A Girl Could Get Used To This.

Dancing in a sudden summer rain storm in a medieval castle? check. 

Yesterday afternoon Africa came by with a bunch of food and cooked for me, brought me fruit, translated my vitamin instructions for me, brought me cake, and then gave me amazing foot massages while we watched a movie with the roomie. YEAH I KNOW, someone isn't used to this kind of treatment and someone didn't even know how to respond. Then after he had to work but came back later to sleep with me (and make some sweet sweet loving obvi) even though he could have gotten sick. We were up chatting and laughing until the wee hours, he doesn't get off until 2am, so after we slept the morning away and had breakfast in bed he agreed to escort me up to Bratislava castle. I've lived here almost 5 months and still haven't been to the main tourist attraction.

First we went into the old city to a nice place and he bought me lunch and told me crazy Africa stories about tape worms...yeah, apparently it was quite common...then we walked hand in hand around windy cobble stone streets up up up to the castle that towers over the city. He knew the way and was my little guide. We took ancient stairs, peeked into tiny worn out churches, strolled along colored little houses, and then around the castle grounds. We sat on the bench awhile in the shade relaxing and laughing when the weather suddenly went from a balmy 77 to cloudy and cool...then it was sprinkling...then raining...then HAILING. First of all, little socal girl isn't used to HAIL in the middle of May, but ok I am getting used to weird weather. But, hiding from the rain for 20 minutes in a medieval castle overlooking the city isn't a bad way to spend an afternoon.

Afterwards we walked back down and to his restaurant for his next shift, I sat at the bar drinking fancy water and trying to get the energy back to walk the rest of the way home and we just chatted and...
it was just a really nice day. 


So why was I still thinking about PAG sometimes? And thinking about the way PAG would look at me like I was the most amazing and beautiful girl in the entire world. No one has ever looked at me the way he did. Is that something thats supposed to be instant or can just come with time? Do I even want it to with Africa? Why can't I just calm the fuck down and enjoy whatever it is we have between us right now and forget about PAG, since clearly he has forgotten about me. Maybe I am not ready for this. But I FEEL ready for this. Something is wrong with me.

So yeah...crazy is comin' round again...

xoxo

HL