about anything actually happening. so really, I'm not too dashed
5) 2 other boys wanted my number to ask me out sometime this week, so this isnt the end of the world. Although he was my favorite one I think.

So we'll see.
Oh man, I sure hope things work out with him solely for the reason that someday he can discover my blog and what I wrote about him. mwahaha.

Cry Face! and others.

So the last few days, for NO apparent reason I have been so teary eyed at the most RANDOM things. This happens every once in awhile, unrelated to hormones, but just because.
Here's a list of things that have made my eyes well in the last few days. seriously RIDICULOUS!

-So You Think You Can Dance best 15 dances:
A lot of them are really powerful, but teary eyed worthy? Especially after Ive seen them at least 3 times before? I dont know about that.

-Bleeding Love song by Leona Lewis:
It was on the radio on the way to work today and I just got all weepy because I related to the song about being alone...but then it was about being in love now...and then I realized Im not actually that lonely (certainly not enough to cry about it!) and then realized Im crazy. But got all teary anyway. so funny.

-Shawshank Redemption Movie Clip in Class:
We were discussing how music effects people in amazing ways, and watched the clip when he plays the opera over the PA system and everyone stops what they're doing and listens. I couldnt handle it, even though Ive seen it before, I got all teary eyed AGAIN.

-No Cars Running song by Arcade Fire:
Again, have listened to this song a million times, but for some reason this time it was so beautiful it made me cry. haha so lame.

Ill try to take note of when the other instances take place. Im sure this is just the beginning.

In other news, all my clothes have stains on them. Well, not all of them. But the set of revolving dresses I wear on a regular basis, 4 of them have stains...out of like 7. Lets see...one got apple cider vinegar on it from when I put it on my dogs wounds. I spilled food on my blue stripey one. I spilled burrito on my painty one. And today I put on a green one thinking it was stain free, but no. I just found a weird grey stain right on the front of it. Now I have all this laundry to do. But I do think its funny. All the clothes I have to wear in this weather I cant wear because they have stains. silly.

ALSO
I have a date on Sunday! weird right? Im not making a big deal out of it, because Im not expecting anything to happen. It will just be nice to be taken out and it will be fun. He did a god job planning what we're going to do, so if anything Ill have fun doing that. Besides, dating is supposed to be fun! I really wish it was a date with the boy I have a crush on, but apparently he sucks at actually asking for my number or asking me to do things. ANNOYING. thats right boys, I said it, your annoying. get it together.

School started this week. I actually like my classes but am so NOT excited to be back at school I had a rough week. I was just so cranky and tired. Over it. I think im also just really burnt out of the teaching stuff and am sick of everyone in my cohort. Too much togetherness under high stress going on our 3rd year together...not fun. But im extra excited for my 2 art classes...but am still in denile I have a HUGE amount of reading and homework to do. Trying to get it all done so I can actually enjoy the holiday weekend.

Note to self: wearing hair in braids on top of head like Heidi=bad hair days to follow. But it was worth it.

The Last of my Life + BIG news!

Last Day of my Life:

WELL. this is it. my last day of freedom.

I cant believe the summer is over already! it seems like I was just whining about how bored I am...summer school...heat...beach...wow. over.

Tomorrow I have a BUSY day too. The beginning of a very busy week, which will reflect my life from here on out. BUT its my last official semester as an undergraduate!!! So, really...its like my last FIRST day of school?! yay!

but not really since teachers have first days all the time and ill be getting my masters eventually and will have to do this all over again, bleh. but having this long worked for, cried over, hateful, exhaustive BA done will feel SO great! and then its just fun student teaching (and by fun, I of course me equally exhaustive) for the spring semester and I'm PEACING OUT!!!

so today im trying to get everything done before my live is over. Cleaning out my car (this is a big deal for me, as you should well know), hanging up forgotten pictures, cleaning out corners, cleaning my bed sheets, spa day, errands, cooking for the week, everything I know I wont have the energy for ever again. sad.

unfortunately its so dang hot I can only do a little at a time before I start literally DRIPPING with sweat. I prefer to just look at the projects that need to get done while sitting in front of my fan.

BIG NEWS:

well, Ive tried to tell everyone whose really close to me before I posted it online, and I think I've pretty much succeeded, so here goes for everyone else--- I have applied for Teach for America (through Americorp) to teach in the inner city of NYC (hopefully). I made it through the first application, and I'm on to the phone interview now at the end of September. Then its on to an in person interview in October, then I find out a few months down the road if and where I will be placed. soooo yeah. CRAZY right. Its a 2 year program, I get paid decently, and I get to pay back my loans and work on my masters degree for free! YAY! so thats pretty exciting. a little scary, but in a good way. so, im sure Ill gush more on everything later, but for now I have to focus on the task ahead of finishing the year strong.

I miss Disneyland.

I forgot

Forgot to add this to the Disneyland pictures of me and Kels. This is a good one from this year!(me. naked. obviously.)

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Had a nice time with friends this week. But am really tired and spent the day napping and catching up on my shows (yay!). I did venture out to take alex to the airport this morning and later to get a vegan burrito from Ricos. Otherwise, nada. it was awesome. tomorrow i got meet my teacher for my student teaching this semester. Im excited, its a 5th grade class which ive done before but this will be more intensive. and 5th graders have grown on me a lot since then which is why I chose 5th, yay! haha watching Kathy Griffen stand up...shes so funny making fun of Hollywood. love it.

There was a cake episode this week.
Check it out on my other blog: thisgirlsvegan.blogspot.com
it was a doozy.

I think I might have a crush on a boy! which is always fun. oh to be young again...

Too tired from too much fun!

Yesterday and today were crazy! Short version: Cleaned the house and had family come on Saturday. Drove down to Micahs late to spend the night and ended up going out for drinks and dancing with her and her lovely friend boy Alex (so fun!). Woke up at 6am (oh, life with room mates;) then Picked up lady alex (friend from DTS) this morning and spent the day with her, micah, me, and cammie. Got breakfast, coffee at cammies hotel, walked around Cornado, the Hotel Del, and along the beach. Napped and ate burritos then came home with Alex. Got everything together here for her and myself after having family stay in my room. Sat and watched Friends and tried not to fall asleep while eating snacks. Had family friends here the entire time but was too tired to interact with them.

my eyes hurt from exhaustion. my feet hurt from not wearing proper shoes for walking all day. my head hurts from lack of sleep and too much fun. time for bed!

lovelove.

Other Possible Men to Marry

I would also be open to marrying any of the following gentlemen:

(the boys of Mewithoutyou)

(the boys of Fleet Foxes)

(Glen Hansard of Swell Season)

Now, whos gonna make this happen?

Why cant I meet anyone?

Kelsey and Esthers Disney Adventures Through the Years

Kelsey and I decided to take a look at ourselves from the past few times we've gone to Disneyland. I can now rightly say, things have only gotten better.

Traditional Tram Pictures:

Autumn 2007

Christmas 2007

Summer 2008

Summer 2009

Front of the park full body shots:

(there are only two because we dont like asking people to take our pictures.)

Christmas 2007

Summer 2009

What Have I Been Doing, you ask?

I had such a great weekend! Me and Kelsey spent Sunday going to her church, eating delicious vegan food at the Veggie Grill, shopping at the giant Forever 21, and then the evening at Disneyland! I was so exhausted afterwards, but poor Kelsey had to go to work the next day, must have been rough!

Unfortunately on Monday I wasnt feeling very well (lack of sleep and an allergy attack) so I drove home from Kelseys and then just passed out with the doggies for a few hours before Jordan and Annie came by for a visit. Then me and Jordan went to the market because i haven't gone for 2 weeks and was tired of eating chips and guacamole for lunch everyday, ha.

Lately I have been watching Dexter season 1 (as inspired by Cassie actually), just finished last night! LOVE it so much! The plot was so developed, normally I can always figure out who and why the bad guys are on those kinds of shows, but not this one! and I love the depth and deep questions Dexter makes the viewers ponder. I find myself thinking a lot while watching, which means its definitely a good show. I finished it though, so its time for a break. While I was going to bed I couldnt get the image of blood out of my head so I knew it was time to quit for awhile. I have Mad Men season 1 on the way, we'll see how that goes. But instant watching is so much easier!!!

Bella is doing better. Her little feet are looking a teeny tiny bit better, but I most notice her personality is back! Shes perky and sweet again, even though she still cant really walk. Its nice to have her back after months of her being so tired and sad ALL the time. Hopefully we're now on a good path to getting her better.

one of my friends and I decided that if neither of us still has a man at 40, then we will get pregnant at the same time (hello sperm bank) and have babies anyway! We also decided that we would like to live in a duplex so we could have our own space, but still have fun with our babies together. we were SO excited! And it made both of us so hopeful for the future. Being SO single is rough. And by SO single I mean, not even a date in the last...I dont even want to say. But at the same time, I love being an independent young woman. I know I dont really want to be married right now either, although a bf would be nice, but whatever. I can do whatever I want. I can go wherever I want. I can sit all afternoon in bed with my dogs and watch Dexter and bake pies and no one can stop me! It was such a freeing concept when I realized I dont NEED a man. I have amazing girl friends and a promising future once school is over. I have done so much that I am able to figure out any situation without the help of a male counterpart. Im not saying it wouldnt be NICE to have a lovely boy around. And I think we were made to fit nicely with a male partner, but i still dont NEED them. I am perfectly able to take care of myself, thank you. And when I feel alone, I have about 10 girl friends and some rents who can tend to me, thanks. That being said, Im not lowering my standards just because I hate sleeping alone. So Mr. i-dont-have-a-job-and-live-at-home-cause-im-lazy guys who somehow find me at every bar or party, you can turn yourself right around. Im not that desperate.

I think I have been watching too much Sex and the City. or Hes Just Not That Into You. haha.

On todays agenda: walk Worms. buy Bella more fancy dog food in Del Mar. Buy vegan chocolate chips for my pie. Bake pie. Pick up room. Watch something lovely. probably nap.

This is my life now.

But PS, this is my last week of enjoyment! Next week I have friends in town, start my teaching internship, and work. then I start school the 31st! sad times. Im trying to enjoy every last second of my "boredom" as possible!!!

Man this ended up being long. enjoy!

This Weeks Vegan Menu: for your enjoyment

This is my life now:

I just made roasted veggies with tofu for dinner tonight and lunch tomorrow.

Also on the menu this week are:

-Vegan burritos: Ezekial WW tortillas, vegan canned refried beans, brown rice, avacado/guacamole, and salsa. ive been craving burritos like crazy and im so excited!

-Rice & Bean Salad: A really fresh sounding mix of yummy beans, tomatoes, peppers, corn, avacado, and spices. I think im most excited because it requires NO cooking, just a bunch of chopping and throwing together. yay for summer salads!

-Yummy Rice: This is gonna be another huge mix of veggies, tofu, a little rice, and spices. Supposedly it makes a huge amount, so im excited to have lots of extras.

GRAND FINALE!!!

Chocolate Bourbon Pecan Pie!!!

The cookbook says is supposed to be amazing, since its also known as "orgasm in the mouth" pie.

Sooooo whos coming over for dinner?!

yes, this is my life now. I hang out with my dogs, cook, do crafts, bake alcohol pies, watch reruns and old movies on TV, and clean.

its official, i am grandma Esther.

Oh the joy of having doggies

This morning Lola (Worms) slept in until 9am, which was very exciting. Until i got downstairs to get them out of their house and it smelled so bad I thought to myself, "oh man, we need to wash their blankets! gross!"

however, when I unfurled the sheet we have over their house, and let Worms out. The evidence of poop EVERYWHERE was overwhelming. And heres Worms jumping all over me with poop all over her feet and getting it all over the carpet. Literally, poop paw prints all over the carpet on outside of their house. and then theres Bella. Poor sicky Bella. All curled up away from the diharria all over the blanket. Kinda brown in patches. all upset and embarrassed. so I made worms go outside since she was all crazy getting poop prints everywhere. and i got sad Bella out and washed the blanket and her poopy socks.

Then it was time to wash the girls. Bella was so upset she seemed actually excited to have a bath. and Worms wasnt as bad as Bella so she was ok. Then they were all happy and running around the house all clean and perky.

however, for this Momma it wasnt the best way to wake up.

im a good momma.

lovelove.

Why does he have to be married with 4 children?!

Oh Sam Beam, I just heart you.

Baking a Pie Day!

Well today was a good day. Busy, but lovely!

This morning I had a little laser appt. and then went to the market for the week. I love the market, all the nice boys ask me if I need any help like 5 million times, its fun. Then I came home and ate the veggie sandwich i got along while shopping. By then I was tired (naturally) and Bella wanted to snuggle and nap with me, so we did. Shes not much of a snuggler, but since shes been sick and so tired and sad, shes been extra snuggly. After our little nap, I cleaned the disgusting kitchen and then decided to bake my long awaited vegan apple pie.

I made a lovely oatmeal crust and then started on the Apple filling part. Unfortunately, i didnt read the directions and just started dumping everything together. Apparently you dont do that with apple pie. Apparently you have to cook all these things separately and then put it together...um, its a lot of work. and thats an understatement. After I made the crust, i had to peel and core and cut the apples. then cook the apples and raisins together in water, then add things to them but I ran out of syrup so I had to use honey (not technically "vegan", but it is to me), then seperately sauté some of the leftover apple water and corn starch, then mush it all together and bake it. Then I had so much leftover filling, I had to have Annie run some oatmeal over to me so I could make another pie! We managed to almost finish the first pie tonight, between my family and Annie and Jordan too. I was SERIOUSLY surprised that it turned out so yummy! Last minute I found some random sugar free syrup in the fridge and added a bunch to it because it wasnt tasting sweet enough. Everyone liked it! yay me!

Today my mom asked if i wanted to stop by her work. my response, "oh i dont think i can, i have to go to the market, then bake and pie, then weight watchers. basically im turning into a grandma."

so true. so true.

BUT a grandma that can bake vegan pies (with honey)! yay me!

Also, today I found out that Olivia is having a BOY! SO exciting! I cant wait to go shopping! Now I can start putting a real face and name to the little love bug. Hes going to be so fun!

Lets see, tomorrow Im going to maybe get my car washed (inside and out! i know your so proud) and then hang out with Alyssa and her friend, now my friend, Emma. I should probably find some time to craft too, i just bought a new glue gun so I can start my bows. yay!

lovelove.

also, new glasses too! so fun!

A Whole Week Off! What to do?!

Hooray! Summer vacation has really begun! And its a good thing too, since its probably the last one ill ever have. Im done with my summer class, Done working extra and random jobs, done with all my errands, even my summer "to do" list is almost finished. Now all thats left is random little things like some crafts, hanging a picture thing up, books to read, and i do need to get my car washed actually. But pretty much, summer is here!

I feel like when i was a kid because i just get up when I want, do whatever I want, and am kinda poor so I dont actually have a lot of options.

Lets see, Ive been filling all this weeks time with cooking and baking yummy vegan things (i love it!). Working on my Paris scrapbook, trying to finish reading LOTR (i think i need a break for something easier actually), cleaning my room, taking care of sick Bella, and planning my escapes. Im starting to get claustrophobic again here in north county/San Diego/So Cal. I just found out ill be getting financial aid again so hopefully I can get out of here sooner than later!

Im all out of sorts today, since I had things planned to do but the cleaning lady is here all up in my grill. I cant work on my scrapbook, cant really shower or get ready to go anywhere, cant bake the cupcakes I was planning to make today, cant hang the picture thing...im just all out of whack. Im not really "bored", just dont know what to do out of the options. and because Irma is here so I cant be in my space.

I have some exciting things coming up though, Kelsey is coming this weekend. Im going to visit Kathleen in LA the second weekend of August. My friend Alex comes to visit at the end of August. And im going to try and go to Disneyland as often as possible in between my black out days and school starting.

But for now, I should probably go see if shes done so I can take a shower or brush my teeth or something. jeez.