Friday, December 18, 2009


Oh dear readers, I wish I could update you with every detail of me and Number 2's winter romance, however I just can't. Things are still complicated, but we're figuring it out. Either we will be together, or we won't. Ill let you know when I do. The more serious things have gotten between us, the less I want to share. But however things turn out between us, I will be sure to keep you in the loop!

So, instead. I want to prove you with a funny quote from the David Sedaris book I finally found time to read (reason #1007 why I love winter break), When You are Engulfed in Flames. here it is, he is referring to cigarettes and smoking, teehee:

"I may have been a Boy Scout for only two years, but the motto stuck with me forever: Be Prepared. This does not mean "Be Prepared to Ask People for Shit," but "Think Ahead and Plan Accordingly, Especially in Regard to your Vices."

ahaha totally laughed out loud. The book isnt a page turner or anything, but its pretty funny and has me laughing out loud.

Christmas is coming!
Im going to Spain on the 27th for 2 weeks!
Im done with my BA!

Now to get the boy drama under control and all will be well.


Friday, December 04, 2009

You Tell Me.

Sorry to keep you in suspense dear readers. I’m sure you’ve been checking here everyday, what happened with Number 2???!!! Your nails are probably all bitten down to nubs (oh wait, that’s me), and you’ve been popping Xanax just so you can get through the day without me. Haha.

Well. Of course, things are so complicated it hurts. Here’s the thing:

We may have accidentally fallen in love with each other. And this may be a problem.

And neither of us know what to do. There is no right or easy answer. In the beginning his moving away was just his hope or dream, and now that he is in Chicago right now interviewing with his dream school, Notre Dame, that little hope has become a reality. He wont know if he got accepted or not until around the 19th, but its looking good. And if its not there, then he’ll probably get in and attend somewhere else far away. And I’d like to move somewhere else for awhile to. Maybe teach English in Europe, or still pursue teaching in New York…I don’t know. But what do you do when you found someone so great and so fun…but its inevitably either going to die or you have to move together or something drastic like that. So what do you do?

We have some ideas, and I hate all of them. They include things like taking a break for a few weeks while I’m in Spain and figuring out if we really want to do this, because we’re going to have to really want it if we’re going to put all this work into it. Friends with benefits was mentioned, which I HATE and will never ever do with anyone. Or just being friends. Or just being nothing. Just enjoying things while it lasts and then seeing what happens in the end. I move there too (crazy that this is an option) Etc. See what I mean, every idea pretty much sucks.

And I found out he’s already done the long distance thing in 2 relationships and they both sucked. I haven’t done that before, so I don’t know how it is…which is probably why I’m more willing to go with whatever on this. There is a lot I’m leaving out with this of course. But you get the idea.

After not finding anyone worth my time in 6 YEARS, I finally found someone so great. Who treats me so well. Who I have so much fun with. Who sends me pictures of my favorite artists paintings while they’re at the museum in Chicago. Who calls me 10 times a day to tell me about everything happening in Chicago. Who drives 45min to see me at 1am because he misses me. Who has me ask them practice interview questions. Who calls me right after his interview to tell me all about it. Who makes me laugh like no one else I know. Who wishes I lived closer so we could just hang out everyday. Who can talk about the current state of the economy and then King of the Hill in the same conversation.

So what do you do?

Sometimes I’m sure this is going to be my life…not exactly, but similar. Probably without the happy ending. Arg.