ok this weekend was one of the most tiring weekends ive ever had...and i know tired, im pretty much tired ALL the time anyway.
so yesterday i went to the church to check it out. i have to say im pretty sure im going to take the job. its a really nice church. they are currently even redoing everything because the church has grown so much they r enlarging the children and student areas. they're beautiful! they were finishing up a 4 week series about SEX. which is amazing to me that they would talk about it with the entire congregation...thats so different from normal conservative churches. so i was immediately impressed with that. and the worship was good and modern and most importantly the congregation was really into it singing and really worshippin God. i definitely felt the Holy Spirit chillin with everyone. then the executive pastor took me around and introduced me to everyone and showed me all the buildings and people. they all knew who i was and were really excited to meet me! that was a good sign! they said they had heard so much about me! yay! their childrens program and the new childrens director are AMAZING! it was probably the coolest childrens program ive ever seen! i kinda wanted to join in...seriously.
so he asked me to pray about it and call him on tuesday or wednesday with how i want to progress. that sounds like i got offered the job right?
so heres how i feel about it. im struggling with feeling like...takin a job at an ultra wealthy upper white class church like that totally goes against what i believe. BUT at the same time, this is where i grew up. this is my people group. these people and kids need Jesus too...even more so because they think they have everything they need cause they think they're perfect and dont need God. so im convincing myself that im not a sell out. and to not be embarrassed. and to make a difference with where God has offered me.
anyway,
moving after church went well. it was A LOT of work and im pretty sure i never EVER want to move again. but it was mostly books and clothes so unpacking went quickly. i was suprised with how many clothes i have and bags and shoes. i had 2 bags of stuff to donate and 2 bags of trash. crazy! mom helped me unpack a lot! so now i just have a few more boxes and the curtains and i need to put my pictures and stuff up.
wormy slept with me last night. she was SO good! i was suprised! but today when i left she was crying a little in her cage (i figured she would be nervous in a new place all alone), and i got all nervous about the neighbors, but i could hardly hear her outside the bedroom door and when i left i realized the neighbors were all at work anyway! yay!
this morning i woke up early and took wormy for a walk along the beach. 2 blocks from my house! she loved it and it will help her sleep while im gone and she got to go potty. and i loved it. i like walking along flat roads...especially along the ocean!
ok. i gotta go now...my days r crazy! tonight i have to pick up bella so tonight is going to be more eventful im sure. i need to buy her a no-bark collar too.
so i should definitely take the job right?!
im loving my life even tho im so so tired!
lovelove.
Monday, March 03, 2008
Sunday, March 02, 2008
10 minutes
in the ten minutes i have before i go off to a day that will change my life forever, i wanted to write u all a blog. sounds somewhat dramatic but its true.
today i move out like a big girl for real! im taking my dogs...which will be very discombobulated for quite a few days...im taking the bills...im taking the craziness of living on my own! ive gone away for long periods of time before...one month in 2004 to india...2 months in the summer of 06 for lecture phase of my YWAM discipleship training school...and almost another 2 months for India YWAM outreach...so its not like ive ever been away from home before. but this is for real! im glad im not moving to a different city or something quite yet. baby steps.
also today im on the next step of a job interview that could also change my life. i think i mentioned im attending the church i want the job at. im not sure if we're going to meet or anything after the service...i kinda doubt it since the guy whos interviewing me and everything has sundays off so he probably wont want to work on his day off? but ill probably check out the childrens meeting. and more importantly ill be attending the main service and seeing what its all about. im sure its the same kind of church as the ones ive attended around here. it seems like a place id like if not still a little too white upper class for me. but hey, thats where i live. theirs no getting around it. i cant explain how much my heart flutters when i think about this job. its so where my heart is. where my passions are. it almost seems like freedom from the job i currently have which is ok, but not my calling or require any of my interests besides the small part of me that loves admin work...but thats not what i want to do ALL day about something i dont care about! bleh!
every morning after the dogs wake me up at 7ish am to go to the bathroom, we all get back into bed and snuggle. even bella who normally doesnt like it. then while im getting ready they go back to sleep for awhile. currently, bella has her tongue out and is conked out on her blanket, and worms is sleeping with all her feet touching my leg so she knows where i am. im still not sure what to do about tomorrow. its going to be scary for them when i leave them in the new place all day alone. worms will be in her house, but i know bella will be upset and i dont want her pottying in the house because she cant find the door or whatever...anyway, this next week is going to be interesting.
im so sad i didnt get to kelsey this weekend! i was really looking forward to laying in bed with her and some dogs and catching up. stupid moving. i literally did not stop packing from 10am-10pm yesterday. so so tired.
ok friends. its 9am. time for my big day.
wish me lots of luck and energy and if u believe in prayer then give some up for me!
lovelove.
today i move out like a big girl for real! im taking my dogs...which will be very discombobulated for quite a few days...im taking the bills...im taking the craziness of living on my own! ive gone away for long periods of time before...one month in 2004 to india...2 months in the summer of 06 for lecture phase of my YWAM discipleship training school...and almost another 2 months for India YWAM outreach...so its not like ive ever been away from home before. but this is for real! im glad im not moving to a different city or something quite yet. baby steps.
also today im on the next step of a job interview that could also change my life. i think i mentioned im attending the church i want the job at. im not sure if we're going to meet or anything after the service...i kinda doubt it since the guy whos interviewing me and everything has sundays off so he probably wont want to work on his day off? but ill probably check out the childrens meeting. and more importantly ill be attending the main service and seeing what its all about. im sure its the same kind of church as the ones ive attended around here. it seems like a place id like if not still a little too white upper class for me. but hey, thats where i live. theirs no getting around it. i cant explain how much my heart flutters when i think about this job. its so where my heart is. where my passions are. it almost seems like freedom from the job i currently have which is ok, but not my calling or require any of my interests besides the small part of me that loves admin work...but thats not what i want to do ALL day about something i dont care about! bleh!
every morning after the dogs wake me up at 7ish am to go to the bathroom, we all get back into bed and snuggle. even bella who normally doesnt like it. then while im getting ready they go back to sleep for awhile. currently, bella has her tongue out and is conked out on her blanket, and worms is sleeping with all her feet touching my leg so she knows where i am. im still not sure what to do about tomorrow. its going to be scary for them when i leave them in the new place all day alone. worms will be in her house, but i know bella will be upset and i dont want her pottying in the house because she cant find the door or whatever...anyway, this next week is going to be interesting.
im so sad i didnt get to kelsey this weekend! i was really looking forward to laying in bed with her and some dogs and catching up. stupid moving. i literally did not stop packing from 10am-10pm yesterday. so so tired.
ok friends. its 9am. time for my big day.
wish me lots of luck and energy and if u believe in prayer then give some up for me!
lovelove.
Thursday, February 28, 2008
what a day
wow things are getting crazy! ive been trying to find time to pack this week but its been really hard...i have such a busy schedule already, fitting anything else in is ridiculous.
i did manage to clean out my desk and get some books in some boxes. tomorrow im going to try and clean under my bed (everythings in boxes down there, i just need to organize it more) and do the rest of my closet. then ill pretty much be done. but im so tired by friday after work i dunno how ill manage.
good news! today i had an interview with the executive pastor at Daybreak church in carlsbad. i interviewed for the 5/6 grade position and was "offered" to maybe also do childrens administrative support since 5/6 is only 2 sunday morn services and time to prep...which isnt a lot of hours per week. i think he really liked me and wanted to introduce me to the childrens director right away and come visit sunday morning...good signs! as i thought about it more and more i realized how much ive forgetten my passion as ive worked for doug doing his admin work. i mean, its a good job ive learned a lot and it was a season of my life...but its not anything im passionate about. i love kids and i dont even work with them! i love kids, art, travel, humanitarian work, and culture and i do nothing with any of those things. weird. so although its a scary thought to leave my "secure job" behind...it looks so much brighter to me to go for it.
so on sunday, besides moving im going to visit daybreak and "catch the vision" as we like to say in the biz. IM EXCITED! but im also really chill about everything. i keep feeling like i should be more worried about my future than i am. im just relaxed and ok with how everything will play out. everythings going to be fine. im sure of it. maybe its because ive been having lil quiet times every morning. maybe its because of these new supplements im taking. (not Temocil if u were wondering). or maybe its because i started smoking pot. whatever it is, i like feeling relaxed and not so fricken anxious and in planning mode all the time. by the way, i have never and do not smoke pot. it was a joke. laugh.
lolas been eating her right foot a lot. i have some foot spray i should spray on it. we used to have to use it on bella because she would chew her feet all the time. thats why they're brown. but lolas never done that. i think its allergies. this is a sneak peek into what my life concerns have become. my crazy dog eating her right foot.
tonight i made stir fry and me and micah had our "last" dinner and LOST night together. annie started ditching me like a month or so ago for many reasons...including but not limited to:
-being sick for like 2 months
-being really tired (story of her life)
-boyfriend AKA Fester
-vegas with fester
-berkley visiting friends
so much for sushi and LOST nights with ur friend annie. she should include footnotes with her verbal agreements.*
i have to get up at the crack tomorrow and work on homework all day/work at the office. BLEH!
i cant believe im moving out! this is so weird!
oh you know...2 blocks from my house. whatever. hehe.
*please note im joking and am in no way upset with annie for having a life outside of me.
i did manage to clean out my desk and get some books in some boxes. tomorrow im going to try and clean under my bed (everythings in boxes down there, i just need to organize it more) and do the rest of my closet. then ill pretty much be done. but im so tired by friday after work i dunno how ill manage.
good news! today i had an interview with the executive pastor at Daybreak church in carlsbad. i interviewed for the 5/6 grade position and was "offered" to maybe also do childrens administrative support since 5/6 is only 2 sunday morn services and time to prep...which isnt a lot of hours per week. i think he really liked me and wanted to introduce me to the childrens director right away and come visit sunday morning...good signs! as i thought about it more and more i realized how much ive forgetten my passion as ive worked for doug doing his admin work. i mean, its a good job ive learned a lot and it was a season of my life...but its not anything im passionate about. i love kids and i dont even work with them! i love kids, art, travel, humanitarian work, and culture and i do nothing with any of those things. weird. so although its a scary thought to leave my "secure job" behind...it looks so much brighter to me to go for it.
so on sunday, besides moving im going to visit daybreak and "catch the vision" as we like to say in the biz. IM EXCITED! but im also really chill about everything. i keep feeling like i should be more worried about my future than i am. im just relaxed and ok with how everything will play out. everythings going to be fine. im sure of it. maybe its because ive been having lil quiet times every morning. maybe its because of these new supplements im taking. (not Temocil if u were wondering). or maybe its because i started smoking pot. whatever it is, i like feeling relaxed and not so fricken anxious and in planning mode all the time. by the way, i have never and do not smoke pot. it was a joke. laugh.
lolas been eating her right foot a lot. i have some foot spray i should spray on it. we used to have to use it on bella because she would chew her feet all the time. thats why they're brown. but lolas never done that. i think its allergies. this is a sneak peek into what my life concerns have become. my crazy dog eating her right foot.
tonight i made stir fry and me and micah had our "last" dinner and LOST night together. annie started ditching me like a month or so ago for many reasons...including but not limited to:
-being sick for like 2 months
-being really tired (story of her life)
-boyfriend AKA Fester
-vegas with fester
-berkley visiting friends
so much for sushi and LOST nights with ur friend annie. she should include footnotes with her verbal agreements.*
i have to get up at the crack tomorrow and work on homework all day/work at the office. BLEH!
i cant believe im moving out! this is so weird!
oh you know...2 blocks from my house. whatever. hehe.*please note im joking and am in no way upset with annie for having a life outside of me.
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
cooking woes
so last night i made a vegan "burger" hash, but i made it with turkey (i eat turkey and chicken, just no other meat and no milk:)..and it was SICK. i followed the recipe exactly and it wouldnt have been so bad but of all things, the turkey tasted weird? and i felt really mad and frustrated because i spent so much time shopping and cooking it...ok not that long, like maybe an hour total...but i was just sad.
so tonight i had to make something else. i made a vegan macaroni and "cheese", and its REALLY good! yay!
yesterday i also tried to make some "energy orbs" out of blended dates, coconut, and some other thing i cant remember...but i got everything ready and then the blender wouldnt go on. so i asked my dad who was watching me cook kinda (he was cooking too), and he said, "oh yeah, its broken"...um hello, you couldnt tell me that before i had everything ready and in the blender? the blender was a wedding gift to my parents from my great grandma. its like their favorite thing in the world and they're really sad it broke:(
sad broken blender.
in other news. ive started packing (finally). its weird. me and micah came up with a genius idea to just take the drawers out of our dressers and desks and move that way. i love it. but i still need to clean things out...i have so much junk even tho i try and clean it out once a year...it just builds up.
every night around this time, wormys eyes turn like this bright bloodshot red and im pretty sure she smokes pot when im not looking or something. maybe shes just tired. haha.
ok, im gonna go eat some more of my yummy macaroni and cheese, and unhealthy girl scout cookies (not at the same time:)
lovelove.
so tonight i had to make something else. i made a vegan macaroni and "cheese", and its REALLY good! yay!
yesterday i also tried to make some "energy orbs" out of blended dates, coconut, and some other thing i cant remember...but i got everything ready and then the blender wouldnt go on. so i asked my dad who was watching me cook kinda (he was cooking too), and he said, "oh yeah, its broken"...um hello, you couldnt tell me that before i had everything ready and in the blender? the blender was a wedding gift to my parents from my great grandma. its like their favorite thing in the world and they're really sad it broke:(
sad broken blender.
in other news. ive started packing (finally). its weird. me and micah came up with a genius idea to just take the drawers out of our dressers and desks and move that way. i love it. but i still need to clean things out...i have so much junk even tho i try and clean it out once a year...it just builds up.
every night around this time, wormys eyes turn like this bright bloodshot red and im pretty sure she smokes pot when im not looking or something. maybe shes just tired. haha.
ok, im gonna go eat some more of my yummy macaroni and cheese, and unhealthy girl scout cookies (not at the same time:)
lovelove.
Saturday, February 23, 2008
a lovely day indeed
last night i went to bed at about 5pm, woke up about 830...made myself some dinner and caught up on my In Treatment episodes, then went back to bed around 11pm and woke up today at 10am. how did i get to be such an awesome sleeper you ask? i have no idea, i just rule at it. plus ive been feeling sicky/allergy lately:( so it makes me extra tired!
well quick post while my casserole finishes, then im off to micahs for a dinner party! tonight i made a tuna casserole with no milk. and i ran out of plain soy so theirs a little vanilla soy in it and a little milk too...haha. not much tho do it still tastes good.
anyway, today i went with my best girls up to irvine to meet kelsey! we all missed her SO much and had a really fun time laughing and catching up. then kelsey got mad for no reason and it started raining and everyones sick so we all got tired but i kept making people go shoe shopping. but it was still fun. and i finally got some new flats and heels which were VERY needed. and i got to experience H&M for the first time! YAY! i got my heels from there...it really is as cheap and lovely as everyone says it is! and its not all cliche and makes me angry like urban outfitters does.
soooo i have a job interview next week! its for that 5/6 grade job! it was kinda an awkward phone conversation, but im really excited that this could possibly work out. if i could do that and work both the receptionist job and for Doug on Thursdays or Fridays then id be stoked! and then Europe wouldnt seem so impossible...grrr...
im excited to play with my other besties tonight too...whoa, some of the petals from this boque of roses right next to me just fell off...that was cool. anyway, tisha is in town from victorville so im excited to see her! its been FOREVER! and of course micah and tamara are real fun too, so its going to be nice.
ok casseroles done, time to go...the girls wanted to say hello:
well quick post while my casserole finishes, then im off to micahs for a dinner party! tonight i made a tuna casserole with no milk. and i ran out of plain soy so theirs a little vanilla soy in it and a little milk too...haha. not much tho do it still tastes good.
anyway, today i went with my best girls up to irvine to meet kelsey! we all missed her SO much and had a really fun time laughing and catching up. then kelsey got mad for no reason and it started raining and everyones sick so we all got tired but i kept making people go shoe shopping. but it was still fun. and i finally got some new flats and heels which were VERY needed. and i got to experience H&M for the first time! YAY! i got my heels from there...it really is as cheap and lovely as everyone says it is! and its not all cliche and makes me angry like urban outfitters does.
soooo i have a job interview next week! its for that 5/6 grade job! it was kinda an awkward phone conversation, but im really excited that this could possibly work out. if i could do that and work both the receptionist job and for Doug on Thursdays or Fridays then id be stoked! and then Europe wouldnt seem so impossible...grrr...
im excited to play with my other besties tonight too...whoa, some of the petals from this boque of roses right next to me just fell off...that was cool. anyway, tisha is in town from victorville so im excited to see her! its been FOREVER! and of course micah and tamara are real fun too, so its going to be nice.
ok casseroles done, time to go...the girls wanted to say hello:
Friday, February 22, 2008
a survey if you please!
special thanks to the lovely and talented Brittany Sara for this one:)
1. Its 2AM on the weekend, and you are not home. You are more than likely:
at annies passed out drunk from drinking straight bacardi (dont do this. it was an accident. it sucked)
2. What’s the last thing you spent more than $100 on?
new cutie pink ipod nano i apparently dont like that much because i havent done anything with it yet. i just really like NPR ok.
3. What do your bank checks look like?
haha disney characters kissing...and they're pink. very me. very non adult like, haha.
4. Where did you get the shirt you are currently wearing from?
haha this is my ex boyfriends moms sweatshirt, ridiculous. mind you, we broke up in 2004...this is very old and very soft and cuddly.
5. Name something that was on your Christmas wish list.
LOST season 3. got it. so good. thanks uncle and titi.
6. What color is your toothbrush?
blue and white. i need a new one. they dont make pink toothbrushes for adults, it sucks.
7. Name something you collect.
elephants. i have a world wide collection...india, africa, latin america, china...so good.
8. Last restaurant you ate at?
Freds in PB with cass and annie. it was racist and our waitress sucked. needless to say it was a good time.
9. Last person you bought a birthday card for?
brother, november. woot.
10. What is your worst bad habit?
biting my nails and picking my nails when im nervous or bored. poor pointer finger lost his life to LOST last night.
11. Name a magazine you subscribe to?
to many...Allure, Glamour, Vanity Fair, Vogue. all were free except Vogue ok, so get off my back!
12. Your favorite pizza toppings?
mushrooms...garlic...pesto...i love pizza.
13. Whose number were you looking up the last time you used a phone book?
i havent seen a phone book in years. how r they still in business?
14. What is the last thing you cooked?
i baked temph so i could sautee it tonight. im turning into quite the little organic vegan chef!
15. Name something you wouldn’t want to buy already used?
lingire. although it was an option at the last estate sale i was at. yikes
16. What is the last thing you remember losing?
i currently cant find my linguistics book and im having difficulty doing homework for the class now!!! ARG
17. What is the ugliest piece of furniture in your house?
we have a horrible lamp we just cant seem to get rid of
18. Last thing you bought and ended up returning?
shoes...o jeez i need to return those...opps. i have sensitive feet. very fussy with my choice of flats.
19. What perfume/cologne do you wear?
Lovely by SJP
20. Your favorite board game?
CLUE! professor plum!
21. Last board game you played?
scrabble. i rule.
22. Where did your vehicle come from?
mom. keep truckin lil acura!
23. If a movie was made about your life, what would the theme song be?
landlocked blues -Bright Eyes
24. You're sad. Who can cheer you up easily?
bella and lola. they are like my meds or something, seriously!
25. What was the color of the bridesmaid dresses of the last wedding you went to?
pink! i was a bridesmaid, i was the prettiest (according to my friends and family who HAVE to say that), it was real lovely
26. What chore around the house do you hate the most?
fricken dishes. i hate doing other people dishes, i dont know why it makes me so fussy but it does
27. What is your favorite way to eat chicken?
with pesto and tortolinni pasta. its a special meal i rarely get to eat, on account of the zantac needed following the meal
28. It is your birthday. You hope the cake is:
vanilla with pink vanilla frosting. mmm
29. What is the status of you and the last person you texted?
micah ficah. one of the besties!
30. What is wrong with you right now?
i have allergies and im all sicky. and its friday so im REAL tired too. and its cold out so im cold.
31. What do you wear to bed?
underwear and old band shirts. i cant help how cool i am ok.
32. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
probably. i tend to over analyze people and situations...makes for complications.
33. Are you friends with all of your exes?
not really. we arent on bad terms but we just have very different lives now. plus, hes weird and im cool so...you know. (hehe)
34. Whose house did you go to last night?
micahs for LOST night. so fun!
35. What's the most interesting thing you've ever eaten?
boar in Italy. it tasted real good actually.
Finish the sentence
Hi, my name is ... esther
Never in my life have I ... had sex. what? im just being honost! and im sure u were ALL wondering, haha.
The one person who can drive me nuts sometimes is ... friends...not naming names
High school ... was a waste of time. i should have just gone to mira costa and been done with school by now, damn!
When I'm nervous ... i eat my nails
The last song I listened to was ... andrew bird, fiery crash.
If I were to get married right now my best man/maid of honor .. hmm...as of right now i think im going to let all my girls be the maids of honor, well see.
My hair is ... red instead of blonde now.under a hoodie cause im cold and its casual friday.
When I was 5 .. i was weird, i would sing and dance round the house and play dress up and barbies and be really fun. i wish i was 5 again.
Last Christmas ... i was supposed to go to New York:(
I should be ... nothing, im and work chillin
When I look down I see ... boobies, haha
The happiest recent event was ... going out to dinner with cass and annie, we laugh a lot. its real fun.
The saddest recent event was ... my mom came home last night with food poisoning! and my dogs keep throwing up! whats going on?!
If I were a character on 'Friends' I'd be ... a mix of pheobe with a lil monica thrown in
By this time next year ... ill be getting ready to GRADUATE!!!
My current gripe is ... i cant get my loan until june and i need to buy europe trip stuff! im nervous!
I have a hard time understanding ... why i feel like crap all the time
You know I like you when ... i look at u lots and smile. im a nice girl.
If I won an award, the first person I would tell would be ... parentals!
Take my advice ... listen to your friends, they really love u and want whats best for you.
The thing I want to buy ... europe trip 2008
If you visited the place I was born ... u could see disneyland from the window!
I plan to visit ... europe 08 with cass molass
If you spent the night at my house ... you wouldnt get any sleep because my dogs r ridiculous and my dad bangs around the house until like 2am
I'd stop my wedding if ... i found out he was cheating one me...or if
The world could do without ... ryan seacrest.
I'd rather lick the belly of a cockroach than ... join the marine/navy/airforce
Most recent thing I've bought myself ... a few new shirts and got them tailored:)
Most recent thing someone else bought me ... my boss got me flowers on vday! yay!
My middle name is ... Marie
In the morning I ... HATE my life
The animals I would like to see flying besides birds are ... piggies
Last night I was ... watchin LOST with ficah and kelsey in spirit and eating tofu from my purse, haha.
There's this guy I know who ... doesnt love me. i more guys loved me.
If I was an animal I'd be ... one of my dogs, their life is amazing
A better name for me would be ... Ruby or Penny or Lady
Tomorrow I am ... SLEEPING IN! then lunch with besties! then dinner with other besties! its gonna be a good day!
Tonight I am ...running errands, then cooking myself dinner, then sleeping off this sickness!
My birthday is ... october 6th. im in denile im turning 23 so id rather not discuss it.
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
american idol
today me and the rents went to check out my new place. they liked it.
i mean, how could they not, its pretty much the best place ever!
im tired. but im attached to american idol. i really like some of the guys. they're so sweet, and they have such nice voices. so cute.
i dont wanna go to school tomorrow. im not doing my homework because "i cant find my book". they're just lucky im showing up...except im paying to be there...hmm.
lovelove.
i mean, how could they not, its pretty much the best place ever!
im tired. but im attached to american idol. i really like some of the guys. they're so sweet, and they have such nice voices. so cute.
i dont wanna go to school tomorrow. im not doing my homework because "i cant find my book". they're just lucky im showing up...except im paying to be there...hmm.
lovelove.
Monday, February 18, 2008
going through my mind...
im so self centered...
why do i feel so down on life?
why does my brain keep talking and talking and talking to me?
why do i think so much?
why am i so f-ing tired all the time...
i hate school...
i miss my friends, i wish we hung out ALL the time...
why cant i feel Jesus anymore, talk to me...im talking to you...
i wanna be happier...
i wanna be thinner, i should eat healthier, i should exercise more...o wait i do do those things...what am i doing wrong?
i overanalyze things.
i think i dont give boys a chance. i dont really meet any legit single boys. all the good ones are married or live life from the pants. is this why im single or is it because i need to eat healthier? is it because im so introspective?
why am i being so introspective?
why are my moods so moody? like one day im happy and the next day im out on life and unmotivated by everything im involved in.
i feel like ive lost purpose in the things i do.
i feel A LOT of pressure to not be single...from a lot of people. like theres something wrong with me...its because i go to school with all girls and work with all old men and dont date boys from bars...there u go, problem solved...now leave me alone!
i need to clean my room. i need to start packing. i cant believe im moving out.
i need to be happier from the inside. i want to be joyful everyday. i cant live my life so up and down all the time. i just wanna be medium all the time.
im really funny, people think im fun. thats nice. i miss those people.
i like it when people wonder where i am and call me because they miss me. its a nice feeling.
i think im really lonely. i need more social interaction with my beloved friends.
im so irritable all the time, how would u like to live ur life being annoyed by every little thing all the time...its so frustrating. i wish i wasnt like that. i really do.
how do i stop overanalyzing myself so much. its exhausting.
this isnt even everything.
why do i feel so down on life?
why does my brain keep talking and talking and talking to me?
why do i think so much?
why am i so f-ing tired all the time...
i hate school...
i miss my friends, i wish we hung out ALL the time...
why cant i feel Jesus anymore, talk to me...im talking to you...
i wanna be happier...
i wanna be thinner, i should eat healthier, i should exercise more...o wait i do do those things...what am i doing wrong?
i overanalyze things.
i think i dont give boys a chance. i dont really meet any legit single boys. all the good ones are married or live life from the pants. is this why im single or is it because i need to eat healthier? is it because im so introspective?
why am i being so introspective?
why are my moods so moody? like one day im happy and the next day im out on life and unmotivated by everything im involved in.
i feel like ive lost purpose in the things i do.
i feel A LOT of pressure to not be single...from a lot of people. like theres something wrong with me...its because i go to school with all girls and work with all old men and dont date boys from bars...there u go, problem solved...now leave me alone!
i need to clean my room. i need to start packing. i cant believe im moving out.
i need to be happier from the inside. i want to be joyful everyday. i cant live my life so up and down all the time. i just wanna be medium all the time.
im really funny, people think im fun. thats nice. i miss those people.
i like it when people wonder where i am and call me because they miss me. its a nice feeling.
i think im really lonely. i need more social interaction with my beloved friends.
im so irritable all the time, how would u like to live ur life being annoyed by every little thing all the time...its so frustrating. i wish i wasnt like that. i really do.
how do i stop overanalyzing myself so much. its exhausting.
this isnt even everything.
Thursday, February 14, 2008
today
today im going to cook some organic vegan one pot pasta. it has vegetables, im using tofu noodles, baked tofu, and its all cooked in one put in under 30 minutes.
i need to buy a new mattress. id like to get a full size one so ill have more room in my new room. but its not a ton smaller then my current queen, so i might just stick with the queen...especially if it means i get to keep 100-200 dollars in my pocket.
today i worked and learned new things! i really wanted to know what it is i do, so i researched the different financial stuff my boss does (and what i do admin for) and then we did a bunch of packets of shifting money and all the admin that goes into doing this. it was a lot of work, but i liked learning new things. at one point me and boss were sitting doing paperwork and i was supposed to be filling out the name and address of a client on a form, and i definitely put my own name in the form before i caught myself. we didnt have very many of the blank forms so i had to go try and find a new one...it was really embarrassing and funny. i laughed.
and then my boss got me and annie flowers for valentimes day and another lady here got us each a bag of candy. me and annie got little kid valentimes and attached lolipops and gave them to the people here. ok ok, annie got them and i just signed my name. hehe.
tonight im taking my food to micahs so we can watch LOST together and be fun. tomorrow im going to work here again, and then afterwards i have an appointment with a natural doctor. im nervous because a lot of times they just try and sell u things and i dont have any money or patience for liars.
i think im going to go home now.
its really cold and rainy outside. the weather this morning said it would sunny today. they lied (again).
lovelove.
i need to buy a new mattress. id like to get a full size one so ill have more room in my new room. but its not a ton smaller then my current queen, so i might just stick with the queen...especially if it means i get to keep 100-200 dollars in my pocket.
today i worked and learned new things! i really wanted to know what it is i do, so i researched the different financial stuff my boss does (and what i do admin for) and then we did a bunch of packets of shifting money and all the admin that goes into doing this. it was a lot of work, but i liked learning new things. at one point me and boss were sitting doing paperwork and i was supposed to be filling out the name and address of a client on a form, and i definitely put my own name in the form before i caught myself. we didnt have very many of the blank forms so i had to go try and find a new one...it was really embarrassing and funny. i laughed.
and then my boss got me and annie flowers for valentimes day and another lady here got us each a bag of candy. me and annie got little kid valentimes and attached lolipops and gave them to the people here. ok ok, annie got them and i just signed my name. hehe.
tonight im taking my food to micahs so we can watch LOST together and be fun. tomorrow im going to work here again, and then afterwards i have an appointment with a natural doctor. im nervous because a lot of times they just try and sell u things and i dont have any money or patience for liars.
i think im going to go home now.
its really cold and rainy outside. the weather this morning said it would sunny today. they lied (again).
lovelove.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
HUGE news!
well its official.
im moving out.
March 1st.
im moving out.
to carlsbad, off of tamarack, two blocks to the beach.
im moving out.
bringing my doggies and their antics
im moving out.
sweet room mate whose busy but fun just like me
im moving out.
just until annie and jordan get it together and new roomie graduates in the spring
im moving out.
YAY!
in other news...
i miss my friends kelsey and olivia. i just wanna hang out with them all the time.
i wanna go to disneyland real bad!
my cousins coming the weekend after i move for 10 days. hes real fun, i think we will go to disneyland.
i just saw the most beautiful boy i have ever at my school, thank goodness they exist.
ive been keeping up on current events a lot lately. i turned nerd and listen to NPR now and i really like it! i even like the "marketplace" time because i learn about the stock market and in turn, my job. and i read the newspaper (free at school). except sometimes i get overwhelmed by all the sad things and have to turn things off. thats why i dont watch tv news...too intense.
all my classes i thought i would like i dont, and all the classes i thought i woudnt like i love.
im sucking at doing my school reading because i dont like taking my ADD pills cause they make me irritable. i need to go to the doctor. im falling behind in school and i dont understand what shes talking about.
i started cooking! (be proud, i sucked and only ate lean cuisine before) i made a DELICIOUS organic vegan spinach tofu lasagna from my "students go vegan" cook book. AND organic vegan ten minute brownies that are equally delicious. ive been eating the lasagna all week (saves money and its healthy!) and now i think im going to make some "temph nuggets" and some baked tofu to put into a "one pot pasta" dish. im AWESOME! i really enjoyed doing it and i found it relaxed me and made me feel good about myself.
ok, now i have to do homework and go to class...BLEH
lovelove.
how can u not LOVE her.
im moving out.
March 1st.
im moving out.
to carlsbad, off of tamarack, two blocks to the beach.
im moving out.
bringing my doggies and their antics
im moving out.
sweet room mate whose busy but fun just like me
im moving out.
just until annie and jordan get it together and new roomie graduates in the spring
im moving out.
YAY!
in other news...
i miss my friends kelsey and olivia. i just wanna hang out with them all the time.
i wanna go to disneyland real bad!
my cousins coming the weekend after i move for 10 days. hes real fun, i think we will go to disneyland.
i just saw the most beautiful boy i have ever at my school, thank goodness they exist.
ive been keeping up on current events a lot lately. i turned nerd and listen to NPR now and i really like it! i even like the "marketplace" time because i learn about the stock market and in turn, my job. and i read the newspaper (free at school). except sometimes i get overwhelmed by all the sad things and have to turn things off. thats why i dont watch tv news...too intense.
all my classes i thought i would like i dont, and all the classes i thought i woudnt like i love.
im sucking at doing my school reading because i dont like taking my ADD pills cause they make me irritable. i need to go to the doctor. im falling behind in school and i dont understand what shes talking about.
i started cooking! (be proud, i sucked and only ate lean cuisine before) i made a DELICIOUS organic vegan spinach tofu lasagna from my "students go vegan" cook book. AND organic vegan ten minute brownies that are equally delicious. ive been eating the lasagna all week (saves money and its healthy!) and now i think im going to make some "temph nuggets" and some baked tofu to put into a "one pot pasta" dish. im AWESOME! i really enjoyed doing it and i found it relaxed me and made me feel good about myself.
ok, now i have to do homework and go to class...BLEH
lovelove.
how can u not LOVE her.
Thursday, January 31, 2008
yay!
so ive been feeling really really extra grumpy lately about life and friends and school and everything.
but ive been praying about it and working on it because i want to be better.
and yesterday and today ive been happy and enjoying life! yayyyyy!
yesterday i actually LIKED school. weird right. i learned so much and i felt engaged the entire time which is unusual since usually im really tired and irritable and hate the world.
and today im working and im really tired and have quite a few things on my mind, but im still happy! yay!
Jesus loves me.
annnd tonight is a big night.
LOST
Annie
Pay Day
Sushi Day
yayyyyy...i just wish i had more energy and didnt have to work again tomorrow (yuck!) but then its the weekend and i can catch up on sleep again then.
this week at work has been nice...my boss is out of town (which always makes me and annie a little more relaxed but a little stressed at the same time because hes not here to ask questions too) and he didnt leave me a ton to do. usually im trying to fit days of work into a day and half of time and im always really really busy...but not this week. i took my time on things and got everything done and its just nice.
ok friends.
be happy!
off for my evening of FUN
lovelove.
but ive been praying about it and working on it because i want to be better.
and yesterday and today ive been happy and enjoying life! yayyyyy!
yesterday i actually LIKED school. weird right. i learned so much and i felt engaged the entire time which is unusual since usually im really tired and irritable and hate the world.
and today im working and im really tired and have quite a few things on my mind, but im still happy! yay!
Jesus loves me.
annnd tonight is a big night.
LOST
Annie
Pay Day
Sushi Day
yayyyyy...i just wish i had more energy and didnt have to work again tomorrow (yuck!) but then its the weekend and i can catch up on sleep again then.
this week at work has been nice...my boss is out of town (which always makes me and annie a little more relaxed but a little stressed at the same time because hes not here to ask questions too) and he didnt leave me a ton to do. usually im trying to fit days of work into a day and half of time and im always really really busy...but not this week. i took my time on things and got everything done and its just nice.
ok friends.
be happy!
off for my evening of FUN
lovelove.
Monday, January 28, 2008
well today is the first real week back to school. it totally sucks as expected. today in the middle of class as she was explaining our assignments for the semester, i turned to my friend and wrote her a note:
"im just really overwhelmed right now"
seriously.
so i never realized how difficult my school was and how well respected my program is. so im basically in the credential program already, i take credential classes and do observations already. i just do it at the same time as taking my BA classes. PLUS being a teacher in CA is a lot of work already, PLUS my school is in the top for the state, PLUS i suck at school. no wonder i complain all the time.
so things are looking up for me moving out in the spring. it seems so weird to be saying that and feel so good about it.
im planning on taking out a loan and moving in with annie, and hopefully jordan in late spring/early summer. itll be long term for me, ill be moved out until im done with school...and then beyond! im a little worried about annie and jordan falling through since they both have ever changing lives (typical of us youngsters) and their plans tend to change a lot. so i thnk im going to make sure i have enough in case i need to rent alone suddenly or whatever. just in case.
im also taking out some so me and cass can for sure go to europe this summer (and ill have my bills paid for while im gone to!) i have a lot saved up already (thanks to selling my dads books on amazon! yay!) but europe is just so expensive with our economy sucking so much. i doubt this will happen, but i pray our dollar goes up before then.
so far our list of places is (in some kind of order):
-paris
-amsterdam
-scandanavia (stockholm, maybe copenhagen and helsinki too)
-berlin
-budapest
-vienna
-switzerland (zurich and/or geneva)
-venice
-rome
-florence
-spain somewheres
if we do 3 days in each place + travel time, we should be gone about 6 weeks or less. im excited!!!
today i got really excited about cooking for myself. i bought this "healthy" box of gluten/wheat free pasta+sauce+ just add chicken type of things. i cooked everything myself and was really proud of myself. i even added garlic and some salt mix to give it some flavoring (it was really bland!) little did i know that this "quick and healthy meal in a box!" had enough sodium in it that half way through the meal my heart started to hurt. that cant be good. i wa starving so i ate a lot of it and my heart still hurts. its weird.
now i feel bsd because i feel like i wont ever find easy things i can make myself. i need advice people. give me some simple cheap recipes i can make one night and take leftovers to school/work the next day too. and i only eat chicken/turkey/tofu and no milk products and light on the white carbs.
do u see my predicaments!
have we ever discussed he genius of this show (see below;) i love it so much it makes my heart hurt less!
oh, and this is a photobooth shoot i did last night while i was really busy doing homework and watching crappy tv.
"im just really overwhelmed right now"
seriously.
so i never realized how difficult my school was and how well respected my program is. so im basically in the credential program already, i take credential classes and do observations already. i just do it at the same time as taking my BA classes. PLUS being a teacher in CA is a lot of work already, PLUS my school is in the top for the state, PLUS i suck at school. no wonder i complain all the time.
so things are looking up for me moving out in the spring. it seems so weird to be saying that and feel so good about it.
im planning on taking out a loan and moving in with annie, and hopefully jordan in late spring/early summer. itll be long term for me, ill be moved out until im done with school...and then beyond! im a little worried about annie and jordan falling through since they both have ever changing lives (typical of us youngsters) and their plans tend to change a lot. so i thnk im going to make sure i have enough in case i need to rent alone suddenly or whatever. just in case.
im also taking out some so me and cass can for sure go to europe this summer (and ill have my bills paid for while im gone to!) i have a lot saved up already (thanks to selling my dads books on amazon! yay!) but europe is just so expensive with our economy sucking so much. i doubt this will happen, but i pray our dollar goes up before then.
so far our list of places is (in some kind of order):
-paris
-amsterdam
-scandanavia (stockholm, maybe copenhagen and helsinki too)
-berlin
-budapest
-vienna
-switzerland (zurich and/or geneva)
-venice
-rome
-florence
-spain somewheres
if we do 3 days in each place + travel time, we should be gone about 6 weeks or less. im excited!!!
today i got really excited about cooking for myself. i bought this "healthy" box of gluten/wheat free pasta+sauce+ just add chicken type of things. i cooked everything myself and was really proud of myself. i even added garlic and some salt mix to give it some flavoring (it was really bland!) little did i know that this "quick and healthy meal in a box!" had enough sodium in it that half way through the meal my heart started to hurt. that cant be good. i wa starving so i ate a lot of it and my heart still hurts. its weird.
now i feel bsd because i feel like i wont ever find easy things i can make myself. i need advice people. give me some simple cheap recipes i can make one night and take leftovers to school/work the next day too. and i only eat chicken/turkey/tofu and no milk products and light on the white carbs.
do u see my predicaments!
have we ever discussed he genius of this show (see below;) i love it so much it makes my heart hurt less!
oh, and this is a photobooth shoot i did last night while i was really busy doing homework and watching crappy tv.
Saturday, January 26, 2008
for kelsey
The "I've come to realize" survey.
2. I've come to realize that, when I talk:
i babble about random crap
3. I've come to realize that, I love:
my dogs because i dont have any even potential men in my life
4. I've come to realize that my true friends:
call me out on my crap
5. I've come to realize that I've lost:
hope in people
6. I've come to realize that I hate:
coffee. today i brewed starbucks on my new coffee maker and its gross. so im officially switching to tea...for real now.
7. I've come to realize that marriage is:
suprisingly not what i want right now. u just have to be friends with ur husband and seclude urself and be all boring and adult. no thanks, i wanna hang out.
9. I've come to realize that I'll always be:
disappointed in people
11. I've come to realize that the last time I truly cried was:
when i left india and my heart hurt because i fell in love with all my friends there. they are just so fun!
12. I've come to realize that my cell phone:
will be upgraded to an iphone in october. (excited)
13. I've come to realize that when I wake up in the morning:
im really angry because im not a morning person...and because lola cant sleep past 7am...EVER
15. I've come to realize that before I go to sleep at night:
i pick out an outfit for the next day. it makes the morning process faster...
16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking about:
a lot of things...if moving out is going to actually happen, boys, friends, dogs, and its really hot in my room
17. I've come to realize that I get on MySpace:
annoyed because i hate all the Ads and virus'
18. I've come to realize that today:
was really relaxing and instead of feeling like i "wasted the day" i shouldnt, because i got to hang out with the girls, and rest before things get busy again next week.
19. I've come to realize that tonight I will:
have a hard time falling asleep...like everyother night
20. I've come to realize that school is:
a horrible waste of time designed to torture people and waste their money and time
21. I've come to realize that tomorrow:
is going to be a long day...with homework which i havent done in forever and keep forgetting i have to do it
1. What is your full first and middle name on your birth certificate?
Esther Marie
2. Who sleeps in the same house as you?
mom dad brother lola bella
3. Who was the last person you have seen?
cassie just left
4. you see your boy/girl friend kissing another person, what do you do?
probably have some sort of an anxiety attack
6. Last time you were attracted to someone?
today watching flight of the conchords:)
7. Right now do you prefer a Strawberry Milkshake or a Banana Cupcake?
neither thank u. but i did have ice cream from cosco with nuts and it was AMAZING! i havent had ice cream in ages (for reasons i am not experiencing)
8. Is your phone within a meter radius of you?
uhhh yeah...actually i shld find it, i think i left it on the floor
9. Look at your recent calls, who was your last call from?
annie
10. What are you wearing?
grey sweats, old band shirt with huge holes in the armpits
11. What color is the thing you are sitting on right now?
cream sheets
12. Are you doing this just because you're bored?
yes yes i am. and because im not tired yet
13. What is bothering you right now?
how i put to much hope in the people in my lives. and i get disappointed in them and its not fair to them or to me.
14. How did you bring in the New Year?
makin out with a really hot fashion designer in new york (lies)
15. Was last New Year's enjoyable?
heck yes
16. I'll betcha miss someone right now?
a lot of people actually.
17. What does your last text message say?
still havent found my phone
18. Can you text 60 words per minute?
probbly..i have a sidekick and i pretty much am awesome on it
19. Are you high?
ridiculous
20. McDonalds or KFC?
well considering the mcdonalds people know me becuz i always come and get ginormous diet cokes and chicken nuggets there...i would have to say
21. Krispy Kreme, Dunkin Donuts?
no thanks
22. Target, Wal-Mart or K-Mart?
target is the best. wal mart and k mart are for ghetto people. but not in other parts of the country, which is so funny to me.
23. What color is your shirt?
black with white detail
24. Is that color your favorite?
light wood
25. Is there a high chance of you going out to the movies soon?
maybe, theres nothing i really wanna see. this year sucked for movies, except juno and the darjeeling limited and pans labyrinth
26. Do you have cancer or diabetes?
not yet
27. How smart do you think you are?
i think im a little to smart and it gets me down
28. Can you surf?
i think surfing is kinda lame to be honost
29. Are you easily scared by horror/thriller films?
not really, unless its really good. im a bit of a movie snob i have to say
30. If you were given $100, would you spend it, or save it?
save it for europe! yay!
31. If there were a large spider in your room, would you stay?
no, id just kill it right away. im really good at it
34. Would/could you ever become a vegetarian or even vegan?
ive done both and its not very sweet. u dont lose weight and u dont feel any better...however my allergies have gotten a lot better now that ive cut out a lot of foods, so thats lovely
35. Where are you right now?
bed
36. Do you like anybody?
not really. its sad.
37. What is your desktop picture?
jason shwartzman.
38. Can you draw?
yeah. i need to work more at it though, i wanna be really good
39. Do you like shopping?
LOVE it. its weird actually, but it totally puts me in a good mood when im stressed or tired and the shopping place isnt busy...oh gosh im in heaven then
43. Would you rather go to Tokyo or Paris?
since ive already been to paris and i really wanna go to japan, tokyo please.
44. How about Melbourne or Rome?
i didnt like rome, melbourne please
45. Do you have a guitar in your house?
yeah, but despite my attempts to build up callouses, i just cant play it. (my fingers hurt, yeah well now ur backs gonna hurt becuz u just pulled landscaping duty)
46. Are you listening to music right now?
no, the tv was on earlier and my brain gets sick of noise by about 7pm
47. Who else is in the room with you?
doggies
48. In winter, would you rather wear jackets or hoodies?
hoodies are soft and cuddly and u can store things in the pocket and hid in the hood. jackets are uncomfortable, awkward, and useless once indoors.
49. Can you make balloon animals?
yes actually, a clown taught me when i was young (serious)
50. How often do you get onto myspace?
once per day at night or at work.
51. How long can you go without your mobile phone?
ive gone without it for months before (traveling) but i really really didnt like it. i never knew what time it was and i felt so helpless if something bad happened.
52. Do you have any enemies?
kinda...i few people in the world dont like me. but i dont hate them back, it just makes me sad.
55. What does your tenth inbox text say?
still havent found it...but i think i recently cleaned them all out anyway
56. How much cash is in your wallet?
i dont really carry around cash...its a horrible habit
57. Ever kissed a blonde haired, blue eyed person?
yes, a few
58. Who was your Last compliment From?
the fashion victim at work complimented my purse and im trying to figure out how i feel about it.
59. When was the last time you were truly happy?
when i found a bunch of sweet deals last weekend shopping. i am the worlds best shopper.
60. Do you think long distance relationships are ever really worth it?
yeah i think its really good for some people, and ive seen it work quite a few times
61. What are you thinking about right now?
im getting sleepy and how this survey should be called "sleep aide survey--guarenteed to fall asleep by the end of the survey or ur money back!"
62. When is the last time you made someone else cry?
i cant think of anything. i try not to be mean to people.
63. Who last called you pretty?
dunno
64. What last made you sad?
peoples lives
66. What made you laugh a lot last?
me and the girls making fun of each other all day. its the BEST!
67. Do you know anyone called Lucy?
cute girl at work. weird girl at school.
69. Where did you last sleep other than your house?
my hot new years fashion designers bed (lies)
70. What are you doing tomorrow?
kids church, deposit money in the bank, buy new ipod at best buy, homework (bleh), nap?, my church, more homework
watchin 90s teen movies
2. I've come to realize that, when I talk:
i babble about random crap
3. I've come to realize that, I love:
my dogs because i dont have any even potential men in my life
4. I've come to realize that my true friends:
call me out on my crap
5. I've come to realize that I've lost:
hope in people
6. I've come to realize that I hate:
coffee. today i brewed starbucks on my new coffee maker and its gross. so im officially switching to tea...for real now.
7. I've come to realize that marriage is:
suprisingly not what i want right now. u just have to be friends with ur husband and seclude urself and be all boring and adult. no thanks, i wanna hang out.
9. I've come to realize that I'll always be:
disappointed in people
11. I've come to realize that the last time I truly cried was:
when i left india and my heart hurt because i fell in love with all my friends there. they are just so fun!
12. I've come to realize that my cell phone:
will be upgraded to an iphone in october. (excited)
13. I've come to realize that when I wake up in the morning:
im really angry because im not a morning person...and because lola cant sleep past 7am...EVER
15. I've come to realize that before I go to sleep at night:
i pick out an outfit for the next day. it makes the morning process faster...
16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking about:
a lot of things...if moving out is going to actually happen, boys, friends, dogs, and its really hot in my room
17. I've come to realize that I get on MySpace:
annoyed because i hate all the Ads and virus'
18. I've come to realize that today:
was really relaxing and instead of feeling like i "wasted the day" i shouldnt, because i got to hang out with the girls, and rest before things get busy again next week.
19. I've come to realize that tonight I will:
have a hard time falling asleep...like everyother night
20. I've come to realize that school is:
a horrible waste of time designed to torture people and waste their money and time
21. I've come to realize that tomorrow:
is going to be a long day...with homework which i havent done in forever and keep forgetting i have to do it
1. What is your full first and middle name on your birth certificate?
Esther Marie
2. Who sleeps in the same house as you?
mom dad brother lola bella
3. Who was the last person you have seen?
cassie just left
4. you see your boy/girl friend kissing another person, what do you do?
probably have some sort of an anxiety attack
6. Last time you were attracted to someone?
today watching flight of the conchords:)
7. Right now do you prefer a Strawberry Milkshake or a Banana Cupcake?
neither thank u. but i did have ice cream from cosco with nuts and it was AMAZING! i havent had ice cream in ages (for reasons i am not experiencing)
8. Is your phone within a meter radius of you?
uhhh yeah...actually i shld find it, i think i left it on the floor
9. Look at your recent calls, who was your last call from?
annie
10. What are you wearing?
grey sweats, old band shirt with huge holes in the armpits
11. What color is the thing you are sitting on right now?
cream sheets
12. Are you doing this just because you're bored?
yes yes i am. and because im not tired yet
13. What is bothering you right now?
how i put to much hope in the people in my lives. and i get disappointed in them and its not fair to them or to me.
14. How did you bring in the New Year?
makin out with a really hot fashion designer in new york (lies)
15. Was last New Year's enjoyable?
heck yes
16. I'll betcha miss someone right now?
a lot of people actually.
17. What does your last text message say?
still havent found my phone
18. Can you text 60 words per minute?
probbly..i have a sidekick and i pretty much am awesome on it
19. Are you high?
ridiculous
20. McDonalds or KFC?
well considering the mcdonalds people know me becuz i always come and get ginormous diet cokes and chicken nuggets there...i would have to say
21. Krispy Kreme, Dunkin Donuts?
no thanks
22. Target, Wal-Mart or K-Mart?
target is the best. wal mart and k mart are for ghetto people. but not in other parts of the country, which is so funny to me.
23. What color is your shirt?
black with white detail
24. Is that color your favorite?
light wood
25. Is there a high chance of you going out to the movies soon?
maybe, theres nothing i really wanna see. this year sucked for movies, except juno and the darjeeling limited and pans labyrinth
26. Do you have cancer or diabetes?
not yet
27. How smart do you think you are?
i think im a little to smart and it gets me down
28. Can you surf?
i think surfing is kinda lame to be honost
29. Are you easily scared by horror/thriller films?
not really, unless its really good. im a bit of a movie snob i have to say
30. If you were given $100, would you spend it, or save it?
save it for europe! yay!
31. If there were a large spider in your room, would you stay?
no, id just kill it right away. im really good at it
34. Would/could you ever become a vegetarian or even vegan?
ive done both and its not very sweet. u dont lose weight and u dont feel any better...however my allergies have gotten a lot better now that ive cut out a lot of foods, so thats lovely
35. Where are you right now?
bed
36. Do you like anybody?
not really. its sad.
37. What is your desktop picture?
jason shwartzman.
38. Can you draw?
yeah. i need to work more at it though, i wanna be really good
39. Do you like shopping?
LOVE it. its weird actually, but it totally puts me in a good mood when im stressed or tired and the shopping place isnt busy...oh gosh im in heaven then
43. Would you rather go to Tokyo or Paris?
since ive already been to paris and i really wanna go to japan, tokyo please.
44. How about Melbourne or Rome?
i didnt like rome, melbourne please
45. Do you have a guitar in your house?
yeah, but despite my attempts to build up callouses, i just cant play it. (my fingers hurt, yeah well now ur backs gonna hurt becuz u just pulled landscaping duty)
46. Are you listening to music right now?
no, the tv was on earlier and my brain gets sick of noise by about 7pm
47. Who else is in the room with you?
doggies
48. In winter, would you rather wear jackets or hoodies?
hoodies are soft and cuddly and u can store things in the pocket and hid in the hood. jackets are uncomfortable, awkward, and useless once indoors.
49. Can you make balloon animals?
yes actually, a clown taught me when i was young (serious)
50. How often do you get onto myspace?
once per day at night or at work.
51. How long can you go without your mobile phone?
ive gone without it for months before (traveling) but i really really didnt like it. i never knew what time it was and i felt so helpless if something bad happened.
52. Do you have any enemies?
kinda...i few people in the world dont like me. but i dont hate them back, it just makes me sad.
55. What does your tenth inbox text say?
still havent found it...but i think i recently cleaned them all out anyway
56. How much cash is in your wallet?
i dont really carry around cash...its a horrible habit
57. Ever kissed a blonde haired, blue eyed person?
yes, a few
58. Who was your Last compliment From?
the fashion victim at work complimented my purse and im trying to figure out how i feel about it.
59. When was the last time you were truly happy?
when i found a bunch of sweet deals last weekend shopping. i am the worlds best shopper.
60. Do you think long distance relationships are ever really worth it?
yeah i think its really good for some people, and ive seen it work quite a few times
61. What are you thinking about right now?
im getting sleepy and how this survey should be called "sleep aide survey--guarenteed to fall asleep by the end of the survey or ur money back!"
62. When is the last time you made someone else cry?
i cant think of anything. i try not to be mean to people.
63. Who last called you pretty?
dunno
64. What last made you sad?
peoples lives
66. What made you laugh a lot last?
me and the girls making fun of each other all day. its the BEST!
67. Do you know anyone called Lucy?
cute girl at work. weird girl at school.
69. Where did you last sleep other than your house?
my hot new years fashion designers bed (lies)
70. What are you doing tomorrow?
kids church, deposit money in the bank, buy new ipod at best buy, homework (bleh), nap?, my church, more homework
watchin 90s teen movies
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
your gonna need to see this
http://www.bullockproductions.com/JacobsSlideshow/
this would be my amazing new cousin Luke (aka best friend) with photography by my amazing friend Lauren.
it will change ur life aka make u wanna have babies and/or come play with lukey.
enjoy.
lovelove.
this would be my amazing new cousin Luke (aka best friend) with photography by my amazing friend Lauren.
it will change ur life aka make u wanna have babies and/or come play with lukey.
enjoy.
lovelove.
Friday, January 04, 2008
current location: oregon coffee shop
hello friends.
well i made it here. oregon with the bestie! yayyy...
my flight was nice and uneventful. i wasnt lonely at all and enjoyed people watching in the airport and on the flights. people are weird. i find i get stared at a lot, im pretty sure its cause im so beautiful...hahaha...
so bestie and husband picked me up from the airport and we drove the lonnnnnggggg way home (almost 2 hours). which was fine because we got to catch up and that was so so nice. i really like olivias husband micheal, hes so sweet with her and a genuinely nice and caring person. we have some stuff in common too which is nice.
olivia showed me EVERYTHING in her apartment, its so cute. they have it decorated really lovely and modern and colorful and cute. and they have my artwork up in the bathroom! i feel so honored! we stayed up nice and late watching snipes of blades of glory, laughing, and catching up even more. so nice.
today we all slept in until like 1130am. then Micheal got ready and went to work and we took forever laying around the house, getting ready, eating, talking about their fish babies, drinking diet coke...u know, the usual.
then we exchanged gifts and i got a build a bear!!! and her names poop and shes wearing a polka dotted dress! olivia is so good to me.
we finally left the house and ran some errands with olivias friend anna and visited husband at work...ect. now were at some coffee shop famous in oregon, called Dutch Bros. and olivias filling out job applications, and annas chillin.
corvallis is really cute. its this little university town that reminds me a lot of madison wisconsin, except in madison its freezing snow and here its really cold rain all the time. its kinda depressing with all the dark clouds and cold rain 24/7...its soooo colllddddd.
ok, now some coffee shop pictures for ur viewing pleasure:
me being happy and silly, cause look whos sitting next to me...
bestie!!!
yay! together again! as it should be!
well i made it here. oregon with the bestie! yayyy...
my flight was nice and uneventful. i wasnt lonely at all and enjoyed people watching in the airport and on the flights. people are weird. i find i get stared at a lot, im pretty sure its cause im so beautiful...hahaha...
so bestie and husband picked me up from the airport and we drove the lonnnnnggggg way home (almost 2 hours). which was fine because we got to catch up and that was so so nice. i really like olivias husband micheal, hes so sweet with her and a genuinely nice and caring person. we have some stuff in common too which is nice.
olivia showed me EVERYTHING in her apartment, its so cute. they have it decorated really lovely and modern and colorful and cute. and they have my artwork up in the bathroom! i feel so honored! we stayed up nice and late watching snipes of blades of glory, laughing, and catching up even more. so nice.
today we all slept in until like 1130am. then Micheal got ready and went to work and we took forever laying around the house, getting ready, eating, talking about their fish babies, drinking diet coke...u know, the usual.
then we exchanged gifts and i got a build a bear!!! and her names poop and shes wearing a polka dotted dress! olivia is so good to me.
we finally left the house and ran some errands with olivias friend anna and visited husband at work...ect. now were at some coffee shop famous in oregon, called Dutch Bros. and olivias filling out job applications, and annas chillin.
corvallis is really cute. its this little university town that reminds me a lot of madison wisconsin, except in madison its freezing snow and here its really cold rain all the time. its kinda depressing with all the dark clouds and cold rain 24/7...its soooo colllddddd.
ok, now some coffee shop pictures for ur viewing pleasure:
me being happy and silly, cause look whos sitting next to me...
bestie!!!
yay! together again! as it should be!
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
horrid news
today my parents broke the news that we arent going to new york.
im so so so soooooo sadddd
i have been looking forward to this trip for MONTHS and never thought we werent going to go. im so so bummed. i had it all planned out what i wanted to do and what i was going to pack and everything!
now yet again new york has escaped me.
maybe we'll go for spring break when its a lil warmer there.
in other more happier news, last night was new years eve, hello 2008!
me and cass went up to kels to go to a party her roommate kerry and friends were having. it wasnt super fun for like the first 2 hours, but then lots of people came and id had a few drinks so it was lots more fun then. we danced the night away to such sounds as fisherspooner, air, regina spektor, oasis, the sounds, deathcab, ect. you know, a legit dance party NOT to shit music. yayyyy!!! and a cute boy danced with me and enjoyed my company for awhile, which was a nice change a pace. its been awhile since ive given myself the opportunity to meet fun boys. im just to busy with all my crappy school and junk. i dunno if anything is going to happen, but it was nice to feel attractive and fun for a few hours. annnd cass and kels and some other fun people there were really lovely to be with to! we danced it up real good and laughed and had a lot of fun. needless to say, 2008 started out great! (im ridiculous with all my slogans.)
in other news, im pretty sure me and cass r going to backpack europe for quite a few weeks this summer. its giving me something to look forward to as im getting REALLY sick of socal, especially now that new york is out of the question. i have a deal with my dad that im selling thousands of his old book (literally, thousands.) and hes paying for the shipping on amazon. and i get to keep all the profits! so between that and the extra day of work at the office and my apple or art job i should be able to afford the couple thousand dollars for the trip. i love europe, i miss culture and traveling so much. ive been stationary for far to long. heres the tentative list of where we are going. its kinda in order, but subject to change based on flight prices, train prices, where cassie wants to add to the list, ect.
paris 4 days
amsterdam 3
berlin 3
copenhagen 2
stokcholm 2
maybe a day trip to helsinki 1
budapest 3
vienna 3
zurich and/or geneva 3+
venice 2+
rome 3
florence 3+
id like to try and fit in ireland and england, but its difficult. someday id like to go to ireland, but i dunno if its this trip. i love planning trips, its real fun.i already have planned what we'll do in the places ive already been to, paris, rome, and florence..and the other cities ive already researched ideas. im such a freak. but if i dont have anything to look forward to, i go crazy.
i leave thursday to go see olivia! im so excited!
i have so much to do tomorrow its not even funny. traveling is fun, but it is rather stressful.
happy 2008
lovelove.
im so so so soooooo sadddd
i have been looking forward to this trip for MONTHS and never thought we werent going to go. im so so bummed. i had it all planned out what i wanted to do and what i was going to pack and everything!
now yet again new york has escaped me.
maybe we'll go for spring break when its a lil warmer there.
in other more happier news, last night was new years eve, hello 2008!
me and cass went up to kels to go to a party her roommate kerry and friends were having. it wasnt super fun for like the first 2 hours, but then lots of people came and id had a few drinks so it was lots more fun then. we danced the night away to such sounds as fisherspooner, air, regina spektor, oasis, the sounds, deathcab, ect. you know, a legit dance party NOT to shit music. yayyyy!!! and a cute boy danced with me and enjoyed my company for awhile, which was a nice change a pace. its been awhile since ive given myself the opportunity to meet fun boys. im just to busy with all my crappy school and junk. i dunno if anything is going to happen, but it was nice to feel attractive and fun for a few hours. annnd cass and kels and some other fun people there were really lovely to be with to! we danced it up real good and laughed and had a lot of fun. needless to say, 2008 started out great! (im ridiculous with all my slogans.)
in other news, im pretty sure me and cass r going to backpack europe for quite a few weeks this summer. its giving me something to look forward to as im getting REALLY sick of socal, especially now that new york is out of the question. i have a deal with my dad that im selling thousands of his old book (literally, thousands.) and hes paying for the shipping on amazon. and i get to keep all the profits! so between that and the extra day of work at the office and my apple or art job i should be able to afford the couple thousand dollars for the trip. i love europe, i miss culture and traveling so much. ive been stationary for far to long. heres the tentative list of where we are going. its kinda in order, but subject to change based on flight prices, train prices, where cassie wants to add to the list, ect.
paris 4 days
amsterdam 3
berlin 3
copenhagen 2
stokcholm 2
maybe a day trip to helsinki 1
budapest 3
vienna 3
zurich and/or geneva 3+
venice 2+
rome 3
florence 3+
id like to try and fit in ireland and england, but its difficult. someday id like to go to ireland, but i dunno if its this trip. i love planning trips, its real fun.i already have planned what we'll do in the places ive already been to, paris, rome, and florence..and the other cities ive already researched ideas. im such a freak. but if i dont have anything to look forward to, i go crazy.
i leave thursday to go see olivia! im so excited!
i have so much to do tomorrow its not even funny. traveling is fun, but it is rather stressful.
happy 2008
lovelove.
Sunday, December 23, 2007
update on things
well i think i got the art teacher job, but because they took so long to get back to me and they dont start until February...i might have to decline the offer when it comes...we'll see how my school schedule ends up so maybe i can do it at least once a week.
i did however have an interview for my old Apple job. i really want it back, but if i accept then i cant be gone for more then 3 weeks at a time and then i really cant go to europe with cassie this summer. but if i dont take it based on that, then i really wouldnt have money to go anyway!
friggen catch 22
over the weekend i gt to hang out with some of my favorite girls. everyone was home!
we met at my house and all layed in bed awhile and made fun of cassie for her usual ridiculousness. then we went and got sushiiiiii! and then we went to starbucks/cofee bean for some holiday drinks and drove around to look at christmas lights and sing carols and laugh until we couldnt speak and me and annie were peeing our pants in kelseys car. it was SO fun. then i beat them at scrabble.
today me and my fam went to see the dead sea scrolls. it was pretty sweet. but it was too crowded and loud and their was a PSYCHOTIC lady with a crying baby who just kept going thru the exhibit like she didnt have a screaming child in her arms who was probably wet or hungry.
my favorite part was the old bibles with big beautiful paintings in them. i love how art and the bible totally go perfectly together. its loverly.
then we got some los primos and visited uncle dan and josi and lukey. but they were having a photo session! so we peaced and came home to wrap presents and drink and watch funny movies. my family is fun sometimes.
tomorrow is christmas eve! i cant believe its already here! im excited!
but im more excited to go visit olivia next week and to go to new york after that. christmas has been hard on me financially and im sick of everyone being off work and it being crowded everywhere all the time...hello, some of us have things to do.
tomorrow i work a half day cause we dont get it paid holiday:( i had it off, but i wanted money so im working 8am-1pm. its going to be very slow and probably no one there, so ill get some reading and scrabulous done:)
i got eye infections in my eyes. they are better now though pretty much.
merry christmas friends.
thanks Jesus.
lovelove.
i did however have an interview for my old Apple job. i really want it back, but if i accept then i cant be gone for more then 3 weeks at a time and then i really cant go to europe with cassie this summer. but if i dont take it based on that, then i really wouldnt have money to go anyway!
friggen catch 22
over the weekend i gt to hang out with some of my favorite girls. everyone was home!
we met at my house and all layed in bed awhile and made fun of cassie for her usual ridiculousness. then we went and got sushiiiiii! and then we went to starbucks/cofee bean for some holiday drinks and drove around to look at christmas lights and sing carols and laugh until we couldnt speak and me and annie were peeing our pants in kelseys car. it was SO fun. then i beat them at scrabble.
today me and my fam went to see the dead sea scrolls. it was pretty sweet. but it was too crowded and loud and their was a PSYCHOTIC lady with a crying baby who just kept going thru the exhibit like she didnt have a screaming child in her arms who was probably wet or hungry.
my favorite part was the old bibles with big beautiful paintings in them. i love how art and the bible totally go perfectly together. its loverly.
then we got some los primos and visited uncle dan and josi and lukey. but they were having a photo session! so we peaced and came home to wrap presents and drink and watch funny movies. my family is fun sometimes.
tomorrow is christmas eve! i cant believe its already here! im excited!
but im more excited to go visit olivia next week and to go to new york after that. christmas has been hard on me financially and im sick of everyone being off work and it being crowded everywhere all the time...hello, some of us have things to do.
tomorrow i work a half day cause we dont get it paid holiday:( i had it off, but i wanted money so im working 8am-1pm. its going to be very slow and probably no one there, so ill get some reading and scrabulous done:)
i got eye infections in my eyes. they are better now though pretty much.
merry christmas friends.
thanks Jesus.
lovelove.
Friday, December 14, 2007
its all happening
well i just officially booked my trip to visit my bestie in oregon! im so so sooooo excited! i miss her way to much, and i really wanna see her lil apartment and life up there. we're going to have so much fun! im going january 3-8th, yayyyyyy!!!
and then im home for two days (i work both days!) and then its off to new york for a week. thats january 11-17. yayyyy!!!
on sunday me and kelsey are going to disneyland to celebrate christmas with mickey and his friends!
on monday im going christmas shopping, i dont have a bajillion people to buy for, but majority of them i have NO idea what to get them:
mom
dad
brother
uncle
best friend
the ideas i do have, im to poor. sucks.
im planning a christmas party for my girls, its an ornament exchange. i think we're going to drink christmasy beverages, drive around and look at lights and sing songs, then come back to my house and spike the beverages and open presents and have treats, then snuggle in for one of the best christmas movies of all time, Elf. yayyyy!!!
this week and last weekend has been so crazy fun! my family came into town and we had so much fun! i feel bad for neglecting my friends, but we were doing stuff all the time and it was just to much fun. i havent seen them in years, so its been nice to spend time together laughing and playing games and drinking and doing stupid stuff together.
heres a picture of me and my best friend Luke. i think this was thanksgiving cause im wearing my official thanksgiving sweater and glasses cause my contacts were broken.
now that schools over, im so perky!
and then im home for two days (i work both days!) and then its off to new york for a week. thats january 11-17. yayyyy!!!
on sunday me and kelsey are going to disneyland to celebrate christmas with mickey and his friends!
on monday im going christmas shopping, i dont have a bajillion people to buy for, but majority of them i have NO idea what to get them:
mom
dad
brother
uncle
best friend
the ideas i do have, im to poor. sucks.
im planning a christmas party for my girls, its an ornament exchange. i think we're going to drink christmasy beverages, drive around and look at lights and sing songs, then come back to my house and spike the beverages and open presents and have treats, then snuggle in for one of the best christmas movies of all time, Elf. yayyyy!!!
this week and last weekend has been so crazy fun! my family came into town and we had so much fun! i feel bad for neglecting my friends, but we were doing stuff all the time and it was just to much fun. i havent seen them in years, so its been nice to spend time together laughing and playing games and drinking and doing stupid stuff together.
heres a picture of me and my best friend Luke. i think this was thanksgiving cause im wearing my official thanksgiving sweater and glasses cause my contacts were broken.
now that schools over, im so perky!
Saturday, December 08, 2007
interview + Christmas!
today i went to the ghetto in san diego to interview for an art instructor position teaching kids in the poorer areas of SD art projects and installing them around the city! im so so so soooo excited!!!
then i took a long and lucious nap.
then me and mom and leah went to uncle dan and titi josis and lukes to visit and wait for my uncle and aunt coming in from michigan for a few days. yay for family! and yay for a lovely friday!
and now a christmas survey:
Welcome to the Christmas edition of getting to know your friends.
1. Wrapping Paper or Gift Bags? clearly it depends on the shape of the present.
2. Real tree or Artificial? we've had artificial since we moved to cali 13 years ago. its big and beautiful and looks real and i love it!
3. When do you put up the tree? we make an appointment with the family and me and mom prep cookies and nog and the boys get the christmas stuff out of storage and we spend a few hours together doing it. probably next weekend.
4. When do you take the tree down? one year we left it up almost until february...we try and take it down a lil after new years
5. Do you like eggnog? LOVE IT! this year im gettin soy nog tho.
6. Favorite gifts received as a child? doll house with everything to go inside. still have it and my children will be forced to play with it.
7. Do you have a nativity scene? of course! its my favorite thing to set up...second to the entire victorian light up village we have too...
8. Hardest person to buy for? my brother and dad. they have everything!
9. Easiest person to buy for? my mom. i get her PJ's every year and she loves it
10. Worst Christmas gift you ever received? i dunno, everything i liked at the time
11. Mail or e-mail Christmas Cards? who does e cards for christmas? thats just weird and lazy
12. Favorite Christmas Movie? muppet christmas carol. Elf. and love actually. i watch all of them year round, thats how good they are!
13. When do you start shopping for Christmas? when i have money. this year, it will be after the 15th of december;)
14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas Present? no, im kind of a "keep it in case i need it someday" kind of girls. its becoming a problem actually.
15. Favorite thing to eat on Christmas? cookies are my worst enemy and we are currently in a fight because mom made a bunch today.
16. Travel at Christmas or Stay Home? we've never traveled on christmas for as long as i can remember. to many people...most of whom get on ur nerves after like 5 hours.
17. Favorite Christmas Song? "the winter song" -eisley
18. Clear or Colored lights on the Tree? i like clear lights, but my family puts all lights on the tree. clear, colored, blue, whatever else we can find
19. Can you name all of Santa's reindeers? Dancer, Prancer, Donner and Vixen, Comet, Cupid, Blitzen and Rudolph
20. Angel or Star at the top of your tree? an angel with real feather wings and a light up candle and she moves!
21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or Morning? we can open one on christmas eve and thats all, and then christmas morning/afternoon (we like to sleep late) we open the rest! yayy
22. Most annoying thing about this time of year? the endless crowds and traffic and crazy prices and advertising...its gets exhausting!
23. What I love most about Christmas? the parties with friends and family. and drinking and eating like its a 24/hr party but u dont get looked down upon for it. and all the christmas movies on tv.
Merry Christmas!
then i took a long and lucious nap.
then me and mom and leah went to uncle dan and titi josis and lukes to visit and wait for my uncle and aunt coming in from michigan for a few days. yay for family! and yay for a lovely friday!
and now a christmas survey:
Welcome to the Christmas edition of getting to know your friends.
1. Wrapping Paper or Gift Bags? clearly it depends on the shape of the present.
2. Real tree or Artificial? we've had artificial since we moved to cali 13 years ago. its big and beautiful and looks real and i love it!
3. When do you put up the tree? we make an appointment with the family and me and mom prep cookies and nog and the boys get the christmas stuff out of storage and we spend a few hours together doing it. probably next weekend.
4. When do you take the tree down? one year we left it up almost until february...we try and take it down a lil after new years
5. Do you like eggnog? LOVE IT! this year im gettin soy nog tho.
6. Favorite gifts received as a child? doll house with everything to go inside. still have it and my children will be forced to play with it.
7. Do you have a nativity scene? of course! its my favorite thing to set up...second to the entire victorian light up village we have too...
8. Hardest person to buy for? my brother and dad. they have everything!
9. Easiest person to buy for? my mom. i get her PJ's every year and she loves it
10. Worst Christmas gift you ever received? i dunno, everything i liked at the time
11. Mail or e-mail Christmas Cards? who does e cards for christmas? thats just weird and lazy
12. Favorite Christmas Movie? muppet christmas carol. Elf. and love actually. i watch all of them year round, thats how good they are!
13. When do you start shopping for Christmas? when i have money. this year, it will be after the 15th of december;)
14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas Present? no, im kind of a "keep it in case i need it someday" kind of girls. its becoming a problem actually.
15. Favorite thing to eat on Christmas? cookies are my worst enemy and we are currently in a fight because mom made a bunch today.
16. Travel at Christmas or Stay Home? we've never traveled on christmas for as long as i can remember. to many people...most of whom get on ur nerves after like 5 hours.
17. Favorite Christmas Song? "the winter song" -eisley
18. Clear or Colored lights on the Tree? i like clear lights, but my family puts all lights on the tree. clear, colored, blue, whatever else we can find
19. Can you name all of Santa's reindeers? Dancer, Prancer, Donner and Vixen, Comet, Cupid, Blitzen and Rudolph
20. Angel or Star at the top of your tree? an angel with real feather wings and a light up candle and she moves!
21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or Morning? we can open one on christmas eve and thats all, and then christmas morning/afternoon (we like to sleep late) we open the rest! yayy
22. Most annoying thing about this time of year? the endless crowds and traffic and crazy prices and advertising...its gets exhausting!
23. What I love most about Christmas? the parties with friends and family. and drinking and eating like its a 24/hr party but u dont get looked down upon for it. and all the christmas movies on tv.
Merry Christmas!
Thursday, December 06, 2007
good things
im done with all my classes for the semester! just two reasonable finals on monday and im DONE! im sooo ready for christmas holiday. im ready to go out and have friends and a life again. and im ready for christmas! and more time to work! and more money to buy presents! yayyyyy!!!
i think im gonna go visit my bestie olivia in the beginning on january. im excited!
im going to NYC with my family right before school starts again! im soooo excited!!!
ok thats all my good news. yay!
lovelove.
i think im gonna go visit my bestie olivia in the beginning on january. im excited!
im going to NYC with my family right before school starts again! im soooo excited!!!
ok thats all my good news. yay!
lovelove.
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