Friday, August 29, 2008

Do You Hear the People Sing?

this week was the beginning of the end of my life. school was long and boring and i cant believe i even made it through the days. highlights include:
-literally almost having a panic attack in my math class. simply because its math and i cant do it. thank goodness Alyssa and Danielle snapped me out of it. what would i do without them.
-after sitting down still and quiet for about 4 hours i asked the professor for a break and then slumped down on the table like i was friends thought it was quite funny, however i was completely serious.
-i have no idea how to do my math homework.

i also went to my practicum school to help my teacher prep her classroom, and i went to lots of grade level meetings about curriculum and discipline and an all staff meeting with updates about the school in general. im not really excited about my practicum. to be honest, im not really excited about anything really. im concerned about myself and my apathetic attitude and lack of motivation toward EVERYTHING im committed too. all i look forward to is what i do outside of school and work. this isnt good. i get graded in my classes on "professionalism" and engaging in groups and discussions...i need an attitude boost. i need endorphins. i need to exercise. i need a math tutor.

now im sick with allergies, oh joy. i feel just awful.
and the large black man from UPS just totally hit on me, that was weird. apparently my hair color brings out my beautiful eyes. oh jeez, come on dude ive heard that one a million times.

last night i went to see Les Miserables in Vista. it was amazing! its my favorite book and i love musicals, so i enjoyed it immensely. plus we had a delicious picnic and drank wine sitting on the was so nice. i was so moved by the play, i already have pondered and loved the themes from the book, but seeing it with all my senses was overwhelming and just amazing. the final song had my bawling for the 3rd time and i wanted to share how moving the lyrics were.

Do you hear the people sing
Lost in the valley of the night?
It is the music of a people
Who are climbing to the light.

For the wretched of the earth
There is a flame that never dies.
Even the darkest night will end
And the sun will rise.

They will live again in freedom
In the garden of the Lord.
They will walk behind the plough-share,
They will put away the sword.
The chain will be broken
And all men will have their reward.

Will you join in our crusade?
Who will be strong and stand with me?
Somewhere beyond the barricade
Is there a world you long to see?
Do you hear the people sing?
Say, do you hear the distant drums?
It is the future that they bring
When tomorrow comes!

Will you join in our crusade?
Who will be strong and stand with me?
Somewhere beyond the barricade
Is there a world you long to see?
Do you hear the people sing?
Say, do you hear the distant drums?
It is the future that they bring
When tomorrow comes...
Tomorrow comes!

Sunday, August 24, 2008


lets see.
today is my last day of freedom. so sad. i hate school. im trying to have a better attitude though so im not depressed all semester. so today im going to dye my hair, buy groceries, maybe a new top, and enjoy my day...because its the last one im going to have for a long time. a day with no homework. a day with no deadlines. a day with a full nights sleep beforehand. a day of infamy. 

BTW Spring Awakening was incredible. please please please go see it, its the best show ive ever seen...and ive seen my share. the music, sets, lighting, acting, blocking, singing, writing...everything is just amazing. i kinda want to go again and sit on the stage...maybe ill wait until im in New York someday. its so weird, it just felt like such a privilege to be watching i was getting to experience something that was so special and so private. but afterwards we were pretty emotionally vaunerable and raw feeling. good shows leave you that way i suppose.

Thursday im going to see les miserables in Vista. its my favorite book but ive never seen the play, im so excited! one thing about summer i do like, all the outdoor plays and nice.

alright, off to the store for hair dye and fun.

Friday, August 22, 2008

Some Things You May Not Have Known About Me:

Note about my last blog which may have seemed depressing and strange. I think I was just fussy because no one could hang out and school starts Monday and I was gearing up for a crazy life again (which im not particularly fond of) and I miss cassie and I miss going to amazing “cultural events” everyday. Im having issues but I didn’t realize it until I just read back my survey. But really, I am happy. It just takes work sometimes to feel that way. But I choose to be happy, so there.

And now for a proper blog after a long hiatus.

Some things you may not have known about me:

-on Tuesday and Thursday mornings this semester, I am doing a practicum in a 3rd grade class in san marcos. Im excited to work with kids again but since ive already worked with 3rd grade extensively in previous semesters im a little worried ill be bored with the repetition. But then again, teachers teach the same grade every year and they still like it.

-I had an AMAZING day at Disneyland yesterday with my dear friend Alyssa from school. I couldn’t believe how hot and jostled I was all day but how happy I was anyway. It was SO nice to forget my troubles and just enjoy life. I think Walt had a great vision. And we made SO many friends there! Lots of cute cast member boys, sweet hipsters behind us in line who heard us talking about LOST, etc. SO fun.

-ive been eating a lot of cheese. I used to not eat any dairy but while I was in Europe the cheese was so good and now im just on a cheese kick. I only have it a few times a week on bread or something and it doesn’t make me sick because I don’t have a ton…but I just don’t like milk products in my body so its weird to me.

-I realized yesterday that I flirt a lot. I never noticed because im just an outgoing person, but I definitely seek out cute boys and find reasons (if I don’t already have one) to talk to them. It just comes so naturally, and im sure they don’t mind. Maybe im just making friends. Haha im ridiculous.

-I LOVE reading. I read at least 10 legit books over the summer. Im about to start another and see how far I can get before I run out of time again (when school starts getting crazy again)

-I LOVE walking. I miss it so much, im working on finding a good place to walk…somewhere flat and pretty where I can take my doggies and listen to my podi. Im thinking of taking up hiking. Not the intense kind…really just walking out in nature. So adventurous! Ha

-im going to see Spring Awakening tomorrow with Micah and im SO excited! And then on Thursday im going to see Les Miserables with Alyssa and her friends Emma and Byron. We’re going to sit on the lawn and drink wine and be fun.

-Ive decided i want to move to north park and live in those cute little houses and work in one of the balboa park museums with the childrens programs. i want to ride a pink vespa to work.

-Im sick of summer, I want it to be autumn now and forever.

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Because I dont want to get ready for "work"

ive been meaning to update in SO long. im sorry. ive had time and ive had things to write but maybe i just got blogged out from Europe. plus, ive been doing such fun things instead of just school, work, and blogging. so yay! anyway, i thought id try and get back in the groove with kelseys myspace survey (see below).

in other news:
-taking my computer to get fixed AGAIN (3rd times the charm?). try fixing it the first time guys. but it was fun, i think i might get a date out of the cute guy who helped me. sweet.
-i got a job working as a receptionist on Fridays again! yay! im going in today to visit annie and get an update on anything new. it wasny my favorite job ever, i was glad to peace out, but its also a great job so im just going to suck it up. i think its just because i know what i want to do and the steps to get there is just taking so damn long.
-im going to disneyland! new ride!
-im going to see Spring Awakening!
-my friend cammie is moving here SO soon!
-cassie will be home so soon!
-school starts monday:((((((

What was the highlight of your week?
well its only wednesday, all the fun stuff is happening this weekend! but i guess so far, last night with the girls getting starbucks and watching gilmore girls with jordan was pretty fun!

Whose car were you in last?
mine, driving home from the girls house

What color is the shirt your wearing?
white with lots of colors on it. my favorite vintage shirt actually.

How long is your hair?
longest its ever been! love it!

Last movie you watched?
catch and release, last night before bed. i actually kinda liked it? it was a good "whatever" movie i guess.

Who were you with?
myself, *sniff*

Last thing you ate?
late night snack of french bread that had just been made that day, yummy. but probably the worst things to eat at midnight before bed, owell.

Last thing you drank?
water from starbucks that tasted like that sour milk smell. yummy.

Who came over last?
annie, to drop of New Moon and pick up Eclipse. the Twilight saga lives on!

Are you happy right now?
i guess, im just lonely. after being with cassie 24/7 in europe...being alone all the time kinda sucks

What did you say last?
"were you a good girl?" talking to worms who just got back from being outside. yep, me and my dogs have plenty of conversations thanks.

Where is your phone?
on my night stand. dont worry, no one will call:(

What color are your eyes?

Are you left-handed?
thank god no, ive seen them take notes in class and its weird. hehe

Spell your name without vowels:
sthr. weird.

Do you have any pets?
to ease my lonliness i have the lovely Bella and Lola aka Worms. but im beginning to notice how much they prefer my mother to me...problem.

Favorite Vacation?
Europe 2008

What do you dislike currently?
annie dogsitting so we can never hang out

What are you listening to?
the computer make noise.

If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
lots of money so i could live in a cute house in north park.

What is your favorite scent?

Who makes you happiest?
my doggies. they joy dogs bring into the world is highly underrated.

What were you doing at midnight last night?
watching catch and release by myself. this is my life.

When is your birthday?
soon! October 6th! big party!

Who has the same phone as you?
all the other hipsters in town who havent upgraded to an iphone yet because they are poor too (and because ATT sucks)

Last time you went swimming in a pool?
last week? having a pool takes all the fun out of it.

Do you read your horoscope?
no, its always ridiculous.

How do you feel about your hair right now?
LOVE IT but i need to redye it asap

Do you bite your nails?

Do you have any expensive jewelry?
yeah. i have a nice watch and 2 rings that are expensive. of course i didnt buy them myself.

Do you wear rings?
right has the irish clabbah ring and the left has my purity ring

Myspace or facebook?
facebook! myspace needs to get it together asap

What was or is your favorite subject in school?
childrens literature into film. i always love my art and film classes, but my teachers are always crazy.

Do you have Verizon?
sick, no. t-mobile thanks

Do you have a type of boy or girl do you usually fall for?
yes, its almost funny because my friends can pick him out of a room before ive even seen him.

Do you have any hidden talents?
i can sing. pretty good actually. but you didnt hear it from me.

Favorite Song?
currently? it changes so often...but i think a constant favorite is: This is the First Day of my Life- Bright Eyes

Do you like to sing at all?
see above.

Dream Job?
being that lady in the museum thats taking the kids on an art adventure. its going to happen.

Where does most of your family live?

Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
yes, but not in comparison to the people around here. but yes in comparison to people in general.

What was the first thing you thought when you woke up?
are you kidding?! (i usually think this every really not a morning person)

Do you drink?
i think i enjoy it too much. i have to work really hard to not drink everyday. its just so good

Know any other languages?
sometimes spanish...i bet i could take on italian and get it pretty fast too

Ever write a coded message?
probably when i was young and carefree

Have you ever been IN a wedding?
yes, 2. ring girl for my old nannies wedding when i was like 6 or 7 and a lovely lady in the besties wedding last year.

Do you have any children?

Did you take a nap today?
actually yes, a lovely 3 hour nap to be exact. why? because im awesome!

Who has the same birthday as you?
i actually dont know anyone...hmm

Ever met anyone famous before?
Sawyer from LOST. ok ok i didnt talk to him, but we made eye contact when i walked by him on the plane and i walked behind him for like 20 minutes getting off the plane.

Do you want to be famous one day?
i wouldnt be opposed to it.

Any Pet Peeves?
yes, but i cant think of any! sar

Are you multitasking right now?
NO! yay!

Do you like Britney Spears?
god no

What is your least favorite chore?
doing the dishes. i dont mind it if i dont do it that often....but because i do them SO frequently i hate them

Last place you drove your car?
home from best buy

Ever been out of the country?
lots of times! i love traveling! lets see...canada, mexico, hawaii and puerto rico count?, all over europe twice, india twice, singapore for a day...looooveeee traveling

Where were you born?
Anaheim, CA

What is your average cell phone bill?

Who are you thinking about right now?
kelsey, because she did this survey before and her answers are cute

When was the last time you laughed REALLY hard?
with the girls recently i think...maybe when annie made that "toilet paper" face when we went to sushi. i almost couldnt drink my was amazing.

How many pairs of shoes do you own?
too many

Are your toes always painted?
no, but they are a hot shade of "look at me" red right now

How many piercings do you have?
2 in each ear and one in the nose

What are you doing today?
finishing this, then watching some tv. i love vacation!

Have you ever been gambling?
i think ive done slots before in vegas and pala...its pretty fun if u like wasting money

When is the last time you updated your page?
when i got home from Europe i think

Do you like rollercoasters?
only legit ones at theme parks...not fair rides

Have you ever been to disneyland or world?

Last thing you cooked?
pesto and pasta...again. its a favorite.

How's the weather?
nice! but im ready to wear sweaters and scarves thanks

Do you e-mail?
sometimes...mostly facebook now though

What's the stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone?
cant think of anything actually...

Last time you were sick?
worst flu EVER in Paris...awful

What states have you lived in?
CA, Michigan, and wisconsin for a summer

Do you wish you could move?
YES. ive settled on North Park...ive found houses to live in already on ready to go!

What is your dream car?
mercedes benz. it could be a reality.

Have you ever wanted someone you cant have?
story of my life.

If you could be anywhere right now where would it be?
in Forks, WA with Edward Cullen (i know im obsessed, i know hes not real, leave me alone)

Are you happy with your life?
not really...i hate school...i hate the town i live in...i get bored and stressed and depressed all the time. BUT im working on it.