Monday, September 29, 2008

beginning of a lovely week

today my math class was cancelled! yay!
so i skipped my early morning class before it and me and alyssa are meeting for lunch at panera instead! she get a snazzy new car so its kinda a celebration of that and class being cancelled and our friend danielle just got back from sicily and may have big news for us as hopefully it will be the beginning of a lovely week.

my dogs love it when im home in bed...they just come in and out and come cuddle with me and then go check on something and then come back...its usually annoying for me, unless i have nothing to do except enjoy what im doing at the the old chinese proverb says:

"know that whatever you are doing is the most beautiful thing."

(obviously i got that off of my Yogi tea bag.)

last night i watched Zach Galifinakus live DVD again...jeez, its just so funny! i just want to marry him so so much.

anyway, have a lovely week.

Thursday, September 25, 2008

what an awesome week!

this week has been so busy, but so wonderful! ive twittered a lot of my excitements, but lets review.

1) 86% on my math test! i suck at math! thats one of the best test grades ive gotten in math, EVER! and it was hard! and we got 3 extra credit points so really its an 89%! i almost had a heart attack when she was handing them back...i cant fail this class and i just barely pass my math classes normally, so i was so nervous!

2) my AD/HD presentation was AMAZING! we kicked ass!!! me and Alyssa are such theatre people and really enjoy being in front of people and teaching, plus our powerpoint was amazing and NOT boring and we dont read off the slides:), and i got to tell lots of good stories about my family and i that everyone really seemed to like. the professor told us later that it was the best presentation shed ever SEEN! love it! oh, and we got a 100% of course.

3) i taught my first lesson to my third graders:) it was about "predicate" and what predicates are and they gave me examples and i put them on a poster. i messed up a little but because i wasnt totally clear on the concept she was trying to convey and i got confused with the different tenses...but i recovered without anything seeming wrong and the kids werent phased by it. my teacher said i did an awesome job and that even though i messed up it wasnt a big deal because i handled it well and the kids went with me wherever i was taking them. she said i was a natural! which is more important because she cant teach me those things! yay!

in other news: today was quite possibly the most stressful day ive ever worked at the office...besides when i worked for dc and wanted to kill myself because i was so stressed out all the time. but the reception is so easy! but today i hardly got any homework done because all these events kept happening at ringing off the hook...secuirty guy there trying to fix things and teach me to use it and then set off the alarm...tons of mail and packages to sign for...computers internet and phones not working...tons of clients coming in for was CRAZY all day! well until about 230p when it calmed down for the most part. i was just overwhelmed all day because its Friday and im just dead by Friday and can only work that job because its not a lot of work on Fridays. today was just ridiculous. now i have 2 papers to write over the weekend and math homework:(

im having birthday issues. i dont know what i want to do because i have run out of ideas and everyones so busy and doesnt have money. i still want to have a big party at my house but i need to get that together if im going to do it and i just dont have the energy or enough friends to fill my house...i think. besides, cassie and olivia arent here and kelsey has traffic school on what looks to be the only day we can get together. i just want someone to plan it for me, afterall its MY birthday. i just want to show up...hehe.

owell, im sure something will be fun.

Monday, September 22, 2008

Finally a Holiday for me!

In honor of national unmarried and singles week i thought id post this beautiful song Pandora just gave me probably to get me to tear up but i just added it to the "possible wedding" song list i keep and then got back to researching the lesson im developing on teaching children about genocide. nothing like preparing a lesson about genocide to keep things in perspective.

all my love.

Beloved One
By Ben Harper

We have both been here before
Knockin upon loves door
Begging for someone to let us in
Knowing this we can agree to keep each other company
Never to go down that road again

My beloved one, my beloved one

Your eyes shine through me
You are so divine to me
Your heart has a home in mine
We wont have to say a word
With a touch all shall be heard
When I search my heart its you I find

My beloved one, my beloved one, my beloved one

You were meant for me, I believe you were sent to me from a dream straight into
To my *arms*
Hold your body* *close to me
You mean the most to me
We will keep each other safe from harm

My beloved one, my beloved one, my beloved one

Thursday, September 18, 2008


hooray! my computer should be back in my possession within the next 2 days! hopefully tomorrow, but im not counting on it. theyve had it for like a month, ive been going CRAZY! i have a project i want to work on it and some pictures and music i need to use it for so ive been going a little nuts.

my birthday is so soon! i believe October 4th Micahs house downtown is hosting a big joint party for a few birthdays. its a black and white theme and its going to be pretty amazing. everyones invited so if u want to come down with me please do! il only know like a handful of people there so itd be nice to have some more friendly faces.

but im hoping the weekend afterwards me and the girls can do something fun. but it will sadly be without cassie. sad face.

schools going ok, tomorrow i have to be there super early for a special meeting thing i have to observe for my class. afterwards ill probably go back to bed, maybe get my conmputer, and then get working on all the papers and homework i have to do. i realized that technically im enrolled in like 23 units this semester. i have 15 units of classes and 8 hrs per week of practicum and large assignments due in everything, including the practicum of course. im so glad im not working! makes me so much less stressed and i actually have time to do things! yay!

i got my hair cut going to color it soon too. it looks lovely, and i think it will actually be stylable now! i was really frustrated before because i couldnt get it to do anything.

i had a big realization recently. im in love with people who dont exist. besides the obvious like Edward Cullen, Jim Halpert, Mr. Darcy, Russell from Almost Famous, Harry Potter, etc. i also tend to fall "in love" with real people i know who arent really the person ive made them up to be at all. somehow i imagined this entirely different person without even realizing it. its really hard to connect the two and say good bye to my fictional people. its similar to the feeling of when you read a book and you love it so much and are so engrossed in it that toward the end you get a little sad and heart broken because your going to miss all your new friends, places, memories...and such. such as Harry Potter series, Twilight series, even Narnia. but it has to happen. i have to say good bye. its a bit freeing, i can begin to like other people without comparing them to all my fictional people ive locked away in my head.

i need to read more. Brideshead revisited is sitting on my night stand untouched. i want to try Wuthering Heights too. and maybe some books about Jesus. its hard to read during the school year because my mind is always so tired from all my lectures and homework...but i love reading. and of course, i need some more fictional characters so fill my empty holes now dont i.

all my love.

PS please someone have a halloween party so i can be Holly Golightly...please?!

Friday, September 12, 2008

because its too early to do homework yet

ive been at work for exactly 40 minutes. its just so early to start homework. im hardly even functioning, let alone could read these boring text books they insist upon giving me. oh green tea "Energy" please provide me with what you boast of.

Good things:
-im totally falling for my 3rd grade class im student teaching in. i wasnt super excited about it, but they're just so cute and fun. and they think i am the COOLEST and give me hugs everyday and the little girls want to hold my hand when we walk places and they're just so cute.

-not working so much has totally decreased my stress level. im eating healthy, making a point to walk more, getting more sleep than usual (for the school year), getting my homework and projects done without being stressed out, and just chillin. however, its still early in the year and we havent had a lot due yet...however, when things do start to get crazy, ill have time to do everything AND still have the weekends free, yay!

-cammie is finally in SD and its been SO wonderful spending time with him. i just have so much fun with him all the time! i forgot how similar we are in a lot of lovely!

-its my birthday soon! October 6th the dreaded 23 year birthday arrives. I feel like 23 is just so dang old. but i do think 23 has the potential to be a great year. school will be winding down for me...i wont be so stressed with trying to work so much all the time...and im trying to plan some adventures for in between. plus, i have this weird feeling that this is going to be the year i meet someone legit to seriously date...its just a feeling i have.

-birthday celebrations this year are going to be crazy! ill have dinner with the family, i want to do cocktails with the girls out somewhere, im throwing myself a big party at our huge house while my parents are out of town (dont worry, they said its ok:), and micahs house and friends are hosting a party for me (kinda) and Julia...their actual room mate. im SO excited to plan everything...i love planning...and i love getting dressed up...i bought a cute little dress already...yay!

-speaking of shopping, yesterday was quite a day. i decided that it was high time to get working on updating my wardrobe bit. i havent bought myself things ive needed for a long time, and now that i have to start getting dressed up for teaching, it was time to get some new things. i LOVE shopping, i had so much fun getting everything! among my favorites are getting $70 shoes for $30 from the Nordstroms sale rack...a black pencil skirt that makes me look like i should carry a whip around with me...and skinny black capris that make me feel like Audrey reincarnated. and those are just the favorites, theres more! so fun!

and now a survey that Olivia did...i miss her. visiting her is one of my adventures I'm scheming.

Does your last ex have a job?
i dont know actually, maybe...i think hes still in school? i try and stay away from my exes...its a good rule.

What were you doing before filling out this survey?
opening the office...woo

Has anyone ever broken your heart?
yeah, but looking back it wasnt that big of a just seemed like it at the time and i didnt have as much perspective on life as i do now. i have a feeling i either have a huge heartbreak or a huge love in my greatest love adventure has yet to arrive.

How late did you stay up last night?
i had to get up at 6a so i went to bed at 10p...and im STILL tired. im just really not a morning person.

What was the first thing you thought this morning?
this is what i literally think EVERY morning when my alarm goes off..."ARE YOU KIDDING?!" im not even exaggerating. however today i woke up before my alarm went off because i think i graded Fransisco's writing to hard at my 3rd grade yesterday...poor Fransisco.

What are you going to do this weekend?
id like to spend time with Matthew...but we'll see if that works out. i think im going to head downtown again and visit loved down everything is more fun downtown.

Do you still talk to the first person you kissed?
not really, but sometimes i stalk him online just to see how hes doing...does that count?

Are you Irish in any way?
actually yes, my grandpa immigrated to Canada from Belfast, Ireland. he has an accent and i have family in Ireland and everything!

Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?
it depends who im talking with. if its my girl friends it ok, but for some reason boys really like to bring it up with me and i really dont like talking about it with them. call me crazy.

Have you ever kissed someone you weren't dating?
once. i DONT recommend it.

Ever kissed someone younger than you?
first and longest boyfriend was a whopping 2 years younger than me. that was a lot for high school. i was only 1 grade above him but he was young for his grade and i was old for mine. im a creeper ok?

Older than you?
yep, the other two were a year older and then 3 years older i think. yeah thats right, ive kissed whopping 3 people. mostly because i dont let that creepy guy at the bar who bought you a drink slobber all over my face. ill pass, thanks.

Are you happy right now?
i just really tired and its cloudy so i wish i was in bed...and i dont want to do my homework...but im looking forward to the weekend! yay!

What color are your eyes?
blue. its sweet, except when every guy that hits on me uses it as a pick up line...heard it thanks.

Who/what do you hate currently?
school...i just want to be done. but i like my friends. and i like the kids. just 2 more years...just 2 more years...just 2 more years...

Do you get the recommended eight hours of sleep a night?
i try to get more, my body really likes 9 hours...but i usually get at least 7...then im cranky most of the next day.

When is your birthday?
October 6th...YAY!

Are you multitasking right now? checking out these hot guys waiting in the reception area...trying to look cute and Pam-like while they're here...and doing this blog all at once...hehe

Could you handle being in the military?
gosh no, i HATE secretly really rebellious when it comes to authority. its my big issue with democrats actually...i love your ideas of loving the poor...but i really dont want anyone i dont even know in charge of me. sorry.

Do you believe in karma?
not really. but there is the obvious thing that when you do something mean to someone they probably arent going to be very nice to you back...if not now, then someday...and maybe their friends too.

What are you excited for?
visiting Cammie maybe this weekend! new clothes! my birthday events! and oddly, thanksgiving break because i wont have work or school and i love food and family SO much!

Relationships or one night stands?
Relationships PLEASE

How many piercings do you have?
double pierced ears and my nose of course. BTW im really glad i never got a lip or monroe like i wanted for about a lame now.

Few things you're doing at the moment?
listening to crappy radio, being cold, answering the phone, drinking tea

Who is the last person you talked to on the phone?
Annie the other day i think...i dont really use my minutes, free texting overrides actually talking to people.

Ever kissed in the rain?
of course! its the best!

How's your heart lately?
lonely, but what else is new?

Are you a jealous person?
kinda...depends how my confidence level is at the moment. if im feeling good then i dont care about being jealous...if im feeling bad about myself, then i get fussy

Did you have a good birthday this year?
yeah it was pretty good...goofys kitchen with the girls of course:)

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
no thanks, he was an ass

Are you a heavy sleeper?
not really, i wake up really easily unless im really tired

How many people have you kissed in 2008?
1, it sucked

How did you feel when you woke up today?
so cranky...its still dark out! i just could NOT wake up

Kiss on the first date?
its been known to happen, but ive learned my lesson and i dont recommend it

Who was the last person you took a picture of?
myself. its a long story: i was taking my new clothes and matching them with old clothes i never wear in an attempt to make some new outfits...i was going to take pictures of each one and make an iphoto album of all my outfits so i could remember them and pick them out the night before from my computer (yes, just like Cher from Clueless). but then i remembered my computer is STILL at best buy getting fixed...and that it would take forever...and my camera wasnt i put it in to charge and then got distracted watching Friends and i got tired. so after one picture i was over it.

How often do you see your ex?
every 4 years or something...not much. we dont really have anything in common anyway, nothing to even talk about.

Would you ever donate blood?
no way. i have really really little veins so when i go to the doctor the nurses have to use a tiny needle to draw blood...going to donate blood, ugh theyd have to dig around my arm to find them with the huge needles and u can imagine how painful that is. plus, i feel guilted into giving blood so therefore i will not.

Have you ever driven without a license?
no i dont think so?

Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?

Do you want someone dead?
uh no, thats weird

What does your last text message say?
"how about sun the 12th for a birthday party?" from Micah:)

Do you wish someone was with you right now?
i wish i was with my bests...i can think of so many that i miss right now.

Where did you get the shirt your wearing?
Kohls actually...i actually really like it

Is someone in your mind right now?
Olivia because its her survey and because i miss her a lot

Have you ever been in a hotel room with a friend of the opposite sex?
yes! so fun!

Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
depends who im compared too. me vs. Paris Hilton...nope. me vs. children in India...yep.

What are you listening to?
crappy radio playing Marc Antony. oh office music how i hate thee

When is the last time you cried?
wednesday when i saw a dead coyote on the side of the road. i said "im sorry Coyote that we moved into your home and then killed you". it was actually really really sad.

Who were you with last night?
parents and bella and worms...just chillin

Is there someone you wanna date right now?
sometimes. but i tend to have crushes on boys i dont really know. honostly, i wanna date Edward Cullen but thats a secret i dont like to discuss with normal people.

Friday, September 05, 2008

Cinematic Adventures and such

im SO excited for the following films. Usually I can wait until it comes on video and just netflix it, but these ones i think i need to see in the theatre. the last year of movies were just awful, this year looks SO promising!

Hamlet 2 current
Burn After Reading Sept. 12
Austrailia Nov. 14
Twilight Nov. 21 (OMG)
Revolutionary Road Dec. 26
Harry Potter 6 ??

AND the following shows are all coming in October, im not sure i can contain myself!
Oct. 1 Sigur Ros
Oct. 3 Swell Season and Iron & Wine
Oct. 19 Conor Oberst and the Mystic Valley Band
Oct. 29 Neil Young and Deathcab for Cutie

i need tickets to all these events STAT.


Monday, September 01, 2008

just when i thought i couldnt love Klimt anymore, i find this among the prints i bought from the museum in Vienna. the actual piece is in Munich so i didnt get to see it, but its amazing! most of the gold in the picture is inlayed gold leaflets...LOVE isnt a strong enough word to describe my emotion for this picture.

lately ive been super self conscious. i think ive gained a little weight since ive been home and i feel so weird about it. i dont even think anyone else can really tell, but i feel just awful about myself. my self confidence is currently in the toilet. i started looking up ugly people online to make myself feel better. i think i have a complex. 

im sick. not only do i feel like crap, but im just so lethargic and antisocial because i feel irritable and so so tired all the time. all my family in the area is coming over today! uncle, aunt, and lukey pukey. and my aunt and cousin are here from michigan. and even brother is coming over! we're having rice and beans and drinking and laying in the pool and having fun. im tired (of course) and i dont like this hot weather. it just makes me want to take a nap with my fan.

tomorrow i meet all the third graders im going to work with. its their first day of school! im going to bring in some show and tell items to introduce myself. i had to pick 5:
-a drawing journal to show some drawings and that i like art and to represent books because i like to read also
-the art print i posted above to show i like art and my favorite artist
-my little eiffel tower from France to show i like to travel
-a picture of an ipod to show i like music
-a picture of my family

i thought that was a pretty good representation of me.
ok, back to the festivities.