lonely

have we ever discussed how i dont like being alone for long periods of time?
i need alone time for like 2 hrs a day, maybe...usually just to rejuvinate and have quiet for awhile...maybe its the ADD...

anyway, besides that i neeeed people around

so today im kinda depressed and realllly lonely.
all my friends are dead

olivias on her way home, ill see her tommorow!
kelseys livin it up in burbank
annies off doing weird stuff in sanfran
micahs in julian
cassies been eaten by school

and i dont have that many other close friends i would wanna play with today or yesterday...

well...i guess its not all bad, i do have to go to school at like 2pm until late tonight...so its not like i have a ton of time...but i guess because its a mix of the last 2 days...lonely esther.

today i have to go turn in some parts of my art project i forgot to on tuesday...and pick up my big one. study for psycology and take the final...which isnt cumulative so it should be easy peasy....i should ask her if i dont have to take it and i can still get an A in the class...thatd be sweeeet.


last night was a pretty big deal. american idol finale...but more importantly, LOST finale!
it was so intense! (once again, had to watch it all alone) and kinda confusing! but i knew locke would be back...and friggen walt coming all creepy like...and whats with the flash forward? is it a flashforward? why is jack such a psyco? is his dad alive? is it what he thinks is going to happen? did it happen and now they're back on the island again playing a big game? why do these people wanna go home...crazy ben is right, most of them have nothing to live for back there...is that on purpose? and what the hell charlie?! u could have swam out! u had scuba gear all ready for u, by the time that whole place flooded u could have gotten out...u made it down without any gear, u could have made it up again! u make ur own destiny stupid! arrrrrg. great, now the one character i like the best is dead...perfect. couldnt have been one of the countless other people on the plane...had to be charlie. i cant wait till this show is over and i know all the answers...but then again, then the mystery would be over.

i miss harry potter.

u know who else i miss? my friends.

its finally sunny out! lets lay out! woohoo! o wait, no...no ones here.

itll be fine, tomorrow after work ill have more fun time! yay!